Hi Mini,
I'm okay, how are you?
I'm just reflecting on why I'm at this stage again.
Just read back through my whole diary and I'm so angry at myself for having to go on this stupid diet again! I'm determined this will be the last time.
The big losses attract me but the crux of it is that I need to change my lifestyle. I don't exercise. I rarely do over 3000 steps a day which is disgraceful. I go whole weeks without eating a single vegetable or piece of fruit. How did I end up this way?
I had a really bad time the latter part of 2016 and the beginning of 2017. I was put through a horrible ordeal at work. I caught a bad cold and ended up deaf (blocked eustachian tubes) with a hacking cough for about 4 months. I strained my intercostal muscles by coughing and ended up in A&E with severe pain (I didn't realise what it was at this point). My husband and I were trying for a baby for over a year to no avail. My periods stopped through stress. I've been prodded and pulled about by doctors and no answers or help.
I just gave up for months. I was depressed and super stressed.
After a while, the trouble at work died down, we bought our forever home and started renovating it. I calmed down and my periods came back (albeit it very irregularly!). I'm now happy again.
However, I ended up over 24st. My highest ever weight. Disgusting.
I'm 33 and I need to make a change. After a Christmas of eating everything in sight, I want to use the VLCD as a jump-start. I want to look at how I deal with food and plan an exercise routine. I'm angry that I'm here again but I'm positive that I can make this change.
Just needed to give myself a pep talk!