The 20K countdown

[Obs]

Here I go again. I did this in 2015. Now a little over two years later all the weight has crept up again. And some more. As much as I'd like to make excuses (and I sure have many - I've had a really bad two years), I am here to accept that I messed up. I know better. And I still ate my weight back. Now I am heavier than I have ever been. Today morning I weighed in at 90.1 kgs (198.2 lbs). That's insane! I have to lose almost 50 lbs so I have a long long way to go.
So here I go again. I had made some good friends the last time around and I hope to make some more this time as well. I hope I make new friends (which would mean my old friends reached their goal weight, maintained it and don't have a reason to be back here).
Started Cambridge Diet today. Trying to quit smoking at the same time. Not a good idea! But my counselor says that smoking inhibits weight loss. Anyone else facing the same problem? Smoked 4 cigs till now. I usually have at least a pack (20 cigs). Hopefully will stop at 5 today. I really do want to quit. Not just for weight loss but for better health.
Will be posting here regularly. Maybe everyday. Minimins was my constant friend last time around, and I am confident I can do this again. Here's to my losing 20 kgs in the next few months. My very own 20K race.

 

[Canteatcake69]

Here I go again. I did this in 2015. Now a little over two years later all the weight has crept up again. And some more. As much as I'd like to make excuses (and I sure have many - I've had a really bad two years), I am here to accept that I messed up. I know better. And I still ate my weight back. Now I am heavier than I have ever been. Today morning I weighed in at 90.1 kgs (198.2 lbs). That's insane! I have to lose almost 50 lbs so I have a long long way to go.
So here I go again. I had made some good friends the last time around and I hope to make some more this time as well. I hope I make new friends (which would mean my old friends reached their goal weight, maintained it and don't have a reason to be back here).
Started Cambridge Diet today. Trying to quit smoking at the same time. Not a good idea! But my counselor says that smoking inhibits weight loss. Anyone else facing the same problem? Smoked 4 cigs till now. I usually have at least a pack (20 cigs). Hopefully will stop at 5 today. I really do want to quit. Not just for weight loss but for better health.
Will be posting here regularly. Maybe everyday. Minimins was my constant friend last time around, and I am confident I can do this again. Here's to my losing 20 kgs in the next few months. My very own 20K race.

Hey Obs!

I started my Cambridge journey last week and have been reading forums ever since to keep me motivated. Unbelievably I have spent the last couple of hours reading your whole forum from 2015, only to read that you posted again yesterday! I'm gutted you are now feeling rubbish but excited that you are 'back on the wagon'. I empathise because I too have spent most of my adult life fluctuating up and down by 2 stone (28lbs). I started Cambridge last week on SS weighing in at 13st 1lb (183lbs) and my goal weight is 11st (154lbs). I lost 5lbs this first week (weighed in this morning).
I have also been over your current weight during crappy times in my life as I too have always had an emotional eating problem. I chose Cambridge due to not having to think about food at all and try and gain some control as well as lose some lard!!
I'm 35 and 5"10, I wish you the best of luck and hope we can motivate each other! Weight loss wishes sent your way... from the distant U.K.! X

 

[Canteatcake69]

Oh and I smoke... also want to quit but decided got enough to think about so not yet.. never ever heard of smoking inhibiting weight loss though?!! I'm onto google! Lol! X

 

[Obs]

Hey Obs!

I started my Cambridge journey last week and have been reading forums ever since to keep me motivated. Unbelievably I have spent the last couple of hours reading your whole forum from 2015, only to read that you posted again yesterday! I'm gutted you are now feeling rubbish but excited that you are 'back on the wagon'. I empathise because I too have spent most of my adult life fluctuating up and down by 2 stone (28lbs). I started Cambridge last week on SS weighing in at 13st 1lb (183lbs) and my goal weight is 11st (154lbs). I lost 5lbs this first week (weighed in this morning).
I have also been over your current weight during crappy times in my life as I too have always had an emotional eating problem. I chose Cambridge due to not having to think about food at all and try and gain some control as well as lose some lard!!
I'm 35 and 5"10, I wish you the best of luck and hope we can motivate each other! Weight loss wishes sent your way... from the distant U.K.! X

Hey cake. Is it okay to call you cake? Trying to shorten your name and I prefer cake to can't.
Thanks for posting. Wish you good luck on your journey as well. And yes! Let's motivate each other. It really helps to have friends who're checking in with you on a regular basis. Somehow makes you more accountable and responsible. Of course, the responsibility starts with one self. But it really really does help. Here's to the next few months together.
I'm 5'4.5" and 38 yrs old. So shorter and older, though probably not wiser. Did you manage to get any info on smoking inhibiting weight loss? I am still smoking, but trying to limit the number of cigarettes.

