FruitLoops
Full Member
Hi All, started my journey 10th Jan. Was terrified of getting on the scales.
Low and behold, my fears became true and more. I had a massive shock. Actually disgusted in myself. Something needed to be done.
So, in I walk, sat down with the rest of the newbies. Embarassed to Hell, because I would be happy at their weight.
I have always been a big girl. My family are a big family. But this is ridiculous.
I don't even like looking in a mirror, I avoid them at all costs. It was getting me down. Didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Mentally, I was at breaking point. Even though i'm in a loving relationship, I was starting to doubt that he loved me anymore due to my weight. I feel like like i'm not enough anymore. He still tells me he loves me every day. I can feel myself starting to doubt him.
I ashamed to say, Yes, I let myself get huge. Bigger than huge. I weighed 34 stone 11 pound.
Something NEEDED to be done. I weighed myself last year about march. I was only 26 stone then. So in the space of 9 months, I have gained an extra human in weight.
Weighed in 17/01/19 - 34 st 2 ½ lbs - 8.5lb loss. Got my half stone award. Woop. Didn't think I had lost anything because I didn't feel any different.
2nd Weigh in last night. Slightly disappointed in myself. So in two weeks I have lost 10lbs.
I am aiming to be 30 stone by May as I have a wedding to attend. (Is this even achievable?)
I CAN do this. No more negative nelly thinking. Need to start being more positive.
Low and behold, my fears became true and more. I had a massive shock. Actually disgusted in myself. Something needed to be done.
So, in I walk, sat down with the rest of the newbies. Embarassed to Hell, because I would be happy at their weight.
I have always been a big girl. My family are a big family. But this is ridiculous.
I don't even like looking in a mirror, I avoid them at all costs. It was getting me down. Didn't want to do anything or go anywhere. Mentally, I was at breaking point. Even though i'm in a loving relationship, I was starting to doubt that he loved me anymore due to my weight. I feel like like i'm not enough anymore. He still tells me he loves me every day. I can feel myself starting to doubt him.
I ashamed to say, Yes, I let myself get huge. Bigger than huge. I weighed 34 stone 11 pound.
Something NEEDED to be done. I weighed myself last year about march. I was only 26 stone then. So in the space of 9 months, I have gained an extra human in weight.
Weighed in 17/01/19 - 34 st 2 ½ lbs - 8.5lb loss. Got my half stone award. Woop. Didn't think I had lost anything because I didn't feel any different.
2nd Weigh in last night. Slightly disappointed in myself. So in two weeks I have lost 10lbs.
I am aiming to be 30 stone by May as I have a wedding to attend. (Is this even achievable?)
I CAN do this. No more negative nelly thinking. Need to start being more positive.