RubyMoss
Silver Member
Hey!
I'm Laura-Jayne, 25 years old and a British girl living in Kansas.
I've posted an Introduction, and started a Food Diary but I've decided to combine my Food Diary with a Weight Loss Diary to enable me to have an outlet for the thoughts swirling round in my brain regarding weight loss. I don't expect anyone to read or respond to this, but that's fine because sometimes just writing things down can help a person incredibly.
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Bit of back story of my weight issues:
I was a little chubby in my early teens, nothing out of the ordinary. Around 16, I lost a considerable amount of weight (admittedly, not healthily) and kept the weight off pretty much until I was 19/20. Around that time, I met a boy and started dating him. The story goes downhill from here.
It wasn't the typical 'everyone gets comfortable in a relationship and gains weight' kinda thing. I think he was literally 'feeding me up'. I'm not going to blame him entirely; at the end of the day, I opened my mouth and ate the food. However, I would cook healthy meals, and he would turn up, knowing I'd already eaten, with my favourite meals (Nando's etc). I couldn't resist. He would wake me up in the middle of the night and get me to go to Subway with him, and he'd buy me food even if I didn't want it. I had no self-control. The bigger I got, the happier he was - no one else would find me attractive this way, and he would constantly encourage me to not bother with any make up, not dye my hair certain colours incase it drew attention to me, which he wouldn't be happy about.
Not long after we started dating, the mental/emotional abuse began - and it was horrendous. I'm not looking for sympathy so I won't go into details but it was the worst few years of my life and the abuse wasn't always just mental/emotional.
(Positive part starts now!) Anyway, around 3 years in, I met an amazing guy (Stephen) on Twitter who quickly became one of my best friends. We spoke non-stop, and quickly developed feelings for one another - unfortunately, I lived in the UK, and he in Kansas, USA. Not long after, I finally broke up with my then-boyfriend, and Stephen booked a flight to come and see me in the UK. The rest, as they say, is history. He was everything I needed; we got engaged a year after meeting and a year and a half after that I moved to Kansas to live with him. On 25th January 2014 we got married, and I've never been happier.
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At my heaviest, I was 183+ lbs. Early in my relationship with Stephen, I made it down to 139lbs. Since moving to Kansas, I reached a highest point of 169lbs, and I am currently 166lb, and want to get down to 130lb.
That is a rough outline of my story, and this is my starting point for 2014. I'm not thinking of where I've come from, I'm looking at where I need to go.
I'm following my own yellow brick road...
I'm setting myself the target of remaining accountable for everything. If I mess up, I admit to it. I don't pretend it didn't happen, I don't let a bad day turn into a bad week. I will do this, by posting an honest report of everything I've eaten, everything I've drank and any exercise I've fit in.
L-J x
I'm Laura-Jayne, 25 years old and a British girl living in Kansas.
I've posted an Introduction, and started a Food Diary but I've decided to combine my Food Diary with a Weight Loss Diary to enable me to have an outlet for the thoughts swirling round in my brain regarding weight loss. I don't expect anyone to read or respond to this, but that's fine because sometimes just writing things down can help a person incredibly.
******************************************************************************************************************
Bit of back story of my weight issues:
I was a little chubby in my early teens, nothing out of the ordinary. Around 16, I lost a considerable amount of weight (admittedly, not healthily) and kept the weight off pretty much until I was 19/20. Around that time, I met a boy and started dating him. The story goes downhill from here.
It wasn't the typical 'everyone gets comfortable in a relationship and gains weight' kinda thing. I think he was literally 'feeding me up'. I'm not going to blame him entirely; at the end of the day, I opened my mouth and ate the food. However, I would cook healthy meals, and he would turn up, knowing I'd already eaten, with my favourite meals (Nando's etc). I couldn't resist. He would wake me up in the middle of the night and get me to go to Subway with him, and he'd buy me food even if I didn't want it. I had no self-control. The bigger I got, the happier he was - no one else would find me attractive this way, and he would constantly encourage me to not bother with any make up, not dye my hair certain colours incase it drew attention to me, which he wouldn't be happy about.
Not long after we started dating, the mental/emotional abuse began - and it was horrendous. I'm not looking for sympathy so I won't go into details but it was the worst few years of my life and the abuse wasn't always just mental/emotional.
(Positive part starts now!) Anyway, around 3 years in, I met an amazing guy (Stephen) on Twitter who quickly became one of my best friends. We spoke non-stop, and quickly developed feelings for one another - unfortunately, I lived in the UK, and he in Kansas, USA. Not long after, I finally broke up with my then-boyfriend, and Stephen booked a flight to come and see me in the UK. The rest, as they say, is history. He was everything I needed; we got engaged a year after meeting and a year and a half after that I moved to Kansas to live with him. On 25th January 2014 we got married, and I've never been happier.
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At my heaviest, I was 183+ lbs. Early in my relationship with Stephen, I made it down to 139lbs. Since moving to Kansas, I reached a highest point of 169lbs, and I am currently 166lb, and want to get down to 130lb.
That is a rough outline of my story, and this is my starting point for 2014. I'm not thinking of where I've come from, I'm looking at where I need to go.
I'm following my own yellow brick road...
I'm setting myself the target of remaining accountable for everything. If I mess up, I admit to it. I don't pretend it didn't happen, I don't let a bad day turn into a bad week. I will do this, by posting an honest report of everything I've eaten, everything I've drank and any exercise I've fit in.
L-J x
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