My journey

[leinadeoz]

So I have done about a million diaries on all different sections of minimins but this will be my last and final diary.

I am starting cambridge in Saturday and have found a lovely consultant who does home visits which is so much easier for me as I needed a weekend appointment as I have two jobs at the moment an work from 8am till 10pm, one if the reasons that diets don't tend to work for me!

I have tried cambridge before, although I use the term "try" loosely as my head wasn't in the right place at all and I didn't really try at all, infact, I didn't make it through even one day!

I need to loose weight as we have been trying for a baby for 5 years with no success and we need ivf, but like do many others, I need my bmi below 30 before they will even consider me.

I also want to do this for myself as I am often quite depressed, I want to go shopping and buy things I like, rather than things that fit. I want to fit in without thinking people are talking about me, I want to be able to eat out without worrying people ate checking what I'm eating, the list goes on! I also want to do it for my husband, e is so supportive of me yet I let him down every time I fail at this.

So this is me and I will not stop this diary until I have completed my journey. In the words of dual dynamics (my new inspiration!) NO EXCUSES.

So my aim is 24 weeks - 6 stone, taking me to September/October

 

[leinadeoz]

Starting tomorrow, can't wait been looking at all the pretty summer dresses ill be able to wear soon I have two weddings in June so hoping I will be able to buy a nice dress as other than my wedding dress, I have never owned a dress! I am so ready to sort my life out, took all my measurements this morning and they were awful, planning on doing this every four weeks and will update as I go but for the min, I'm too embarrassed to put them on here!

 

[leinadeoz]

Day one - my cambridge consultant is coming at 2pm but my mother in law has given me a couple of hers as she gave up so I am going to start today and have a banana shake for breakfast, slightly nervous about this but know I can do it, I have pretty dresses and a baby to aim for!

 

[leinadeoz]

So yesterday my CDC txt me and said she was giving up due to personal reasons. Was slightly annoyed as I only saw her Saturday and she text me Sunday! Feel like he just took my money to get a few last orders in! Anyway, I had to stop yesterday as the only other CDC I can see is I. Holiday until next Monday. So I am starting again tomorrow as will then have enough packs to last me to next Monday when I see the new lady. Even more determined to do this now as feel like the work is against me!

 

[CrazyDiamond]

So yesterday my CDC txt me and said she was giving up due to personal reasons. Was slightly annoyed as I only saw her Saturday and she text me Sunday! Feel like he just took my money to get a few last orders in! Anyway, I had to stop yesterday as the only other CDC I can see is I. Holiday until next Monday. So I am starting again tomorrow as will then have enough packs to last me to next Monday when I see the new lady. Even more determined to do this now as feel like the work is against me!

Oh no! Not the best start! And your CDC really shouldn't have taken you on, they must've known, like you say - a few more ££s for them!

Hope it goes well for you Monday, keep us updated!