Post 1 - 22nd June 2012
Good evening everyone. This is the final time I do this, otherwise I will be signing up to Big Beautiful Women, and getting as fat as possible and then make some money out of it by eating on webcam.
I am Claire, 22 years old, just done my PGCE and am currently job searching in this shitty recession/crisis.
Dieting History
Cambridge Diet, Weight watchers, slimming world, Exante, Slim fast, Grapefruit Diet, Maple Syrup (Beyonce) Diet, Soup diet, Only fruit and veg diet, Exercise til I Pass out regime, Starvation, Atkins ... and I am sure there are others that I haven't mentioned. All tried, tested, worked then I failed.
For me, its probably not the diet that's the problem ... it's me.
I have come to realise this over the last few days. It's not something that I have thought about before. I mean, it's always the diets fault, right? I didn't eat that calorie, it just went into my body!!! (Honest).
Why now?
I got married exactly 10 weeks and 1 day ago. And in that time I have put on 10lbs. That's a steady 1lb a week! and by the end of the year, that makes me ... enormous. I did really well, and went from 12 stone 13.5 to 11 stone 5 in about 4 months. By following Weight Watchers/my own healthy thang and exercising. Then I got married, went on a mini-moon, had exams and essay galore, observations and marking coming out of my ears. Then I spent 2 weeks all inclusive in Cuba... and here I am. With my skin still golden from the 38 degree heat, I am fat and miserable! Admittedly, I am not as heavy as I started, I am 12.5lbs lighter. But I know what I DID look like, and how much 10lbs difference has made. I want to look nice ALL the time. I want to feel confident in my own skin!
Heath
I am pretty healthy usually. Obviously, having a best friend who LOVES a good social life, means that we probably eat out too much. But I need to learn that life doesn't mean salads and soups because I am dieting.
I have a pretty low immune system, if somethings about at school - i'll catch it. Kid sneezes on me - I have the worst fever a few hours later. I don't think this is related to vitamin intake because I eat lots of fruit and veg. Doctor just thinks its my immune system working less well than others, "nothing too much to worry about".
I have PCOS too. This was diagnosed last summer, and the gynae told me my insulin levels are extremely high. I have been given metformin for this ... but I have a tenancy of forgetting to take them (stupid I know!). I went through a few months 100% blaming the PCOS for my weight, and my skin etc etc. But, I know that I can help myself... and being greedy is DEFINITELY not going to help!!!!
I also have funny hips... I have a consultant appointment in July to officially diagnose what it is, but they think it is "Hip Dysplasia" meaning my ball and socket part of my hip, don't fit nicely together. The physio lady has warned me off running, and other hard exercises on the hips (I was doing quite a lot of running before the wedding ...). However, after some more advice I am going to run ... just less frequently than I used to!
Goals
My ultimate goal is to get between 10 stone 7 and 11 stone... and maintain. I will probably assess how I feel at that weight, but I was 11 stone 5 and feeling much more confident, so I don't think as much as a stone will get me even happier with my health and physical appearance.
Obviously I want to do this by christmas, meaning not even 1lb a week loss. If I do it quicker - excellent. But I am no longer going to beat myself up over a 1lb a week loss. I used to expect a 3lb+ a week loss. And would get soooo mad if I didn't lose it! But what's the point? It's not going to get me there quicker!
Now I don't have a specific event to look forward to. Wedding and honeymoon is done ... and that's what I was concerned about.
Graduation is coming up on the 17th July ... I would like to lose 4-6lbs by then. That would be ideal!
Plan of Action
CURRENT STATS
So there we have it! Entry 1!
I plan to go to the gym tomorrow. Do an hour of cardio. And stick to my 1500 calories a day, ensuring lots of fruit and veg and water.
Will update again tomorrow.
Please give support if you have time, I will really appreciate it, and it will give me the willpower to carry on!
I will be checking other diaries too
Thanks!
Love & Rainbows
Claire
xoxo
Good evening everyone. This is the final time I do this, otherwise I will be signing up to Big Beautiful Women, and getting as fat as possible and then make some money out of it by eating on webcam.
