Step 1 Sole Source New start, new food business...

[Parga]

So here I am to begin what feels like my gazillianth diet! I am currently at the heaviest I have ever been and it's really putting life on a bit of a downer. Through my 20's my weight has been up and down a lot but each time it has gone up its gone up a bit more than the last time so here I am peaking at 16st 8lb at 32. It is causing me difficulty walking, it feels like I am being stabbed through my hips with hot pokers after about 50 meters which I am finding incredibly painful and embarrassing. Adding to the embarrassment and awkwardness of it regularly being assumed that I am 'due to drop' due to my body shape of slim legs and a fat tum! I have a good sense of humour and am aware of my shape so Not the end of the world but it is kind of preventing me going out incase someone asks me. Someone even asked my oh last week if I'd had the baby as I looked due to drop! Give me a break haha.

And next.....we are due to open a lovely sandwich shop & bakery on the 7th of April! Help!! 2 things really, I want to be in control of my eating and seeing results by then in order to maintain focus. And the other....I just don't feel comfortable with the way I look or the way clothes are fitting me and don't want to be feeling so un confident when that first customer walks through the door!!

So here I am ready and raring. I started yesterday and am feeling focused. I am usually quite good once a put my mind to it and can have some good weight loss but I really want this to be the last time and never want to be anywhere near this weight again. It is going to be important for me to have a hold on this in the shop.

im going to keep this diary to motivate and analyse my journey. I'm really looking forward to not feeling this crappy! I'm going to do this for my own happiness....and I'm going to wear clothes I want to, not just the ones that fit )

 

[JulieH333]

Welcome parga!' I started at 16st 3lbs, so similar to you. I know how you feel and I also want this to be the last time I have to lose weight.

I am in the groove now and, whilst it is not easy, I am doing it and taking a day at a time.

Best if luck and I will keep up with your progress! The sandwich shop is a big challenge however! Good move to get in control first. x

 

[Parga]

Well....I had a disaster last night!! It started a couple of weeks ago. Me and my oh went to see Phoenix nights at the Manchester arena. It was a last minute thing buying tickets off a friend who couldn't go. However....we both went with no money!!! So I looked longingly at the fresh strawberrys & marshmallow pots drizzled in chocolate and declared I would be having one of those when we come and see Lionel Richie at the end of the month!! Fast forward 2 weeks and I am on cambridge! We walked in last night and they were there....standing there with trays around their necks full of the little pots. Anyway, we went to our seats, but we were 2 hours early you see. So we decided to go for a walk, get my boyfriend a drink. And then I said I want a strawberry pot! And I got one! Firstly, it was delicious and everything and more than I thought it would be. Secondly, I don't go to the arena often, twice in 2 weeks but not for ten years before that! Thirdly, I had the 2 strawberries and 3 marshmallows and passed the rest of the more heavily/heavenly chocolate drenched marshmallows at the bottom to my boyfriend. So, I'm gutted I had it. I physically felt bigger and more uncomfortable in my seat as soon as I ate it. But I'm also happy I had it. I had waited a while, it wasn't an impulse eat and I controlled how much of it I ate when I could have easily devoured the whole thing!x P.s. Lionel was amazing!

 

[JulieH333]

Well....I had a disaster last night!! It started a couple of weeks ago. Me and my oh went to see Phoenix nights at the Manchester arena. It was a last minute thing buying tickets off a friend who couldn't go. However....we both went with no money!!! So I looked longingly at the fresh strawberrys & marshmallow pots drizzled in chocolate and declared I would be having one of those when we come and see Lionel Richie at the end of the month!! Fast forward 2 weeks and I am on cambridge! We walked in last night and they were there....standing there with trays around their necks full of the little pots. Anyway, we went to our seats, but we were 2 hours early you see. So we decided to go for a walk, get my boyfriend a drink. And then I said I want a strawberry pot! And I got one! Firstly, it was delicious and everything and more than I thought it would be. Secondly, I don't go to the arena often, twice in 2 weeks but not for ten years before that! Thirdly, I had the 2 strawberries and 3 marshmallows and passed the rest of the more heavily/heavenly chocolate drenched marshmallows at the bottom to my boyfriend. So, I'm gutted I had it. I physically felt bigger and more uncomfortable in my seat as soon as I ate it. But I'm also happy I had it. I had waited a while, it wasn't an impulse eat and I controlled how much of it I ate when I could have easily devoured the whole thing!x P.s. Lionel was amazing!

Hey Parga, give yourself a break ... it was a couple of strawberries and marshmallows .... Not the end of the world and could have been much worse! You enjoyed it, good! Now onwards and upwards! I suppose life is full of temptation and it's not going to go away. So the most important thing is to get back in it!