naughty

[bridie]

just needed to let this all out and admit it ok so the last week and a half ive been terrible!! pretending im sticking to plan to everyone else but sneaking bits in here there and everywhere. so much so now that every time im alone i think quick what can i eat whilst noone is watching! its awefull!! have no clue why im doing it as most of the time im not hungry. its almost turned into habit! havent weighed in for about 12 days and im dreading it. i think the gain will be loads because none of the food has been healthy. ironically i was never sweet toothed but now suddenly i am :S

arghhhh im so cross with myself becsause i was so almost there!! and on to maintainance stupid girl!! i know only i can motivate myself to do it properly i just needed to rant about howcross i am with myself. and you lot are all so lovely i know you will give me encouragement and little words of wisdom and not judge me!!

anywho from right now i am starting again. dont care its in the middle of the day! i HAVE to stop it all now!!! thanks for listening