I am Claire, 22 years old, just done my PGCE and am currently job searching in this shitty recession/crisis.
Dieting History
Cambridge Diet, Weight watchers, slimming world, Exante, Slim fast, Grapefruit Diet, Maple Syrup (Beyonce) Diet, Soup diet, Only fruit and veg diet, Exercise til I Pass out regime, Starvation, Atkins ... and I am sure there are others that I haven't mentioned. All tried, tested, worked then I failed.
For me, its probably not the diet that's the problem ... it's me.
I have come to realise this over the last few days. It's not something that I have thought about before. I mean, it's always the diets fault, right? I didn't eat that calorie, it just went into my body!!! (Honest).
Why now?
I got married exactly 10 weeks and 1 day ago. And in that time I have put on 10lbs. That's a steady 1lb a week! and by the end of the year, that makes me ... enormous. I did really well, and went from 12 stone 13.5 to 11 stone 5 in about 4 months. By following Weight Watchers/my own healthy thang and exercising. Then I got married, went on a mini-moon, had exams and essay galore, observations and marking coming out of my ears. Then I spent 2 weeks all inclusive in Cuba... and here I am. With my skin still golden from the 38 degree heat, I am fat and miserable! Admittedly, I am not as heavy as I started, I am 12.5lbs lighter. But I know what I DID look like, and how much 10lbs difference has made. I want to look nice ALL the time. I want to feel confident in my own skin!
Heath
I am pretty healthy usually. Obviously, having a best friend who LOVES a good social life, means that we probably eat out too much. But I need to learn that life doesn't mean salads and soups because I am dieting.
I have a pretty low immune system, if somethings about at school - i'll catch it. Kid sneezes on me - I have the worst fever a few hours later. I don't think this is related to vitamin intake because I eat lots of fruit and veg. Doctor just thinks its my immune system working less well than others, "nothing too much to worry about".
I have PCOS too. This was diagnosed last summer, and the gynae told me my insulin levels are extremely high. I have been given metformin for this ... but I have a tenancy of forgetting to take them (stupid I know!). I went through a few months 100% blaming the PCOS for my weight, and my skin etc etc. But, I know that I can help myself... and being greedy is DEFINITELY not going to help!!!!
I also have funny hips... I have a consultant appointment in July to officially diagnose what it is, but they think it is "Hip Dysplasia" meaning my ball and socket part of my hip, don't fit nicely together. The physio lady has warned me off running, and other hard exercises on the hips (I was doing quite a lot of running before the wedding ...). However, after some more advice I am going to run ... just less frequently than I used to!
Goals
My ultimate goal is to get between 10 stone 7 and 11 stone... and maintain. I will probably assess how I feel at that weight, but I was 11 stone 5 and feeling much more confident, so I don't think as much as a stone will get me even happier with my health and physical appearance.
Obviously I want to do this by christmas, meaning not even 1lb a week loss. If I do it quicker - excellent. But I am no longer going to beat myself up over a 1lb a week loss. I used to expect a 3lb+ a week loss. And would get soooo mad if I didn't lose it! But what's the point? It's not going to get me there quicker!
Now I don't have a specific event to look forward to. Wedding and honeymoon is done ... and that's what I was concerned about.
Graduation is coming up on the 17th July ... I would like to lose 4-6lbs by then. That would be ideal!
Plan of Action
- Eat healthily - follow a maximum of 1500 calories a day
- Exercise 3+ times a week
- Drink more water - 2litres a day minimum!
- Take my Metformin EVERY.DAY.
CURRENT STATS
| CURRENT | GOAL | |
| BMI | 27.3 | 23.7 |
| HEIGHT | 5 foot 6 | 5 foot 6 |
| WEIGHT | 12 stone 1 | 10 stone 7 |
| CLOTHES SIZE | 14 | 12 |
So there we have it! Entry 1!
I plan to go to the gym tomorrow. Do an hour of cardio. And stick to my 1500 calories a day, ensuring lots of fruit and veg and water.
Will update again tomorrow.
Please give support if you have time, I will really appreciate it, and it will give me the willpower to carry on!
I will be checking other diaries too
Thanks!
Love & Rainbows
Claire
xoxo
