Well I can totally relate to everything you are saying h.a. I am scared stiff to start eating again becasue this is the 4th time I have been on a VLCD and lost stones only to put it back on again. I really dont want to do that this time. My plan is to get to goal of 10st 7lb, then lose another 7lb and get to 10st. See what I look like and if I can get to 9st 9lb which is what I was years ago. Of course I am older now and sometimes skinny aint a good look lol. I know I will put weight on once I start eating, albeit slimming foods, but its obvious. So if I go under goal, I will have that to play with til eventually I even out if that makes sense.
I bought a few dresses a few weeks ago to slim into. I got them size 14 to wear on my hols. I know I dont go away until the end of August but when you are bigger you cant envisage yourself thinner can you, so I thought I'd never get into them. Well, they are too big as are my holiday clothes so I think I will be in the same boat as you, running around like an idiot for holiday clothes.
Anyway, you go and have a nice time. Eat what you like coz in my opinion the diet will be here when you come back. Life is for living x