Hi everybody,
I’ve been doing SW for about 4 weeks now, and after lurking around this forum for a bit, I’ve decided to start my own diary.
To start with, I’m going to paste in here what I wrote when I was asked in another thread about when I did I realise that I had to do something about my weight:
I’ve been doing SW for about 4 weeks now, and after lurking around this forum for a bit, I’ve decided to start my own diary.
To start with, I’m going to paste in here what I wrote when I was asked in another thread about when I did I realise that I had to do something about my weight:
I figure that’s a fairly apt description of my life so far, weight-wise at least. I think the reasons why the above-mentioned several-month periods of weight loss have never continued and I’ve always put the weight I lost back on and more is that other than the support of my partner, it’s always been me on my own. This time, I’ve joined SW with a friend from work (who is about a third of my size, but bless her anyway!), and I’ve been going to group consistently, apart from when I’ve been out of town. And I love the way that everyone here is so supportive! So this time, it’s ON, like Donkey Kong!When did I first see? I’ve had a number of revealing moments over the years, I suppose. A lot of them are to do with seeing photos of myself from events where I thought I looked really nice and then realised that the nice hair and makeup wasn’t covering anything up! One of the things that upsets me the most and makes me the most determined are airplane seats. I can’t even describe the combination of frustration, anger, embarrassment, sadness, despair every time I can’t get the seat belt on or can’t put the tray down...
I’ve actually never been a normal weight. I was born premature and underweight, and within 2 months managed to reverse that and have been off all the charts since then. It has been literally decades of ‘I’m going to lose weight soon’. I think I managed to maintain my weight fairly well through the latter half of high school (I started doing martial arts), but was in a car accident and have a ‘bad ankle’ which is painful all the time. Everything just spun right out of control after that, and other than a couple of several-month periods when I’ve lost a little bit of weight, I’ve steadily been putting on weight since then.
Given that I have never been anything close to normal weight, I have a deeply seated (irrational?!) belief that it’s not possible for me to be normal. Like there is something defective about my body/metabolism that won’t let it happen. I’m giving it a go though.