NumNums no more Numb Bum diary...

Well,

I wasn't going to start one of these. Was going to merrily plod. After looking at some MFP before and after, or even during weight loss pictures, it's inspired me to take some.

I'm not happy, I'm disgusted. Rolls of fat... I have a saggy belly and stretch marks from having three children, they're my battle scars, I can't do TOO much about them, but I can the weight. And I know with weight loss, these should improve a little aswell.

Why do I want to lose weight?

I have arthritis, I have since I was 2. Being over weight, or even on the heavier side puts pressure on my joints. Long term pain with exercising v's long term health and joint care, there is no comparable.

Three young beautiful children. With all my current medical conditions, I need to help me to help them. I need to be in the best physical form to raise them. And improving my diet, will improve theres aswell. Because if I'm cooking healthy for myself, they better eat it too!



My partner, we're not married but we've been together since we were 16, 8 years in June. When we got together, I was a slim 130lbs toned and healthy. He loves me now and always has, but I know a mans eyes wonder, I don't want them to wonder any further than me.

My stomach at 16/17 - showing off my belly button piercing... lol



Myself. For a long time I have looked in the mirror and been disgusted. I don't think for the past 6 years, practically 7, I've looked in the mirror once and been happy with the reflection looking back.

Goals...

Into 11st's
Get into Size 12 (comfortably)
Get into 10st's
Get into size 10 (comfortably)
Get into 9st's
Get to 9st 4lbs.

Eating healthy
Lowering fat/sugar content
Exercise - Moderately due to arthritis


Sadly I didn't take any at 13st 1lbs, but here follows the pictures for 12st 3lb



And this is me... hoping to achieve my goal weight by July. But, that's only if I maintain 2lbs a week, which I know wont happen, but atleast by July I should lose a good 20lbs .

Hope you not been sick at my pictures.

Okay,

My little boy is now 12 weeks.

36 weeks pregnant (mid october)



40 weeks pregnant



And in those pictures I weighed about 175 lbs (12st 7lbs) I put on no weight during pregnancy. I went up to 13st 1lb (183lbs) after newyear/christmas.

One thing did have to change...

I quite successfully played online games for about 12 years. Never used to effect my weight, but as I got older and things changed, and depression for one reason of another. I used to get absorbed into games.

I'd be raiding in World Of Warcraft 3/4 nights a week for 3-5 hours at a time. Not healthy in any way at all.

Thankfully after having James, he fills up my time, ALOT. And my mind and eating habits are changing very quickly.

Good bye old life

Hello new life!!!

I feel your baby tummy pain my youngest was a ten pounder and it's never gone back i looked pretty much like your pics too!!! Amazing how i managed to run round after the first two in that state!!

The good news is that having been virtually at goal 6 months ago (quit smoking.....dammit!!) I can honestly say that it will look loads better!! I promise!!! Crinkly as hell haha but a lot better. Spanx will be your friend

Try not to be so down on your body. I really felt sad reading your posts. It's not fun feeling so awfull about your body but remember....... It's recently done an amazing thing!! 12 measly weeks ago you were growing a human in there. It takes time and a bit of TLC but things do improve!!

I know hun, but my stomachs not got any worse in the last two pregnancies, the damage was done when I carried my first son and I'm a little worried after neglect and 6 years, I stand no chance.

I saw a lassy on MFP forums who had a pretty bad overhang and she's attacked it with crunches and sit ups, leg lifts and other stuff and it's gone back quite a bit.

I think I'll feel better when I get down past 11st 7lbs, that'll be my lightest weight since having my first son.

I'm trying not to dwell on it too much because I don't want to look at the pictures and give up. I want them to keep driving me forward to a new me.

I haven't taken any photo's of me. I really should for inspiration to lose the weight. In fact i will take some tonight.

Well done to you though... the first step is doing something about it.

I don't have any children yet. I have more stretch marks than my mum and she's had 3 kids. which really annoys me.

Losing 12lbs in a month is fab though, keep up the good work

Feeling slightly defeated today.

I feel like a tummy tuck is going to be the only answer to ever achieve what I would 'eventually' like.

I'm not going to make any choices about surgery until I've reached my goal weight and in that time I'm going to start doing abdominal exercises. I'm hoping I'll be able to get it back to a state naturally that I'm happy with.

My friend has recently gone through a breast enlargement and had nothing but problems with the scar bursting, seeping and various things.

Oh, just wish I could sleep and wake up in about 6 weeks time.

Struggling to eat anything at all today now, really frustrating. I hope my mind isn't thinking 'the less I eat the more I'll lose' because I know that's not the way.

I'm looking into getting some exercise equipment.

I need something for my abs, desperately!

I walk 4 miles a day (when kids aren't on school holidays)
I try to do an hour of two of house cleaning, hovering up and down stairs.
I'm going to try and add in a couple mornings of swimming once the kids go back to school if Mum will look after James.

