The journey of Hopez

[Hopez]

Well, here we go, I'm starting out and thought that a diary would be the best way for me to keep track of myself! I was always a really heavy kid, once I went to Uni I cleaned my act up and lost 40kgs...now I'm 26, recently married and ever since hubby and I bought our house I feel like all we've done is sit on the couch and celebrate our house - with wine and chocolates, chippies and dip! In fact, I've put on a vast amount of the weight I originally lost.
This time, I'm doing the healthy way. I've been through a number of diet and exercise fads and nothing ever works for me! This time I'm going whole foods, exercise and gallons of water!!
So I began this journey a few weeks ago - I've already lost 8kgs (which may be due to my dodgy scales or perhaps is an indication of how bad my eating was!). The hardest thing I find is not celebrating my success with food! I still want all kinds of food in my day-to-day living - I dont want to cut out one entire food group but I need to teach myself about moderation...everything in moderation!!!
Feeling bad today - had an event to go to last night and drank too much wine and now i'm really paying for it!! I told myself that I'd have one glass....then one turned into...7!!! On a Sunday nite!!!Feeling too ill to eat today - would rather be in bed.
Is it bad that I want to skip my exercise today...probably is!

 

[Hopez]

Should have really come to work more prepared - was hard enough getting out of bed this morning without having to pack my lunch as well...darn red wine!! grrr!
Altho I did some baking in the weekend and made bran muffins which came out super big so I had one of those for lunch and I also have a pear, apple and some feijoas so its not all bad. Last couple of weeks I've been bringing soup to work - making sure I choose ones with lower salt levels and lots of veges. Except when I went shopping in the weekend I actually took a look on the back on the pottle of soup and saw that theres stuff in there that I dont like the look of! My plan is to eat foods as close to their natural state as possible - i.e completely unprocessed - I dont want to eat foods where the ingredients list looks like it belongs in a chemisty lab!
I think that this would be something I could do for the rest of my life. It will probably take a while for the weight to come off but it didn't go on overnight so I cant expect it to come off any quicker!! Besides, I want an actual quality of life, not just carrot sticks and water ha ha
I've been so inspired by many of the diaries that i've read here! Its nice to have people who understand! Hubby tries so hard and is so supportive but he doesn't understand what its like to be big - hes NEVER put on weight!! He eats way more than I do!! I think it must go to his toes! hehe! He is very supportive but he doesnt understand and he gets upset when I have fat days because he thinks I am gorgeous all the time...i guess i'm really lucky huh...

So hope you all join with me in my journey!

 

[Hopez]

So I didn't do my exercise last night - I suppose thats pretty bad but I'm planning to make up for it tonight. Its funny how not exercising actually wore me out more than doing my usual workout on the elliptical and rowing machines. Made Hubby's favourite for tea last night, Chilli Con Carne. Used really lean mince and lots of tomatos, chilli, kidney beans and used wholemeal pasta. Working on my portion sizes too - I just had a handful of pasta with meaty sauce on top and then a massive salad to go along side.
Today at work I've had 3 glasses of water and 2 cups of herbal tea - off to the loo every five minutes tho!! I've got a pear, apple, some feijoas and minestrone soup for the day.
Actually, writing in this diary takes my mind off food for a wee while - usually when I get bored at work I start searching recipes and kJ count etc - this time I feel alot healthier about what I'm doing so I suppose my mind is in the right place.
Weigh in tomorrow - every Wednesday I've decided which means that if I do have a little slip in the weekend then I've got a couple of days to set it straight!

