I'm a jumble of emotions. I waited for my final restart of this diet until I knew I was in the right headspace, as I couldn't face another failed attempt, having tried time and again over the past three years.
I started as I found out that Australia finally was doing the ready to drinks (tetras). I told my consultant when I made my appointment that was all I would be using. I told her again at my first appointment. When I saw her yesterday she said that her order hadn't arrived and did mention that stock was low on one of the flavours in Australia.
I run out of supplies tomorrow. I'm desperate to do this. I can't (mentally/emotionally) deal with not being able to see this through to the end but I need the tetras. my consultant replied to my text asking if she has heard when the order will arrive and she just said that she has put a message out to the other consultants and everything should be ok. I got anxious, so texted five other consultants to ask if they had any. I have had a reply telling me that they are out of stock in Australia. Out of stock. So I sent a reply to thank them for informing me and that I would have delayed my start had I known. The very nice consultant replied to say they have arrived and just need to clear customs. This is good news, but not great news, as Australia can be a bit slow with this sometimes.
Anyway, I'm panicking and trying to get in control of my emotions by writing about it here. I think it is the unknown. If I knew I only had to go a couple of days with the other drinks, I'd manage (although I'd hate them). It's the fact I don't know how long I'll have to wait, plus the fact I didn't feel my consultant was understanding the impact of potentially not having them was having on me. In Australia, the CWP is quite new, so consultants don't have to have lost much weight to become a consultant. It's very different to be facing losing 10 kg vs facing losing 60kg+ and finally having managed to get in the right headspace to do it after three years of desperately wanting to be in the right place but no being. It was only learning that they now have the tetras in Australia that had everything click into place for me (I've done the diet in the UK before but put all the weight back on plus some as I didn't work through all the steps due to a change in circumstances and because I had a pretty hard time emotionally/mentally four years ago).
Spewing of thoughts now over.
Thanks if you bothered to read until the end
I started as I found out that Australia finally was doing the ready to drinks (tetras). I told my consultant when I made my appointment that was all I would be using. I told her again at my first appointment. When I saw her yesterday she said that her order hadn't arrived and did mention that stock was low on one of the flavours in Australia.
I run out of supplies tomorrow. I'm desperate to do this. I can't (mentally/emotionally) deal with not being able to see this through to the end but I need the tetras. my consultant replied to my text asking if she has heard when the order will arrive and she just said that she has put a message out to the other consultants and everything should be ok. I got anxious, so texted five other consultants to ask if they had any. I have had a reply telling me that they are out of stock in Australia. Out of stock. So I sent a reply to thank them for informing me and that I would have delayed my start had I known. The very nice consultant replied to say they have arrived and just need to clear customs. This is good news, but not great news, as Australia can be a bit slow with this sometimes.
Anyway, I'm panicking and trying to get in control of my emotions by writing about it here. I think it is the unknown. If I knew I only had to go a couple of days with the other drinks, I'd manage (although I'd hate them). It's the fact I don't know how long I'll have to wait, plus the fact I didn't feel my consultant was understanding the impact of potentially not having them was having on me. In Australia, the CWP is quite new, so consultants don't have to have lost much weight to become a consultant. It's very different to be facing losing 10 kg vs facing losing 60kg+ and finally having managed to get in the right headspace to do it after three years of desperately wanting to be in the right place but no being. It was only learning that they now have the tetras in Australia that had everything click into place for me (I've done the diet in the UK before but put all the weight back on plus some as I didn't work through all the steps due to a change in circumstances and because I had a pretty hard time emotionally/mentally four years ago).
Spewing of thoughts now over.
Thanks if you bothered to read until the end