 

[Obs]

Today is my third day of CD, and I have to say that I'm quite proud of myself. I had work meetings in another city (two hours of flight each way). I left quite early in the morning, but had my morning shake before leaving and carried shakes for the day. I flew on one of the good airlines which surprisingly serves very good food. And I resisted. It was hard, I have to admit. The smell of food kept wafting into my nostrils. I so wanted to give in. But I held steady and had a black coffee instead.
This whole journey of weight loss is made of these small victories. Every little victory counts and should be celebrated (though not with food, as I typically would have). Maybe I shall keep a count of all these small wins and then later when I have lost some weight (say the first 20 lbs) I shall reward myself with new clothes. For every 3 small wins, one new garment. What fun!
So here's to small wins and delayed gratification.

 

[Canteatcake69]

Today is my third day of CD, and I have to say that I'm quite proud of myself. I had work meetings in another city (two hours of flight each way). I left quite early in the morning, but had my morning shake before leaving and carried shakes for the day. I flew on one of the good airlines which surprisingly serves very good food. And I resisted. It was hard, I have to admit. The smell of food kept wafting into my nostrils. I so wanted to give in. But I held steady and had a black coffee instead.
This whole journey of weight loss is made of these small victories. Every little victory counts and should be celebrated (though not with food, as I typically would have). Maybe I shall keep a count of all these small wins and then later when I have lost some weight (say the first 20 lbs) I shall reward myself with new clothes. For every 3 small wins, one new garment. What fun!
So here's to small wins and delayed gratification.

Yes I like cake...... a lot! .... it got me in this mess and its not getting me out! Well done for resisting food on the plane...I've struggled twice in my 10 days of CD thus far... both times when smelling food... especially fish and chips, it always smells better than it tastes, I wrote this 50 times on a board (in my head!)
You're doing good girl! I've been reading forums today where people haven't actually started until day 5 because each day they cheat, so bravo to you! It is difficult but find it's better to tell myself that it's easy. I plan to stay on SS for another 4 weeks then start having a small low carb meal too.
No scientific studies that say smoking inhibits weight loss that I found... phew! I will try give up but after SS.... black coffee and fags are my friend at the moment!!
Are you still living in India?!

 

[Canteatcake69]

Talking of rewards I've got a gift voucher for River Island in my purse, had it for my birthday and told myself I can spend it when the first stone (14lbs) is off .... we need to treat ourselves with lovely things other than FOOD!

 

[Obs]

Talking of rewards I've got a gift voucher for River Island in my purse, had it for my birthday and told myself I can spend it when the first stone (14lbs) is off .... we need to treat ourselves with lovely things other than FOOD!

Oooh. That's such a lovely treat for a 1 stone loss. When do you think you can reach that goal? 1 July? I don't plan to treat myself to any new clothes till I go down below 175 lbs. Today morning I weighed in at 192 lbs. So that's 17 lbs to lose. I reckon that's not going to happen before mid-July to end-July. So am a long way off.

 

[Obs]

Today morning I weighed in at 192 lbs. That's a little over 6 lbs in 3 days. Woo hoo. I didn't believe the scale. I think it's the extra water weight from all the traveling that I have been doing in the past week or so. Yet, the numbers are encouraging.
I have so much weight to lose this time around that if I really want to hit my goal I'll have to do the diet for at least 3 months. And 3 months seem daunting. The last time around I lost the drive to continue by around week 6. It started with little cheats like eggs and some chicken. I told myself it's protein so it won't really hamper the diet. What did happen was that I tasted real food and remembered how much I love it. And that's the bane of my existence. I love food. I love trying new cuisines and, of course, love eating my favourites. And I don't believe that food is a bad thing. What I need to learn is to know when to stop. I over indulge. This time around I hope to learn to control my tendency to overdo it. I tell myself that I am an all or nothing kind of girl. It's true. But I have learned to control myself in other areas of my life. I can do the same in my relationship with food. Enjoy it without letting it take over my life.

