Hi all, well I guess it's a familiar story but I am in the early stages of losing a large amount of weight, 15st to be precise. (Well approximately). As a bit of background, I have been overweight practically all my life. I had a brief spell about 12 years ago when I lost a lot of weight (about 8 stone). However, I never dealt with my issues with food and consequently put it all back on plus a lot more.
I lost the weight through calorie counting to a silly extent. I think at one stage I was having about 700 calories a day and I was also really pushing it at the gym every day. All in all it was not a sensible way to go about things, and as I’m sure you can imagine I was thoroughly depressed and permanently starving.
The week I stopped dieting I put on 6lb, despite having no more than about 1300 calories per day. At this point my world collapsed, I realised I couldn’t spend every day of my life hungry and I just stopped, and as quickly as I lost it, it all came back.
I have since avoided dieting for many years, more from fear of putting weight on again should I lose it, then the thought of losing it itself. I had honestly reached the point where I thought my life would never be more than giving the kids excuses for not doing things and avoiding situations that I find difficult/impossible, i.e. holidays in the sun because I can’t fit in the plane seat never mind cope with the heat, etc.
There were two things that have finally tipped me over the edge, and made me realise that I have to do this. The first is the fact that I now have a son with special needs and whilst I’ve been pretending for years that my daughter and husband will be able to cope, should my weight eventually kill me, my son can’t. He will possibly need care for the rest of his life and I need to be here for him.
The second is the realisation that if I carried on as I was my children and husband would ultimately end up being my carers and at the age of 35 that is an appalling thought.
Anyway, I have finally started doing something about it. In August this year I joined SW. I knew I needed to avoid calorie counting, as I don’t want to fall back into my old dieting habits of starving, and my mum and sister had joined so it made sense. My biggest problem is that I have a really poor relationship with food. It’s either all or nothing. I am either bingeing or (when I’m dieting) starving but I’m pretty rubbish at just being normal. I hope that having lots of food I can eat without counting anything will work for me.
Up to now I’ve down pretty well and am finding it very easy. My biggest problem actually isn’t craving stuff its making sure I don’t stop eating (Sounds ridiculous I know!). Anyway, this has turned into a bit of a marathon post now. I just thought I’ve try and motivate myself a bit by keeping a bit of a record of how I’m going. I also just wanted to say to others with lots of weight to lose. It is doable if you’re in the right headspace, If like me you were just steadily putting it on, please stop and think about where it could end up and don’t end up like me with a monumental task ahead of you.
I lost the weight through calorie counting to a silly extent. I think at one stage I was having about 700 calories a day and I was also really pushing it at the gym every day. All in all it was not a sensible way to go about things, and as I’m sure you can imagine I was thoroughly depressed and permanently starving.
The week I stopped dieting I put on 6lb, despite having no more than about 1300 calories per day. At this point my world collapsed, I realised I couldn’t spend every day of my life hungry and I just stopped, and as quickly as I lost it, it all came back.
I have since avoided dieting for many years, more from fear of putting weight on again should I lose it, then the thought of losing it itself. I had honestly reached the point where I thought my life would never be more than giving the kids excuses for not doing things and avoiding situations that I find difficult/impossible, i.e. holidays in the sun because I can’t fit in the plane seat never mind cope with the heat, etc.
There were two things that have finally tipped me over the edge, and made me realise that I have to do this. The first is the fact that I now have a son with special needs and whilst I’ve been pretending for years that my daughter and husband will be able to cope, should my weight eventually kill me, my son can’t. He will possibly need care for the rest of his life and I need to be here for him.
The second is the realisation that if I carried on as I was my children and husband would ultimately end up being my carers and at the age of 35 that is an appalling thought.
Anyway, I have finally started doing something about it. In August this year I joined SW. I knew I needed to avoid calorie counting, as I don’t want to fall back into my old dieting habits of starving, and my mum and sister had joined so it made sense. My biggest problem is that I have a really poor relationship with food. It’s either all or nothing. I am either bingeing or (when I’m dieting) starving but I’m pretty rubbish at just being normal. I hope that having lots of food I can eat without counting anything will work for me.
Up to now I’ve down pretty well and am finding it very easy. My biggest problem actually isn’t craving stuff its making sure I don’t stop eating (Sounds ridiculous I know!). Anyway, this has turned into a bit of a marathon post now. I just thought I’ve try and motivate myself a bit by keeping a bit of a record of how I’m going. I also just wanted to say to others with lots of weight to lose. It is doable if you’re in the right headspace, If like me you were just steadily putting it on, please stop and think about where it could end up and don’t end up like me with a monumental task ahead of you.
PRx
