edibeedee's Phase 2

Phase 2 has begun. WI on Tuesday, have been 100%. Today was communion at church and I did have the little chunk of unleavened bread dipped in the wine. Had a meeting after church and they always serve lunch when we have meetings. Glad it was meatloaf which I don't really like anyway but the mashed potatoes and gravy was a challenge and they must have been good because people were eating big piles of it and going back for more. Managed to resist, had my choco terta.:flirt2: They now have aqua zumba at my gym so hope to try that on Wednesday. Broke my foot about 6 weeks ago so hopefully I can do that with out putting much weight on my foot. Off to watch Hollyoaks on line. I am just on Jan. 2009. Used to watch on BBC America but they took it off then I couldn't get it online anymore. Just found it again, yippee.

Hard to believe I have made it through week 1. On to week 2. Looking forward to WI 2mro.

well done to you on resisting and making it through your first week. that is the biggest hurdle over, hopefully it will be relatively easy ride. good luck 2m.

Thanks sunshineeyes! Weigh in this morning, lost 9.9 lbs. I feel great, worked out a bit after weigh in and treated myself to a 0 calorie coffee from starbucks after that. That even helped get things moving if you know what I mean so added bonus.

Last night I had all but talked myself into eating something today after weigh-in. I ran through my head all kinds of things to eat. This went on for hours but I decided not to do it and continue 100%. I am so glad I resisted as I want to be in a better place weight wise when school starts in August. I think I am in ketosis but don't know for sure, I don't use the sticks and the only sure way I have of knowing is how food smells to me but I have not been around food smells yet. I have been cold today even though it is 101F out today.

Went to Aqua Zumba this morning, it was very good, my legs are so sore. As a treat I got in the hot tub and that was heaven. I hope to go again next Wednesday. My plan is to go to the gym again on Friday to do the machines and treadmill. Off this afternoon to get a mani/pedi, that should be relaxing. Hoping to get more water in me today.

Turned into a 'ME' day. Hadn't thought of that until I got home from my mani/pedi. 102 degrees F at 6:17pm ughhh.

What a rough morning I had Dear Diary. Went to have my annual doctor's visit today and had to be fasting for the blood test I would have. Had my last shake about 10pm last night. My appointment was for 8:45am this morning. I figured that would be ok as I usually have my first shake each morning between 9:30 and 10:30. I sipped on water before the appt so I would be able to give the urine sample when the time came. When I got into the doc office, it was freezing cold. When I am really cold, my muscles cramp up in various parts of my body so by the time the doc gets in there my side muscles were cramping and I started to feel sick like I was going to pass out. Laid down so the doc could do the exam and the pap. By this time I am clammy and sweating. The doc knows and supports my weight loss plan and she pointed out that my blood sugar was most likely low due to not eating for more that 10 hours. She told me to go ahead and have a few sips of my shake as I told her I had it with me. I take tetras in a little cooler bag when I am out and about and was planning on having it as soon as the appt was over. I was very weak, went to get my blood drawn and was supposed to go for the 'great smashing' (mammogram). I felt so bad that I told them I would have to reschedule for another time. I still needed to stop by another office in the same complex to pick up more tetras, powder shakes and soup and knew I could only go a little more before I would need to lay down. My muscles cramped for the next couple of hours. I went home and got in the bed and slept a bit. Still feel yuck. I have been increasing my water in take these last few days, I know the more water I drink, I can try to ward off the muscle cramps when I get cold. It has been so hot here I haven't been too cold but the doc office was freezing.

Toying with the idea of eating a bit of protein, grilled shrimp and a bit of grilled veg. Just had a shake an hour ago and feel a bit better. One high note though is that according to the docs scales, I have lost another 4.6 lbs.

I am glad I resisted going to get some food last night. I still feel weak today. I now realize that going to the doctor's office involved a lot of energy and by me not being able to eat before I went, I didn't realize that I absolutely did not have the fuel to keep me going, I was running on fumes, completely out of gas.

I am glad at this point, I have another week before I have to start being around people and food daily. It has been nice to be able to avoid being around people much while I get established in this plan. Luckily it will be me taking a class and most of the people will be strangers. A lot of people, friends, co-workers can be uncomfortable around me while eating and I am not. I think some people get offended. I have had people tell me, I'm going to make you eat. This one lady would say this to me over and over. It is also hard for me to deal with some people's reaction to huge weight lose. One woman actually a co-worker stopped talking to me and when she finally told me what the problem was, after 2 or 3 times asking her, her reason made no sense. I guess she felt she couldn't come out an say, I am mad at you for losing all that weight. This is someone I need to talk to in the course of my job so it was very difficult.

Anyway dear diary, I did the 10 minute targeted sculpting, I worked on my arms. Decided I needed to work on toning lower body and arms. I lose the most weight in my upper body, head to waist so need to assist the other parts, ughhh.... It did make me feel better after so I am glad I did it.

Still feeling a bit weak, I don't understand why I should still be feeling this way. I did eat a bit of grilled shrimp and salad last night. Felt a bit better last night but I find that I cannot exert much energy right now. I want to workout this week but don't know if I will be able to do it.

:booboo::d'oh::sign0007uh.....It finally dawned on me, I am dehydrated! That is why I have been feeling crap. I have been drinking water and sports drink for the electrolytes, all afternoon. The up side is that I did not want to eat anything let alone my shakes so am suffering through the shakes. I do feel much much better!

reflection

Went to the gym yesterday did treadmill and machines, didn't do the kettlebells though. Drank lots of water yesterday. Feel good today. Went to aqua zumba today. It was good and a pretty intense workout.

