Day 1 AGAIN

[So fed up.]

Hi everyone
I'm starting lipotrim again tomorrow. If I am honest with myself and all of you, I have around 2stone to lose. I have spent the last few years telling myself that I haven't put that much weight on and it would be easy to lose. I was wrong, wrong and wrong!
I have tried lipotrim along with various other diets on my journey to this point. I would lose some weight ( never enough) and then "somehow" give up and allow the weight to pile back on. So the past few years have been a blur of yo-yoing unhappiness.
I have hidden away at school pick-up times. I have turned down social engagements. I have cried. I have tried!
I don't know what it is in my personality that doesn't allow me to see this thing through to the end I so badly want. I am not by nature a weak person. In fact, my family tell me I am pretty tough and determined. Why I can't apply that to dieting I just don't know.
I feel it's time to either grab this thing by the horns or give up and try to be happy as I am. I don't think I can ever look in the mirror as I am and truly be happy so I am preparing for another day 1 on lipotrim.
This time must be different. I don't think I have ever really said all these things about how I feel about my weight to anyone. Not even my husband. So it's all of you that I'm telling!! Funny eh?? I hope to do this properly this time with a bit of support and encouragement. Apart from my husband and children I can't tell anyone about doing the lipotrim. The negative sermons I have to listen to just aren't worth it.
I am determined to succeed this time!! I also am going to try very hard to remain positive throughout. The hunger often makes me a real cow(!!!) and this usually comes out on my family. I hate myself for that too.
Wish me luck everyone. I have read many of your posts and doing them seems to help you all get through so in plan to do the same.
Day 1 tomorrow....bring it on!!

 

[and]

They say when you reach rock bottom the only way is up...

Well... I hope it's down for your weight

Do not give in!! Do not give in!! Do NOT give in!

Any time you're miserable, hungry or feel you just can't go on that's when you need to come and post. We understand.

Good luck!

 

[Emmy_lu]

You sound really determined you can do this just take one day at a time
good luck x

 

[Teapot]

Welcome So fed up!!

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. We all started on day1, so good luck for tomorrow, we'll be rooting for you. Great bunch of supportive people on here and sorting out your head while sorting out your weight will be the only way to avoid having to do this all again. Don't give up, you're doing this because you really really don't want to give up. It works - I should know I've been doing this for 6 months and have got more determined the further I've travelled this journey. You can do it luv x x x

 

[sarah.w]

i feel your pain, ive been there and struggled with my weight since i was 15 yrs old. im 4ft11in and was super morbidly obese but worked my way down to 13.6st. Its the biggest challenge ive ever faced but i knew that if i wanted to be happy and successful in life, i would have to overcome my biggest obstacle; me. I was the one standing in the way of being healthy, happy, being confidence and having high self esteem, so i had to change.

After so many attempts at weight loss myself, Ive started listening to a podcast called "inside out weight loss" on Personal Life Media blog by this ex struggler Rene Stevens. Its so useful and has helped people change their thinking pattern about food completely. So many people have lost so much weight by changing the way they see and think about food, and you will learn so much about yourself.

Keep a success journal with you so every night just before you go to sleep write something good you did or achieved during the day, even if its small like walking for an extra 10 minutes, or resisting that chocolate bar etc. You will go to sleep on a positive note, wake up on a positive note and this will build your list of successes as the days go by. Its worked for so many people and i would urge everyone to keep one. I started mine last night and today when i was craving food (2nd day on LT) i read what i wrote last night and it really reinforced that good feeling, and i felt motivated to stay away from the food.

Overall, dont put yourself down, your a fighter and i know that keeping your goals in mind, changing your approach to food and realizing your triggers you will reach your goals and live the life you always wanted, and remember just take it a day at a time, before you know it, you'll be fitting into those 10's in no time

 

[Soontobeskinnyminnie]

You have a great attitude towards your journey! You know what you have to do, stay focused, think happy & good luck!!! X x x

 

[Mrsfeeneytobe]

First of all....welcome....this place is AWESOME!! There is NO WAY I would still be on this diet if it wasn't for this site and the wonderful support

reading your post was like I had written it myself.....I am so fed up and bored of getting to a certain point and self sabotaging.....time to actually achieve my weight goals like I do with everything else if I'm so bloody strong.....we CAN DO THIS!!!

rooting for you....keep us posted....xxx