Don't beat yourself up about it, this is a really tough plan and your emotions take a battering. If you still want to do this, take some time to get your head in the right place and see if your heart is truly in it. You can't do this with just one, they both have to be on board (in my opinion).
Read through the diaries and you will probably read stories that could be your own. We all have bad days. Try to harness how you are feeling now and turn it into a positive force to drive you forward through this plan. You've probably heard it a million times, but it does get easier after the first week, I promise.
I'm on day 6 of total and I have felt emotionally drained this week as my inner child and my rational bit of my brain have been raging inside of me. I have managed to drag myself through only as I have been here before so I know it gets better.
Good luck in whatever you decide
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