 

[Hopez]

I have to keep reminding myself to eat! I just get so caught up in work I forget to have lunch until like 2pm! haha! oh well guess its a good thing that I'm not fully focussed only on food!
Will be doing my work out tonight - just easy to begin with because I dont want to hurt myself.
I'd love to be one of those people who love to run..i love to walk everywhere but sometimes i just feel like I'd like to go for a run...I would end up red faced, huffing and puffing before I reached the corner of my street! Maybe once i get my fitness up a little I can look at running.
Weigh in tomorrow morning - I dont think that it will be that good as I drank alot of wine in the weekend and I think that my weight last week might have been wrong? Stupid scales, I should invest in some good ones but they do the job i suppose! I guess that I'll see in the morning. I know that my original weight was correct because I hopped on several times to make sure that it was actually THAT bad!
Tomorrow will tell!
xx

 

[Hopez]

Ok, so it turns out that I did have a very unreliable set of scales! So what I've done is I know that my reading 2 weeks ago was correct (taken on a friends) and I took another this morning on my new scales...so we'll just start my there I think! Two weeks down and 6kgs down...thats a stone i think! Not bad....altho maybe I should weight myself monthly rather than weekly!
Starting to feel my clothes getting looser.
Did my workout last night and its raining today so I cant go for my walk at lunch :cry:
Have the same fruit with me today but might get sushi for lunch - even tho its got white rice in it, I think that the seaweed more than makes up for that!
Must fly
xx

 

[Hopez]

Must resist the urge to weigh myself every morning - its really hard not to!
I feel like I have lost weight (and I know that I have) but no one has said anything yet...altho I suppose that 1 stone isnt that much of a difference..might just have to wait until I've lost like 3 or 4 stone before people say something. Hubby makes comments but only because I tell him how much I've lost. He doesnt really say that I look thinner or anything just that I'm doing well losing weight.
Today I have a lunch thing for a collegue who is leaving for her wedding. Its at a cafe so hopefully they have some healthy options otherwise I'll be sitting there just drinking water!! haha
I'll report fully when I get back, see how I handle it

 

[Hopez]

Well, I went out for lunch and I did well - I think!
Way tempted by some very yummy sounding choices...creamy pasta was one...mmm..BUT I ordered a steak sandwich which came with tons of greens, onions and tomatos...and fries....ate my steak sandwich and really enjoyed it...DIDN'T TOUCH THE FRIES!! WOOHOO! I actually didnt even want to eat them...those little deep fried salty suckers! Feeling quite proud of myself to be honest!
Off home soon for a work out and a chicken and vege homemade curry with brown rice - or perhaps I'll have quinoa tonight...all this healthy food in my cupboards, I cant help but lose weight!!
xx

 

[Hopez]

Have drunk so much water today I think I might pop!
Been quite a stressful day at work and I haven't craved chocolate once!! YES!
Baked some more bran banana muffins this week but substituted golden syrup for yoghurt and it seems to have come out ok! Lowers the suger level and makes them seem not as processed! yay!
Had some fruit and sushi - have seriously become addicted to green tea...mmmm and i think that the bitter flavour does something to make you crave less food - dont quote me on that tho! Maybe I should google it!
So todays going well - did my workout last night and managed to last the same amount of time but at a faster pace..yay! Heading out to the local tonight but might just stick to soda water – after last Sunday and all that red wine, I’ve kind of been put off alcohol for a wee while!
Love and lollipops (healthy, sugar free lollipops of course!! )
xx

 

[Hopez]

Ok, so haven't posted over the weekend - I feel like I've had a super bad weekend food and exercise wise but I think I really need to give myself a break cos it wasn't that bad!
Friday night, hubby and I went to our local - he had some beers and I stuck to soda water! Yay me!
Saturday we had alot of visitors so we popped to the shops and bought some choccy biscuits - thinking I could restrain myself, I had one...but then one turned into about 6 or 7! In fact once everyone had gone, I couldn't sit still knowing that there were 3 still in the fridge...so I ate them all to save myself the temptation...strange way of thinking! I didn't want them in the house, but I couldn't throw them out, so I ate them....my thinking is a bit screwed sometimes!
So I have realised that the best thing for me is not to buy things like that...cos I cant be around them!
Sunday was good - the only exercise I got all weekend was Sunday. Hubby and I went for a huge walk for over and hour and a half! Cooked a massive pot of super healthy vege soup with heaps of barley and lentils etc in it..had that for lunch and dinner on Sunday but picked at chippies and bread in the mean time...i just cannot resist super soft squishy fresh bread! Even if it is multigrain healthy bread I know I shouldnt eat it just cos its squishy!
So here I am today - at work..back to it! Have a wholewheat wrap and lots of salad ingredients in my bag for lunch - lettuce, beetroot, tomato etc..should be yum!
More later x

