Belletabbycat
Gold Member
I decided to start an on line diary after I read so many inspirational stories on here, which to be completely honest, I have found more engaging and inspiring than the success stories in the magazines. The magazine stories always seem to feature people who get straight to target with minimal blimps or inconvenience, which when you are having blips, struggling and not doing as well as you want, in my opinion, can be a bit annoying!
I have re-started SW 3.5 weeks ago after getting to 11st 3lbs in July 2011. Nearly exactly 2 years later I rejoined 2 st heavier, having gained back all the weight I lost plus and extra stone and a bit to take me to 13st 3lbs. The heaviest I have ever been and all my clothes were(are) too tight and I feel I look fat in everything. I had to have uniform in the next size up at work and when that became so tight it barely fitted, along with buying a size 14 in new look that was too small I decided enough was enough!
On reflecting on my relationship with food I have always had an unhealthy relationship with it. I was miserable at school and didn't eat at all and when I did tried to make myself sick. At college and uni I walked a lot and ate what I wanted and by the time I finished my post grad in 2002 I was 9st 13lbs the lightest I have ever been. I gradually put weight on until 2006 when I lost at stone and a half and essentially kept most of it off, a comfortable 12, until I changed jobs. I left a very stressful and miserable existence for a much calmer, albeit less well paid job in retail. And until I was promoted did ok with my weight but prolonged illness, which was undiagnosed until recently, and being on my feet less had really taken it's toll and I need to do something about it.
So here I am, 33 and determined to do it right this time! I am 34 in September and would like to be around 11 st 7 lbs which is a stone and 4lbs in 2 months. In my 3 weighs ins to date I have lost 6lbs and while I know my target is tough I have switched from ee to red as it suits my body better so should have some decent losses!
So my food for today
B: pineapple and alpen lights HEB1
L: chicken, scan bran cherry bakewell HEB2(2.5) meringue (1)
S: kiwi grapes
D: beef sheesh kebab and salad
Syns 3 ready mixed g&t 7.5
Total syns 11 so maybe one last g&t
My new trick is to buy ready mixed for £1 in Asda so can only drink what I buy! Safer than a whole bottle! Done better than I thought today overall
I have re-started SW 3.5 weeks ago after getting to 11st 3lbs in July 2011. Nearly exactly 2 years later I rejoined 2 st heavier, having gained back all the weight I lost plus and extra stone and a bit to take me to 13st 3lbs. The heaviest I have ever been and all my clothes were(are) too tight and I feel I look fat in everything. I had to have uniform in the next size up at work and when that became so tight it barely fitted, along with buying a size 14 in new look that was too small I decided enough was enough!
On reflecting on my relationship with food I have always had an unhealthy relationship with it. I was miserable at school and didn't eat at all and when I did tried to make myself sick. At college and uni I walked a lot and ate what I wanted and by the time I finished my post grad in 2002 I was 9st 13lbs the lightest I have ever been. I gradually put weight on until 2006 when I lost at stone and a half and essentially kept most of it off, a comfortable 12, until I changed jobs. I left a very stressful and miserable existence for a much calmer, albeit less well paid job in retail. And until I was promoted did ok with my weight but prolonged illness, which was undiagnosed until recently, and being on my feet less had really taken it's toll and I need to do something about it.
So here I am, 33 and determined to do it right this time! I am 34 in September and would like to be around 11 st 7 lbs which is a stone and 4lbs in 2 months. In my 3 weighs ins to date I have lost 6lbs and while I know my target is tough I have switched from ee to red as it suits my body better so should have some decent losses!
So my food for today
B: pineapple and alpen lights HEB1
L: chicken, scan bran cherry bakewell HEB2(2.5) meringue (1)
S: kiwi grapes
D: beef sheesh kebab and salad
Syns 3 ready mixed g&t 7.5
Total syns 11 so maybe one last g&t
My new trick is to buy ready mixed for £1 in Asda so can only drink what I buy! Safer than a whole bottle! Done better than I thought today overall