Hey you,

I think surgery has to be a last resort. We have all talked about it on here. I am really big and know that no matter how much I exercise and tone up I will definitley have loose and saggy skin, which fills me with absolute dread. Trust me you are not alone. I get so down about it, but discussing it on here with my minimins friends really helps to put things in perspective.

A couple of the guys on here mentioned the palmers cocoa butter cream is great for stretch marks, and although I have never carried a baby, I am covered in them from ballooning to different weights. I bought some and I think it's great, I have really noticed a difference especially on my disgusting baggy arms. I know it's not much, but the little things can really help.

I think it's great that you decided to start a diary, I really look forward to reading it.

Lot' of love xxx

Thanks hun, it's really good when people recommend products to you that they've seen a difference using. Will deffo get some.

Yeah surgery is like my 5 year last resort. WHEN I lose the weight (not if) and have done all I can to tighten it, if there's no improvement in 5 years, then I might consider it for my 30th birthday present lol.

x

Sore throat and head ache today eurghhhh!

Oh no, rest up hun. Don't want to make it worse xx

Hey hun,

You don't need equipment for abs, all you need is yourself.

do 2 60 mins plank a day
60 crunches (3 sets of 20)
and a really good one that love is leg raises - lie on the floor on your back with your palms facing upward (so you cant cheat and use your arms) with your legs out straight lift them up in the air until they are 90 degrees with your body and then lower them back down NOT touching the floor. do 3 sets of 10 of these a day

Hope this helps.

Thanks ladies, weigh in day tomorrow, hoping for 2lbs loss!

Becca, you have 3 beautiful beautiful children, when I was pregnant I was told not to bother thinking about weight loss for a good 6 months, a mother had better things to do, and I was also told that it would take me a good 12 months to get my body anywhere near being back to "normal" what ever that may be.
My stomach muscles are gone my tummy now starts from under my boobs, and I know that no matter how much weight I loose I will have to do some serious tummy toning !, there are some good stretch mark treatments available, not that you can get rid but they can be improved
, one of the best is bio oil, personally I keep the manufacturers of baby oil in business, I actually bath in it, lovely warm bath plenty of baby oil in it, or if you can't be bothered cleaning the bath straight after I plaster it on while I am still wet once I get out of the bath or shower.
I do however think you are being incredibly hard on yourself, cut yourself some slack girl, you will get there and there are plenty of people here to support you.

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I do however think you are being incredibly hard on yourself, cut yourself some slack girl, you will get there and there are plenty of people here to support you.

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I can easily get obsessed with things and I find if I let myself get obsessed, I work harder.

But yeah I agree, my mum says I'm being too hard on myself, so is my man. But my mum is wash board stomach at 52 after 3 kids and I'm jealous lol. But my skin is nothing like hers, I scar easily, I have dry skin.

I've been looking up exercises on you tube. I'm going to download youtube onto my Xbox so I can play them on the big TV and follow them infront of the TV.

I'm feeling alot more positive, but the first battle is the weight!

Weigh-in day today. Really would love 2lbs for first stone down and to take me to under 170lbs!

Lost 1lb. So I'm 170lbs on the button (12st 2). Slightly annoyed at myself, I was really hoping for 2lb loss. I've been really good this week... well better than other weeks where I lost more.

I need to up my water, I think my body might start retaining fluids, I don't drink enough as it is and what I do drink is diet fizzy juice.

I'm on a treatment called Humira for my eye condition. I have to inject it every 2 weeks. It makes me feel pretty ill for a few days after it. I'm suffering really bad migraine for the past two days and I feel like I could just sit down with a big bar of chocolate and take away. - Thankfully I can't afford to so that's not an option.

Another week again now...!

Definitley up your water intake. If I drink plenty I tend to have a slightly bigger loss. I usually add a drop of sugar free squash to mine, helps it go down easier!
Well doen on the loss, keep up the good work

I remember a while ago where my slimming world consultant gave a challenge to people who drank diet fizzy drinks, to go without for a week and see the difference in their weight loss, I was very surprised with the results!!
I've never drank such drinks as diet coke etc. I drink sparkling water (17p for 2 ltr) and a drop of no added sugar squash. My daughter thinks she gets "pop" but so much better for her! Anyway just a thought.
Sometimes having no money can serve a perpose, I've not been able to go food shopping today so no Saturday night chocolate treat for me lol.
Keep yr chin up bec nxt week not only will you of lost A STONE you will break the next kg bracket 1 6 something instead of 1 7 something!! Whoop whoop !!

Well it's my mans Birthday today. I bought the worlds smallest cake. I've had a small slice which has served as my breakfast for today, lol.

I could try that and see how it tastes. I have a real issue with liquids, I don't drink enough of anything and my mum/doctors have been concerned for years.

I think I might make a chart for me to use during the day so I can be visually aware of how little I drink and it'll remind myself to have a drink!

I have to go into the kitchen several times a day to make James bottles, so I'll try having a glass of water every time I go in!