Hi everyone
Nice to meet you all!
I am a bit stuck. It seems daft to be posting this already when I haven't even weighed myself yet but regardless of the figures I have a huge amount of weight to lose and the quality of my life is on the line.
About four years ago I started WWs as I weighed around 17.5 stone. I know, it was really bad. Well I got down to 13.5 fairly easily with a few minor hurdles but something happened that I didn't expect and it has changed everything. The weightloss actually caused a herniated disc in my spine. Sounds like madness I know but the docs explained that it was changes in my weight distribution coupled with weak stomach muscles (2 previous caesarians). I had to have surgery and all of this combined with a fall caused by my back triggered long term chronic problems with my mobility and severe chronic pain. I now have what they call Complex Regional Pain Syndrome but regardless of the terminology what it means is that this week I am going into a wheelchair, something I have been putting off in the hope of getting better. On really good days I can walk for about 2 minutes at a time with elbow crutches.
I am on a couple of long term medications for the pain and have sort of been a guinea pig for the pain clinic, having been on quite a few meds for differing periods of time. A couple of them are notorious for weight gain, one in particular made me gain a dress size in a month despite my eating not being bad. I'm off them now.
My weight has crept back up, I daren't estimate how much as it's likely to be more although I am not as big as 4 years ago. I daren't weigh myself but am going to.
A bit of a ray of hope has come about this week, I have been accepted to have a spinal cord stimulator operation (bit like an internal TENS machine). This could well give me my mobility back. However quite understandably the surgeon wants me to lose weight before he will okay the operation. You can't get any more motivation than that.
Hurdles I have include a complete ban on extra exercise by my physiotherapist and the pain clinic as they are teaching me to 'pace'. I tend to overdo it and end up in a flare meaning I can't move at all. You might think "Then don't overdo it", but my level of achievable exercise is minute compared to others. Overdoing it to the physio is walking more than half of what causes me pain (currently two minutes of walking) without a rest, and she's embarrassingly totally right. This tolerance level can only increase if I follow the pacing, which means doing less at first. This ban is really frustrating and I am hoping they will allow me to exercise somehow once they know about the surgery but I don't see how it's achievable.
So in the meantime I have to lose a dramatic amount of weight without relying on being able to burn much if any. My GP has referred me to an NHS weight loss service but he says he doesn't know how helpful it will be as it focuses mainly on exercise and the diet side will be fairly basic, much of which I'm already doing but not losing (presumably because I can't need anywhere near as many calories as a mobile person). He said if it doesn't work he will refer me to a nutritionist.
As I lost my job due to having to go into hospital and losing my mobility, I can't afford WWs and the likes. I toyed with the idea of VLCDs but am concerned about managing to keep it off after and again they cost too much for me to afford. I am trying to set up my own business around all this but can't get my hopes up when I'm starting with nothing and have so much of this health rubbish going on.
I want a life, I want to walk and I want more than anything to be able to support my family again financially so everything rests on me losing this weight.
If anyone has any ideas I would very much appreciate your help.
Thanks
Kathy
Nice to meet you all!
I am a bit stuck. It seems daft to be posting this already when I haven't even weighed myself yet but regardless of the figures I have a huge amount of weight to lose and the quality of my life is on the line.
About four years ago I started WWs as I weighed around 17.5 stone. I know, it was really bad. Well I got down to 13.5 fairly easily with a few minor hurdles but something happened that I didn't expect and it has changed everything. The weightloss actually caused a herniated disc in my spine. Sounds like madness I know but the docs explained that it was changes in my weight distribution coupled with weak stomach muscles (2 previous caesarians). I had to have surgery and all of this combined with a fall caused by my back triggered long term chronic problems with my mobility and severe chronic pain. I now have what they call Complex Regional Pain Syndrome but regardless of the terminology what it means is that this week I am going into a wheelchair, something I have been putting off in the hope of getting better. On really good days I can walk for about 2 minutes at a time with elbow crutches.
I am on a couple of long term medications for the pain and have sort of been a guinea pig for the pain clinic, having been on quite a few meds for differing periods of time. A couple of them are notorious for weight gain, one in particular made me gain a dress size in a month despite my eating not being bad. I'm off them now.
My weight has crept back up, I daren't estimate how much as it's likely to be more although I am not as big as 4 years ago. I daren't weigh myself but am going to.
A bit of a ray of hope has come about this week, I have been accepted to have a spinal cord stimulator operation (bit like an internal TENS machine). This could well give me my mobility back. However quite understandably the surgeon wants me to lose weight before he will okay the operation. You can't get any more motivation than that.
Hurdles I have include a complete ban on extra exercise by my physiotherapist and the pain clinic as they are teaching me to 'pace'. I tend to overdo it and end up in a flare meaning I can't move at all. You might think "Then don't overdo it", but my level of achievable exercise is minute compared to others. Overdoing it to the physio is walking more than half of what causes me pain (currently two minutes of walking) without a rest, and she's embarrassingly totally right. This tolerance level can only increase if I follow the pacing, which means doing less at first. This ban is really frustrating and I am hoping they will allow me to exercise somehow once they know about the surgery but I don't see how it's achievable.
So in the meantime I have to lose a dramatic amount of weight without relying on being able to burn much if any. My GP has referred me to an NHS weight loss service but he says he doesn't know how helpful it will be as it focuses mainly on exercise and the diet side will be fairly basic, much of which I'm already doing but not losing (presumably because I can't need anywhere near as many calories as a mobile person). He said if it doesn't work he will refer me to a nutritionist.
As I lost my job due to having to go into hospital and losing my mobility, I can't afford WWs and the likes. I toyed with the idea of VLCDs but am concerned about managing to keep it off after and again they cost too much for me to afford. I am trying to set up my own business around all this but can't get my hopes up when I'm starting with nothing and have so much of this health rubbish going on.
I want a life, I want to walk and I want more than anything to be able to support my family again financially so everything rests on me losing this weight.
If anyone has any ideas I would very much appreciate your help.
Thanks
Kathy