ncassidy80
Full Member
I just wanted to write a quick note about how things have changed for me personally since being on the show on weds night (will my crash diet kill me).
Initially I had a lot of negative comments from other dieters and this got me a bit down but actually realised that the people who are important in my life were proud of me for doing something that took me a lot to do.
I also received a lot of positive comments, for which I am really grateful, and if only one person decided to change themselves cos I did a program then it would be all worthwhile.
In terms of personally something that I really didn't expect to happen did. Last night I was on a night out and normally I'm the one in the corner who won't dance as I'm scared of people looking at me and drawing attention to myself (and yet I did national tv - I know ironic eh lol). However last night it was completely different - I actually didn't care (and yes I was sober). My absolute worst nightmare was everyone seeing me in my underwear and i think because I overcame that it was really liberating and realised that your own thoughts are far worse than anyone elses. And so I danced the night away without caring what people thought (admittingly I need dance lessons haha).
This to me is a huge turning point and if that came because of the documentary then I am glad I did it!!!
If I am honest - since the cameras left me a week and a half ago I went downhill (alot of thinking about how I will be portrayed and other people that were filmed with me were calling and panicking the same way) and I let any diet go and had a fair few drinks as well (I basically hit the self destruct button). Over that period I have put on a few lbs and whilst I'm not happy at that, I'm pleased that something positive has come out of it personally. Put that with all the nice comments I have received, and I am as determined as ever to get to goal and get my place back on the team. So from now I am back on track and here is to my goal
Thanks nic x
Initially I had a lot of negative comments from other dieters and this got me a bit down but actually realised that the people who are important in my life were proud of me for doing something that took me a lot to do.
I also received a lot of positive comments, for which I am really grateful, and if only one person decided to change themselves cos I did a program then it would be all worthwhile.
In terms of personally something that I really didn't expect to happen did. Last night I was on a night out and normally I'm the one in the corner who won't dance as I'm scared of people looking at me and drawing attention to myself (and yet I did national tv - I know ironic eh lol). However last night it was completely different - I actually didn't care (and yes I was sober). My absolute worst nightmare was everyone seeing me in my underwear and i think because I overcame that it was really liberating and realised that your own thoughts are far worse than anyone elses. And so I danced the night away without caring what people thought (admittingly I need dance lessons haha).
This to me is a huge turning point and if that came because of the documentary then I am glad I did it!!!
If I am honest - since the cameras left me a week and a half ago I went downhill (alot of thinking about how I will be portrayed and other people that were filmed with me were calling and panicking the same way) and I let any diet go and had a fair few drinks as well (I basically hit the self destruct button). Over that period I have put on a few lbs and whilst I'm not happy at that, I'm pleased that something positive has come out of it personally. Put that with all the nice comments I have received, and I am as determined as ever to get to goal and get my place back on the team. So from now I am back on track and here is to my goal
Thanks nic x