 

[Hopez]

Had my wholewheat wrap filled with salad for lunch and it was yum! Just had a pear and some feijoas which helped to fill me up a little! Have had more herbal tea than I thought was possible! As well as about 3ltrs of water! Feel like i’m swimming at the moment lol
Tonight I’m going to do my little work-out followed by maybe tuna on crackers and for dinner I’m going to make a chilli chicken stirfry! Mmmmmm! I’m certainly getting my 5+ a day at the moment! Hubby text earlier and asked if he could have steak, eggs and chips for dinner...I have no problem with cooking this for him. What i do is I have basically the same, only different...if that makes sense! Haha! So I’ll have lean steak (the size of my palm) with kumera baked in the oven and a salad while he has his steak, eggs, chips! Seems to work for us! I think its cute that he asks if he can have high calorie and high fat foods lol! But tonight I have already got chicken out for the stirfry so I will make him his favourite tomorrow night
xx

 

[Hopez]

Today was weigh in day...dun dun dunnnnnnnn....lol
Actually was really good! I'm anther 3kgs down! So now I've hit 20lbs loss yay!! Thats about 9kgs all together!
Hubbys uncle died yesterday so wasnt at work which I find hard because it means that my routine gets a bit out of whack. Went to visit the family which of course means that we take food. I tried to be on my best behaviour and had half a fruit bun and a bite of chocolate fudge...seemed to go ok! Had poached egg on toast for dinner so feeling quite proud of myself as I wanted to just eat anything and everything when I feel sad but I didn't let myself! Yay!
Well, better go do some work and fill up my water bottle..another day, another 4ltrs hahaha
xx

 

[Sam35]

Wow hope, you're doing fantastic, well done

 

[Hopez]

Hey Maria, Thanks! I can see that you've done really well too! wow go you!

So I haven't been on here for a while. Went on a mammoth road trip for Hubby's uncles funeral....about 1500kms over 2 days - there and back...and of course I didn't really have much time to pack healthy foods so we ate along the way from gas stations and fast food places. When we got there, hubbys sister had baked cakes and biscuits etc. Shes a big girl too and I felt silly with my little portions of wholegrain oats that I'd packaged up for each morning when shes sitting there eating giant bowls of cocoa pops...made me feel like it was so unfair that I had to watch what I ate when she doesn't seem to care...anyways...so we ate pretty badly, drank alot of red wine and so I haven't really even done my exercise component this week. This morning was weigh-in and i was super scared and to be honest, thought that I could tell myself that I could go without weighing myself this week and just be really good next week...BUT no, I decided to weigh myself to see just how bad those cookies, meat pies, fish and chips were....and I was actually shocked! While, I didn't lose any weight, I didn't put any on either! I'm exactly the same weight which considering what I've eaten in the last week is a great thing!
I actually feel sooooo much more tired having eaten junk and its taking me a long time to get over the miles and miles that we travelled this weekend. Whereas I think that if i'd stuck to healthy foods I would have recovered a lot better. Hmm food for thought...literally!
xx

 

[Hopez]

Ok, So this is seriously hard trying to get back into the healthy food groove! Yesterday, hubby and I both had the day off work and I was trying to be soooo good but then mid afternoon I suggested we go and get some gossip mags to read...which we did...as well as a King Size Block of Macadamia nut chocolate!! AND hubby hardly touched it but now theres only two rows left! I ate pretty much the WHOLE thing! Then i felt bad so made some healthy vege soup for dinner to compensate! but today I feel like a whale...literally, like a whale! I feel really tired and sleepy, I've got a headache and I really just want to go home! I really want to keep going the way that I was but I feel like I'm so tired that I want things that are quick and easy and that take little time and effort to prepare...things that are full of sugar to boost my energy...not good!
Its funny cos I know exactly what is going on in my body and yet i'm not actually trying to stop these feelings by just eating healthy until i'm over feeling like this..meh...got a cup of tea now...fruit and sushi for lunch...maybe poached egg on toast for dinner...see how we go...not feeling very inspired at the moment...considering how far I have to go, I really should be!