I have been thinking about my relationship with carbs and have finally admitted that they have to be a very limited part of my life. So sad because I love them so but they do not love me and have caused havoc in my life for years. During this time of fasting I must make a plan for them. I have read in one of the spangled post that it is good to right down how a particular food will be allowed in your life. I just don't know what the plan will be yet. Once a day, month every 3 months in limited quantities?

My goal is to complete my 7 hour online course before the end of the week, to go to the gym on Friday and get my case ready so that I can start my class on Monday.

reflection continues

Had a great day today, spent it with my bestie. Got out and about a little today running errands together. We had a chance to talk about eating low carb as she has learned a lot since being diagnosed with diabetes a few months ago. I have been the last 2 days thinking about how that will be come August. I will start going to WW when I start eating again so that I can strengthen and reinforce good eating habits. Have been 100% except for one small meal almost 2 weeks ago. I am taking measurements so that I can really see my progress. Wonder if I should measure every week or every 2 weeks? Well on to tomorrow. Really need to finish my online course. should take between 5-7 hours.

Keep up the good work me:553::girlpower:arty0011:

Got an invitation to meet a group of teachers for this after noon at the movies. We went to see Bad Teacher, it was good. I made it through the concession without buying anything and I took my own water and drank my choco tetra while some of the others dug into nachos piled high with meat, guac, sour cream and cheese w/jalapeno peppers. I could also hear people all around munching on popcorn but I stayed strong, thank you Jesus! The friend who invited me knows I am liquid and she was so supportive, I need all the support and encouragement I can get.

After the movie, the plan was to go for happy hour. I told my friend when I got the invite that I would have class that evening and would not be going to the happy hour. Found out at my first class last night that we only meet on Mons and Weds instead of Mon-Thurs that I thought so I let me friend keep thinking I had class today and I did not go to happy hour. I don't think I could have been strong there yet, they were going to a Mexican food restaurant that makes killer margarita's. Baby steps, baby steps chica.

I am noticing that I don't have as much pain in my heels as I have been having over the last 3 months. The pain would be so bad especially at night that could barely stand it. I was having a hard time walking. I also suffer from arthritis which runs in my family. This pain is part of the reason for my desperate search for the nirvana of weight loss. I do want to get to a place where I am at peace with my weight.

I can tell my body is changing and I vow to remember how it was at the most weight. I did not know before how it could be but now I do and won't have a need to go back there just to see. Read on a post that the poster was going to have a pair of do or diet jeans. Do them up or go on a diet if you can't. I will also put this plan in place. I want it all to be so easy but I know it is not.

Found out that my niece and her OH and 3 kids will be here for a visit. It will be their 1st time in Texas. We will be celebrating my middle grand-nephew's birthday and my niece's OH birthday as well as their wedding anniversary. They were married 07/07/07. I am still going to be SS. My niece and her OH are excellent cooks. I will ask them to make portion control plates for me to freeze to have in a month or 2.

My air conditioning stopped working yesterday and we have had 100 degrees F plus for days now. Since it is the 4th of July holiday tomorrow, I will have to wait until Tuesday for someone to call me about setting up an appt. for the repair or replacement work. Hope it all gets resolved by the end of business Tuesday as they arrive on Wednesday. Wish me luck. Sitting with the ceiling fans and another fan running trying to stay cool. I also have to clean the house as I have let things go a bit the last month or so with end of the school year and the beginning of me taking my class. Have been taking it really easy for the first 3 weeks on this. Every time I couldn't bear the no food thing, I was able to go to sleep if I wanted, that really helped.

I have to go to class tonight. Really??... on the 4th of July??, how unpatriotic lol. The professor said she would let us leave a little early. Some were concerned about fireworks and needing to be home to watch their houses in case of fire. We are in a drought so there is a burn ban in most of Texas There is a fine if you are caught.

Looking forward to weigh-in tomorrow. I have not checked my weight since last weigh in.

...and summer continues

Had a great visit with my niece and her family. They are a very active family and were really on the go. I had class, homework and school district work the week that they were here but I did get to go on a few activities with them. I let them know that I would not have any food in the house so they had most of their meals out. I decided just before they came that I would eat one meal with them each day. That went pretty good although I did weigh 1.8 lbs more at this weeks weigh in.
I am going to list what I ate so that I will have a record of it because 1.8lb gain is not bad considering. Anyway here goes:
Wednesday-hamburger patty w/cheese and onion
Thursday-Mexican food restaurant-taco meat without the shell, guac, queso lettuce/tomato salad. Ate one tortilla chip, chewed it but it just tasted of oil to me and I spit it out. I did however have a Mexican martini, yum.
Friday-This day I had 2 meals with them. Went to breakfast and had one egg scrambled a piece of bacon and a sausage patty. Dinner-Chinese buffet-chose mostly vegetables and chicken and shrimp that was not fried, and I did have 2 pieces of sushi that had rice, crab, avocado with pickled ginger and wasabi. I only had a tiny spoon full of the 5-6 things I chose.

I feel pretty good about how this eating went, I had very very little carbs, (the most were most likely in the Mexican martini), and did not come out of ketosis. I found that it was pretty easy to adjust the ordering of the food but found myself a couple of times getting ready to order what I would have ordered in the past. I also found I was comfortable and satisfied without the carbs
Saturday-@3 oz of fried catfish in a lettuce/tomato salad
Sunday we all went to Sea World-@4 oz bbq Beef brisket without the bbq sauce I cut that up into a lettuce salad, 1 tiny spare rib sans sauce and a cup of watermelon. It was so hot I even drank about 72 oz of water.
Monday-breakfast tacos-scrambled egg with bacon and cheese, again no tortilla.
Tuesday-1 grilled boneless chicken breast, 2 french fries, and a bite of fried pickle.

I did not get to the gym at all while they were here though so I may not have shown any weight gain had I burned some fat through exercise. Oh well, all in all it was a good learning experience for me and I had a great time with my family!!