 

[Canteatcake69]

Hey Obs!

6lbs in 3 days!! Whoop whoop! Well done you! I haven't weighed since my Tuesday weigh in with consultant. It's that time of the month and I'm worried to weigh in case they don't go down and I'm working sooo hard, I'd be devasted!
I'm struggling more this week, not as much energy and have just finished 3 days of 15hr shifts... I had to buy a slim fast bar today as not enough products with me.. text my cc and she said it wouldn't matter... I hope she's right!
Your last post was like reading something I'd written! I am all or nothing in everything and have always had a very unhealthy relationship with food. I LOVE FOOD, but can't seem to stick to moderation. I'm either binging or starving myself or eliminating some food group or another! I'm either flat out exercising or doing none at all. I either don't drink alcohol at all or get totally sozzled! I need to gain the control back and was hoping Cambridge would help with the discipline.
I don't have a target date for the stone, think I should set one? Let's choose the 1st July like you said.
Actually mid July for you isn't too far off at all, it will soon fly by. For now take each day by day and celebrate your small victories along the way. Like when you resisted on the plane.
Like me going into Macdonalds today and ordering a black coffee! These are all incredible victories. We can do this!!

 

[Obs]

Had my first week weigh in today. Lost a whopping 4.2 kgs (9.2 lbs). I am somewhere between and shocked and delighted. Not sure if I am shockingly delighted or delightfully shocked. The last time I had barely lost some 4-5 lbs, so this is huge! I think this time its mostly water weight from not smoking for four days when I had started the diet. I've been smoking a lot since then (sob sob!). But I am determined to quit smoking while I'm on the diet this time. I know it will probably stall the weight loss but I really want to quit. Why can't I find the will power? I can be quite stubborn once I make up my mind. What will it take for my mind to decide once and for all that I am done with smoking? I am smoking more out of habit. I am not really enjoying the taste of cigarettes these days. So here's to my mind making the right choice.

 

[Obs]

Hey Obs!

6lbs in 3 days!! Whoop whoop! Well done you! I haven't weighed since my Tuesday weigh in with consultant. It's that time of the month and I'm worried to weigh in case they don't go down and I'm working sooo hard, I'd be devasted!
I'm struggling more this week, not as much energy and have just finished 3 days of 15hr shifts... I had to buy a slim fast bar today as not enough products with me.. text my cc and she said it wouldn't matter... I hope she's right!
Your last post was like reading something I'd written! I am all or nothing in everything and have always had a very unhealthy relationship with food. I LOVE FOOD, but can't seem to stick to moderation. I'm either binging or starving myself or eliminating some food group or another! I'm either flat out exercising or doing none at all. I either don't drink alcohol at all or get totally sozzled! I need to gain the control back and was hoping Cambridge would help with the discipline.
I don't have a target date for the stone, think I should set one? Let's choose the 1st July like you said.
Actually mid July for you isn't too far off at all, it will soon fly by. For now take each day by day and celebrate your small victories along the way. Like when you resisted on the plane.
Like me going into Macdonalds today and ordering a black coffee! These are all incredible victories. We can do this!!

Black coffee in McDonalds is not to be scoffed at. It's a huge victory. I think we need to pat ourselves for all these non-weight victories.
How have you been doing these past few days? I have been busy with work. Worked through the weekend. The good thing is that it kept my mind off eating.
Don't worry about the weigh-in during TOM. I usually don't lose any weight at all or my weight goes up a tad bit. But a day after I finish I see a big drop. So hang in there. We can totally do this!