 

[farmgirl]

Hi Hopez. Wow ! your weight loss so far is fantastic. Well done, especially as you have had some trying/challenging times.
I have also been heavy on and off all my life and determined to sort it out now, once and for all.
I started healthy eating and calorie counting 9 days ago and will have my first weigh in on thurs morning so fingers crossed.
I will keep checking in to see how you are doing but is there any chance you could change the font size of your words ?? They are so tiny its hurting my eyes to read.
xxx

 

[Hopez]

Hey Farmgirl, thanks for your comment! haha and thanks for the heads up about my font size teehee guess I was trying to make everything small!
It has been hard these past couple of weeks, all the stress and travel etc. I have to say that I was supposed to weigh myself this morning but I dont think that I will - given that its that totm as well.
Finding it hard to get back into my groove...but I'm sick of being big so I really need to sort it out...I've noticed that since I haven't been eating wholesome natural food, I've been really tired and irritable...poor hubby...so I know how good food makes me feel, I'm just concerned that I wont get able to get back on track...*sigh*
Today is another day though, lots of water, green tea, fruit and veges and wholegrains. Possibly some form of exercise when I get home from work...altho at the moment I just feel like curling up and sleeping a little longer!
xx
Ps Farmgirl, good luck with your weigh in - I'm sure you'll do super well! xx

 

[farmgirl]

Hopez, you are as bad as me at updating your diary !!!
Well I'm back now and determined to lose more weight. I lost 3 lb in the first 10 days of my diet but then had 2 crazy weeks when all I could do was try not to go backwards. It worked and I maintained (which is a first first for me ) so I don't have crappy guilty feelings pulling me down and making me binge.
Aiming to get below 12 st during June so a 5lb goal.
How are you doing ? hope the lack of diary entries isn't a bad sign ?
If it is DON'T WORRY , just start again.
come and keep me company.
xxx

 

[Hopez]

Ok, so I'm back...I have been skulking around here not wanting to post for a long time...thanks for your comments Farmgirl...I seem to have completely fallen backwards! I didn't even see it coming...I mean I was doing super well and then we had that long weekend away for Hubbys uncles funeral and I feel like ever since then I haven't been able to get back into things. I woke up in the middle of the night last night just really disappointed in myself. I've put on 9lbs in like a month cos I just really let it all go. I now realise that I need to actually realise that this has been a bit of a stumble, pick myself up and keep going. I've altered my ticker and my stats to show my weight how it is right now. And so I begin again. I will be making an effort to come on here each day and track my weight loss. I'm really feeling quite down on myself...and its my birthday on Thursday so theres a little part of me that keeps saying "put it off until after your bday" but no...I was doing so well and now i've had a slip up...back to it I say. No point in moping around feeling sorry for myself..I opened my mouth, I ate the crap food, I drank too much alcohol...I am responsible...
Feeling bit better...had homemade bircher muesli this morning with banana and yoghurt, mandarins at morning tea, beef and vege soup for lunch and about to have an apple now.
I dont want to go back...I need to believe in myself...its hard in winter - esp the exercise thing!

 

[Hopez]

Its also interesting that I feel so drained and lifeless at the moment..stupid crap food! back to natural, healthy food...yay!
Thanks for your support Farmgirl - you're doing well not to fall into a big hole like me! Maybe I should set a goal for June as well...not sure how much tho..

 

[Hopez]

OK, so I know that I said I’d come on here everyday...its hard though when I’m feeling this bad about my stumble...Today at work I have rearranged my office which i think probably burnt alot of calories cos there was some super heavy lifting and moving and changing and swivelling haha! Its my birthday tomorrow so I’m not going to think anything bad about myself for one whole day! And just enjoy being me!
This morning I had multigrain toast with banana on top, then I had a mandarin and for lunch I had chicken and corn soup. I like having soup when its cold out and it certainly helps to fill me up for ages!! Short one today, feeling tired...xx