Chocs Away

[Julie*]

Hi everyone,

I've tried numerous diets - but failed at all of them, and it's been ME failing the diets and not them failing me! I know I have not given anything a real chance in such a long time and have given up way too easily.

Consequently after a couple of months of indulging myself and gaining another stone, panic has set in and the shock has brought me out of a carb induced coma.

So, here I am ready to begin tomorrow using Yokebe to help break my addiction to chocolate and carbs.

I really hope this works for me...

 

[Julie*]

Monday the first day of my new diet journey and I am feeling like an energised bunny filled with unbridled hope and enthusiasm that this is going to be the last time I weigh this heavy.

I pinch myself, I'm awake, it's real, now just go and do it!

Weigh-in first thing this morning was a surprise for I was a couple of pounds lighter than the last time and this had me wondering could I just think myself slim instead of enduring all the hassle of actually doing a diet?
Reality hits back when I notice my scales are not sitting evenly on the floor and I adjust them and tentatively get back up on them dreading what they might now read and at the same time wishing that somehow I had magically lost a few pounds...I squeeze myself smaller as if bringing my arms together is going to make a difference and gazing down whilst biting on my knuckles I say a quick prayer and call out pleaseee.

Ok that didn't work! It could be worse!

The Good news is that I'm not 18 stone and I am starting off in the 17 stone bracket.

I am finding it difficult to write down my weight because while I put a brave face on it and laugh off any incoming remarks regarding my weight - it kills me and I guess in truth, it is slowly killing me, pound by pound, month after month, trying and failing...It has to stop and today is the day I scream stop!

So here goes - 17st 9lb

My heart is beating so fast, I don't know if that is good or bad and I feel dizzy with excitement. I feel a rush of adrenaline at the prospect this is it!

I have poured myself out here and now as I read over my own words it feels like I am either at my own wake or the start of an awakening...time will tell which one it is going to be.

 

[Julie*]

When I arrived home yesterday evening my DH had dinner ready and it took all my strength to refuse it, instead I made my shake and had it while DH tucked into new potatoes with butter slidering down the side, suckling lamb chops with mint jelly sauce and garden peas. He had forgotten I started a new diet...

According to the Yokebe diet I can have low calorie foods - soups, vegetables and fruit.

Yesterday I had 3 shakes, bowl of vegetable soup and one apple plus a litre of water and two green teas.

Shakes are very filling and can't say I felt hungry, more of a yearning for something to chew on while watching the telly.

I was not going to weigh this morning, but curiosity got the better of me and before stepping on the scales I did check they were positioned right after yesterday's fiasco. Well it looks like I'm 1.5lb lighter, not bad for day one!

 

[Julie*]

I sailed through yesterday, lapped up the sunshine and by nine o'clock I was tucked up in bed reading, lights out at eleven...and up bright and early this morning at six starving!

I weighed before breakfast and 2lb down this morning, 31/2lb off in two days is motivating even if it is mostly water weight.

The weather is not looking good and I'm still feeling hungry and a little moody after my shake and green tea because what I really wanted was some hot buttered toast.

I'll probably nibble on some raw carrot later on - looks like today is going to be a bit of a struggle.

 

[Julie*]

Three shakes, one black coffee, green tea, small raw carrot, one red apple, litre of water and a bowl of vegetable soup...feeling proud of myself for not giving into my cravings.

Bed early again tonight.

 

[DivaOnaDiet]

Hey Julie,

Love the way you write - definitely following! Looks like you've made a great start already. Won't be long til the dreaded first week is wrapped up!

 

[Julie*]

Yesterday was make or break between the rain and cravings and at times I wanted to give in and call it a day and then I reminded myself why I began this journey.

After a good nights sleep I'm feeling more positive this morning and after seeing another pound off on my morning weigh-in, it gave me an instant boost and I felt it called for a little happy dance. I'm not sure how it looked to DH who was in the shower but I could see him chuckling to himself as I turned around. I'm sure I was a sight to behold.

Hunger was normal before my first shake unlike yesterday morning when I was feeling ravenous. Now I feel full and satisfied and cautiously optimistic today is going to be much easier.

This has taken me much longer than expected to write up and I'm now seriously way behind before I start my day, I have so much that needs to be done today, not tomorrow for there's literally no more room left on the long finger. Got to fly!

Tuesday 11/2lb
Wednesday 2lb
Thursday 1lb

 

[Julie*]

Hey Julie,

Love the way you write - definitely following! Looks like you've made a great start already. Won't be long til the dreaded first week is wrapped up!

Awww nice of you to say so Joe!

I have been reading your diary Joe and I can see you are making tremendous progress on your weight loss. Got to run...catch up later.

 

[Julie*]

Quick update!

Scales this morning were generous with another 1lb off!