Lily42uk
Gold Member
Hello everybody and welcome to the 2nd installment of my diary, as I said in my previous one I believe that losing weight is not just about what you eat and the exercise you do, it's also about your mindset and I have been stuck in a rut for 10 months now, so today is the 1st day of my new weight loss regime.
All my life I have always told myself I can't do this, I can't do that and I genuinely believed that was to do with my weight and my disabilities. I discovered during my holiday my ability to walk and exercise was not as restricted as I had convinced myself it was....I have known for a few years now that I was determined to get this weight off and that nothing would stop me even if it took 10 years (believe me it's been a much longer time putting the weight on).
I have and had closed my mind to my capabilities....how many of you that have been on this journey with me, have heard me say I can't walk, I had an accident 15 years ago and it left me unable to walk, I also have severe palmoplantar pustulosis (psoriasis )and when that's bad I can't walk with that either....well I have discovered I am deluding not only you but myself again...while I was away on my holiday I had one of the worst outbreaks of the palmoplantar pustulosis that I have had in a long time on both my hands and my feet, which in the past would have left me feeling sorry for myself and saying I can't do this or that...and my back was bad in the last 3-4 days of my holiday too, again this in the past would have resulted in me sitting on my butt feeling sorry for myself, but despite my family telling me to take it easy all the time (bless them I had brainwashed them too), I was determined not to sit in the chalet the whole holiday, so I bought bandages and I bought elasticated bandage socks and even socks and dressings too and I used my ointments and creams and everything else I could find and I bandaged my feet and I wore gloves on my hands (I got some really weird looks when it was really hot lol) and I got out and I walked and I walked and when I couldn't walk any further I sat and waited for the pain to subside and I walked again, I even bought what my daughters laughingly called Granny sandals because they were more comfy than my own sandals and I carried on walking....in the whole week I spent just 2 evenings (I had been out walking all day on the said 2 days) in the chalet as I just couldn't walk another step, so I creamed and creamed my hands and feet and the next morning I got up and off I went again.
Now just over a week ago had anyone said to me that if my feet and hands were that bad that I would still have carried on I would have and even did say that I would stay in the chalet everyday if needed to be, it was going to be a break even if I sat inside 4 different walls....but I didn't I got up and I got on with my life and I feel amazing, yes I have gained a few lbs this week while I was away, but I gained a lot more respect for myself and I now want to start afresh with my journey, hence the new diary...I had 20st to lose on this journey, I have lost 11st 12bs and I am going to lose the other 8st+ with a new gained knowledge of my capabilities and with more determination than I ever knew I had and I really hope you enjoy this ride as much as I know I will.
Onwards and downwards from here to target xxx:hug99:xxxx
All my life I have always told myself I can't do this, I can't do that and I genuinely believed that was to do with my weight and my disabilities. I discovered during my holiday my ability to walk and exercise was not as restricted as I had convinced myself it was....I have known for a few years now that I was determined to get this weight off and that nothing would stop me even if it took 10 years (believe me it's been a much longer time putting the weight on).
I have and had closed my mind to my capabilities....how many of you that have been on this journey with me, have heard me say I can't walk, I had an accident 15 years ago and it left me unable to walk, I also have severe palmoplantar pustulosis (psoriasis )and when that's bad I can't walk with that either....well I have discovered I am deluding not only you but myself again...while I was away on my holiday I had one of the worst outbreaks of the palmoplantar pustulosis that I have had in a long time on both my hands and my feet, which in the past would have left me feeling sorry for myself and saying I can't do this or that...and my back was bad in the last 3-4 days of my holiday too, again this in the past would have resulted in me sitting on my butt feeling sorry for myself, but despite my family telling me to take it easy all the time (bless them I had brainwashed them too), I was determined not to sit in the chalet the whole holiday, so I bought bandages and I bought elasticated bandage socks and even socks and dressings too and I used my ointments and creams and everything else I could find and I bandaged my feet and I wore gloves on my hands (I got some really weird looks when it was really hot lol) and I got out and I walked and I walked and when I couldn't walk any further I sat and waited for the pain to subside and I walked again, I even bought what my daughters laughingly called Granny sandals because they were more comfy than my own sandals and I carried on walking....in the whole week I spent just 2 evenings (I had been out walking all day on the said 2 days) in the chalet as I just couldn't walk another step, so I creamed and creamed my hands and feet and the next morning I got up and off I went again.
Now just over a week ago had anyone said to me that if my feet and hands were that bad that I would still have carried on I would have and even did say that I would stay in the chalet everyday if needed to be, it was going to be a break even if I sat inside 4 different walls....but I didn't I got up and I got on with my life and I feel amazing, yes I have gained a few lbs this week while I was away, but I gained a lot more respect for myself and I now want to start afresh with my journey, hence the new diary...I had 20st to lose on this journey, I have lost 11st 12bs and I am going to lose the other 8st+ with a new gained knowledge of my capabilities and with more determination than I ever knew I had and I really hope you enjoy this ride as much as I know I will.
Onwards and downwards from here to target xxx:hug99:xxxx
