laurenmay's NEW CD diary...

[laurenmay]

Hey everyone

Well this is my third diary, but this is going to be my one & only diary now as the other two are just full of nonsense and stopping & starting.

I started CD last Thursday, weighing in at 12st 5lbs.. Chose to follow step 1 and SS+, got all my products ready to start and chose to start the next day, Friday.

Long story short is I had a pathetic attempt at a first week, with a day off on Sunday & a day off on Wednesday, and an day early weigh in on the Wednesday afternoon too.. Lost 6lbs which is pretty good considering my blips, but my head just didn't feel in it cause I didn't do a 100% perfect week, and with me it's always all or nothing!

So I've got more products together, but I won't be starting until tomorrow.. I originally said I would today, but stupid me forgot I was being weighed a day early & didn't buy enough products! Oops... So if I start tomorrow then I have exactly enough for the full week, and 5 weeks tomorrow I have a big event coming up that I'd like to lose around 21lbs for if possible, so for me tomorrow feels like a good starting point...

Not having a blow out or binge tonight, will eat properly & healthy conventional foods.. But then tomorrow I'm 100% CD until goal even if it kills me!!

Could really do with a lot of support and motivation, seen as the people close to me such as some friends & work colleagues have ZERO faith in me, which is starting to make me lose faith in myself

I was 11st 13lbs at weigh in last night, but I'll weigh myself again tomorrow seen as I'm starting a fresh.. As long as I'm below 11.13 at next weeks weigh in by a few pounds then I'll be a happy girl!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY ONE - So it's day 1 for me today - for the 3rd time! - and I plan on sticking to it 100% this time & never having to start from fresh again!

Feeling positive this morning about losing this gut and my flabby tree trunk thighs! Forced myself to stand completely nude in the mirror last night & take a good look at myself, seen as I haven't for so long and have been dressing & undressing super quickly just to avoid the sight of myself! & it's not pretty and I really don't want to look like this for much longer!!

So I'm forcing myself to stay as positive as possible, and when I do have weak or down moments I'll come on here for support from you lovely people

No doubt I'll be back on sometime today! Toodle pip!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY ONE - So its 10:15 now and I'm bored crazy in work. Belly feels a bit bloated & painful today, but more than likely it's down to the junk food I ate last night. Drunk 1ltr of water so far and sipping on another 500ml bottle now.

Had my first shake at 9am, strawberry and it's filled me up for a little while! Gonna have my second around 2pm I think..

Still feeling quite positive but also feeling super fat and bloated & just uuuuch in my work uniform!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[beau10]

DAY ONE - So it's day 1 for me today - for the 3rd time! - and I plan on sticking to it 100% this time & never having to start from fresh again!

Feeling positive this morning about losing this gut and my flabby tree trunk thighs! Forced myself to stand completely nude in the mirror last night & take a good look at myself, seen as I haven't for so long and have been dressing & undressing super quickly just to avoid the sight of myself! & it's not pretty and I really don't want to look like this for much longer!!

So I'm forcing myself to stay as positive as possible, and when I do have weak or down moments I'll come on here for support from you lovely people

No doubt I'll be back on sometime today! Toodle pip!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

Good luck. I'm day one too.

 

[danii27]

Good luck, I'm day one of my first attempt at Cambridge ever. Need to lose about 3 stone ish. Try and do as much as I can for an event in 5 weeks. Just having my first pack of porridge. Thought I might heave but after a few spoons tastes ok! Will be subscribing to your diary!

 

[laurenmay]

Good luck, I'm day one of my first attempt at Cambridge ever. Need to lose about 3 stone ish. Try and do as much as I can for an event in 5 weeks. Just having my first pack of porridge. Thought I might heave but after a few spoons tastes ok! Will be subscribing to your diary!