 

[Canteatcake69]

Obs! So sorry haven't logged on been soooo busy! How are you doing?
I had my two week weigh in on Tuesday this week and was down another 6lbs! That's 11lbs in two weeks! I'm thrilled! Testing times though, sat with a Cambridge bar at a friends bbq etc. I will say though (although haven't told my consultant!) that during the week I had two vodkas with plain soda water and still lost!
Hope you are still losing and starting to feel the difference, keep motivated chick! X

 

[Canteatcake69]

Obs! So sorry haven't logged on been soooo busy! How are you doing?
I had my two week weigh in on Tuesday this week and was down another 6lbs! That's 11lbs in two weeks! I'm thrilled! Testing times though, sat with a Cambridge bar at a friends bbq etc. I will say though (although haven't told my consultant!) that during the week I had two vodkas with plain soda water and still lost!
Hope you are still losing and starting to feel the difference, keep motivated chick! X

Oh and don't beat yourself up about the smoking, get a routine with diet first, you're setting yourself up to fail if you deprive your body of so much at once! I've decided that once I'm off of SS that I'll give the smoking a crack then, that gives me another 2 weeks, think I will have to 'vape' though!! Good for you though if you do manage to do it all at once, you're made of steel! Remember to be kind to yourself

 

[Obs]

Obs! So sorry haven't logged on been soooo busy! How are you doing?
I had my two week weigh in on Tuesday this week and was down another 6lbs! That's 11lbs in two weeks! I'm thrilled! Testing times though, sat with a Cambridge bar at a friends bbq etc. I will say though (although haven't told my consultant!) that during the week I had two vodkas with plain soda water and still lost!
Hope you are still losing and starting to feel the difference, keep motivated chick! X

6 lbs. Wow! That's fantastic. Well done. I have another 3 days to go for my second week weigh in. Looks like I'll have a 3 lbs loss. A loss is a loss and I will be happy with that too. About smoking, what can I say? I want to quit. I do. I started reading Allen Carr's Easyway. Maybe it'll help me quit. The only reason I'd rather quit while I'm on SS is that way I may control the 3-5 kgs weight gain that accompanies the quitting.

 

[Obs]

Today's my twelfth day. It's almost ending, thankfully. Last few days have been tough. My energy level has been low and I have been so hungry. I can't understand why. I haven't cheated at all. I should be well into ketosis. I can't remember being this hungry the last time. TOTM is still 7-10 days away so it can't be PMS. I do have terrible PMS though. Hunger, mood swings, headaches et al. But it can't be that. Then what? It's almost like the diet is testing me. It's only the second week and 12 weeks seems so long to do the diet. But I will be strong. I have to do this. Suck it up or I'll be sucking it in (my tummy) for the rest of my life. After a fantastic first week, this week seems to be going slow. I really hope I get a 3lbs loss this week. Come on CD! You haven't let me down yet. I have faith it the diet and my ability to stick to it for 12 weeks. I can do it.

 

[Priyab2222]

U have got this hun im on day two and ur right 12 weeks does feel far away im hoping i will shrink and lose lot wuicker then the 12 weeks lolz but well done on getting to day 12 time will go by lot quciker then u know z

 

[SummerChic]

Hey Obs,

How are you fairing? I've been reading your past posts and I've found them inspiring. I've tried a few times to get my self together in the last year, but haven't been in a mental state to commit.

I kept trying and thought I had a handle on things, but it's not until Now knowing the feeling of how committed I feel right now that I know my heart wasn't in it before.

I will put it out there that to get into this mental place I did have a couple of sessions of hypnotherapy. I'm sure it's not for everyone, some years back I would have agreed, but I opened myself up to whatever's around and being receptive to it it put me in a better place to start CWP.

I'm through day five and onto day 6, still up because of the heat, soon I'll be saying week 6 and hopefully at least 20lbs down

Here's to us all

Xxz

 

[Priyab2222]

Summer chick well done on getting to day 6 today is my day four reli rlei praying will see the 13s on saturday

Obs how ru feeling now? Bit better? X

 

[Canteatcake69]

Hey peeps!

So my third week in and I messed up on Saturday.... losing a bit of weight gave me the courage to try internet dating... I had a date sat night and needed a drink, I had vodka and water to begin, no big sweat but it ended with cider and 2 slices of pizza. What an idiot I feel terrible. Cheating is definitely not worth the guilt I'm feeling now. That said, knowing my weigh in is Tuesday, it made me reign it back it straight away and not give up completely and drown in take away (my usual trick!). I don't expect to have lost this week but my own fault.
How are you doing Obs? So well done for not cheating! It was week 2 that I had the lull, cheating wasn't because of anything other than my own stupidity.
Welcome Pri and SummerChic, I hope you are doing well, I have also been considering hypnotherapy... would you recommend?
We can do this!! X