Sarah Lou
Gold Member
I have spent several days reading the diaries and looking at the threads etc and I wondered what to do about posting 
I have had so many attempts at doing a VLCD but something has got in the way.. sometimes ME, sometimes money and sometimes ME again. But I need to face my fears and do it anyway. The thing I have struggled with is not being able to write down my feelings and to reflect on the day so I need my diary and I will also need you guys (thank you for reading).
I've decided to call my diary changes and challenges as in the last four months my entire world has turned up side down..:sigh: and it's there I begin my challenge and changes.... During the week between Christmas and New Year 2011 my brother was diagnosed with cancer. My brother a kind and wonderful man who would never hurt a fly. A healthy fit man who was only 52 and had nearly reached a point in his life where things were working out for him. We came together as a Family and mounted the fight.. we were facing this monster together. The monster however had other ideas and not only did my brother already have one battle going on but all to soon a second battle emerged and my brother had a brain tumour. That minute life stopped.. some days I ate too much some days I didn't eat at all!! Days turned into weeks and then we realised that time was short. Two weeks ago I sat with my brother for five days and watched him fade.. no more chats.. no more of anything.. I knew all my hope had been shattered into tiny pieces. The morning I was getting ready to see him the phone rang and the worst possible news was told to me. I said goodbye to him on Wednesday of this week... utterly shattered and lost there was only one thing I could do amongst all this sadness and that was to take back control of one area of my life.. it had to be now, I just need one familiar thing to grab on to. If your still reading this after my ramblings then thank you and I hope to get to know you all during my journey x Sarah
I have had so many attempts at doing a VLCD but something has got in the way.. sometimes ME, sometimes money and sometimes ME again. But I need to face my fears and do it anyway. The thing I have struggled with is not being able to write down my feelings and to reflect on the day so I need my diary and I will also need you guys (thank you for reading).I've decided to call my diary changes and challenges as in the last four months my entire world has turned up side down..:sigh: and it's there I begin my challenge and changes.... During the week between Christmas and New Year 2011 my brother was diagnosed with cancer. My brother a kind and wonderful man who would never hurt a fly. A healthy fit man who was only 52 and had nearly reached a point in his life where things were working out for him. We came together as a Family and mounted the fight.. we were facing this monster together. The monster however had other ideas and not only did my brother already have one battle going on but all to soon a second battle emerged and my brother had a brain tumour. That minute life stopped.. some days I ate too much some days I didn't eat at all!! Days turned into weeks and then we realised that time was short. Two weeks ago I sat with my brother for five days and watched him fade.. no more chats.. no more of anything.. I knew all my hope had been shattered into tiny pieces. The morning I was getting ready to see him the phone rang and the worst possible news was told to me. I said goodbye to him on Wednesday of this week... utterly shattered and lost there was only one thing I could do amongst all this sadness and that was to take back control of one area of my life.. it had to be now, I just need one familiar thing to grab on to. If your still reading this after my ramblings then thank you and I hope to get to know you all during my journey x Sarah