Hi thanks and good luck to you too! I have an event in 5 weeks too and would love to get down to 10.7 if I can! So have to work really hard and stick to this religiously! I didn't buy the porridge or soup, I'm such a fussy eater that I just couldn't see myself liking them!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[LeaE]

Good luck hunny hope u do well xx

 

[laurenmay]

Good luck hunny hope u do well xx

Thank you xx

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY ONE - Finally home from work now, and just had a tidy up in the house to keep myself occupied. Opting for the 4 CD products today & 200ml of skimmed milk, so I'm having a fairly milky coffee at the moment with the remaining 100ml I have left.

Feeling quite hungry now, but going to hold out a little while longer till I have my second shake.. There's a big share bag of milky buttons in the kitchen & I'm trying so hard not to demolish them all!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY ONE - Nearly finished day one, and feeling a littlerl tired but otherwise content and a little proud of myself that I've almost gotten through the day.

Had my 3rd shake at 6:30 blended with lots of ice and I'm nice and full now still have one more left which I'll probably have around 9pm before bed. Managed to drink just over 2 litres of water too, will make sure I get another 500ml bottle down me this evening to be over the daily quota!

My head is still revolving around and obsessing over food, from chocolate to cheese to bread. But I'm not caving in and touching anything, I even managed to feed my son a few milky bar buttons without being tempted to sneak a few - and their my ultimate downfall! So that's progression I guess..

Will probably post once more before bed, coming on this forum is the only thing keeping my head in the game!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY ONE - So its the end of day one, and I've gotten through it and been absolutely 100%! very proud of myself as this is now my third attempt at day one, and I've fought off every craving and food thought today & stuck to plan.

I'm just having my last shake before bed now, toffee & walnut which I haven't tried before and I can't figure out if I like it or not? It's alright I suppose, but not quite as yummy as some of the other flavours!

So I'm one day down on the path to skinny, and hitting the gym tomorrow morning too! Feeling positive and proud

Goodnight!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[WillpowerWoman]

Well done for getting through your first day

 

[LeaE]

Well done hunny u stick in there and keep going x

 

[laurenmay]

DAY TWO - Just got woken up by my little one thinking it's funny to bounce on mummy's head at 6:30 in the morning! Lol, so down in the kitchen now getting him a bottle ready and making myself a black coffee.

Feeling quite hungry this morning, so hoping the coffee keeps me satisfied for a little while. Did plan on going to the gym at 9am when they open, and really do want to go but feeling quite fragile and a bit weak, so maybe it's best I give it a miss for today and maybe go tomorrow instead...

Weather is absolutely crappy, and it's normally days like this that I turn to food for comfort and out of boredom cause there's just nowhere to go when it's pouring down with rain.. So today will be a challenge!!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[laurenmay]

DAY TWO - Changed my mind and dragged my grumpy butt to the gym and managed to run 3.5km so quite proud of myself!

Felt a little dizzy and light headed then so called it a day and left, heading home now for a shake and a shower

Doing my best to not let the crappy weather bring me down today!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

 

[WillpowerWoman]

DAY TWO - Changed my mind and dragged my grumpy butt to the gym and managed to run 3.5km so quite proud of myself!

Felt a little dizzy and light headed then so called it a day and left, heading home now for a shake and a shower

Doing my best to not let the crappy weather bring me down today!

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."

Fantastic well done for motivating yourself to the gym

 

[laurenmay]

DAY TWO - Starting to get quite hungry and my belly won't stop growling at me! Sipping on water to keep the hunger pangs at bay but so far it's not helping much..

Had my first shake at 10:30am. Decided to have 4 CWP today and the 200ml of skimmed milk, got 100ml left for a milky coffee later on.

Trying to hold out till about 3pm for my second shake, and trying my best to distract my mind from food cause it's currently obsessing over McDonald's and chocolate!!

Really hope all this hard work pays off soon enough, trying to find strength within myself to say no to food and enjoy my weekend without snacking is proving a task and a half.

- sent from my iPhone. "No one said it would be easy, they just said it'd be worth it.."