Beadyjanet
Member
Hello, I'm feeling rather a failure and trying to dredge up the motivation to begin another journey of weight loss. I posted this in the introductions thread but then spotted this forum and though it might be more appropriate to post here.
Knowing I need to lose weight, and feeling like crap in my own body just isn't giving the motivation to actually DO anything about it just think about it, then feel even more guilty that I still haven't made any effort.
Having yoyo dieted all my life and veered between being 3 or 4 stone overweight to brief spells of getting down to what I'd consider an acceptable, healthy and comfortable weight, then up and down and up again. About 5 years ago I finally managed to acheive what I felt was the right weight for me a little higher than what I'd been trying to stick at before but at the upper edge of a healthy BMI and a size I felt I looked pretty good at and felt much fitter and more active at almost 3 stones lighter than usual..
But over the following 4 years I still yoyo'ed but not as much putting back 5 lbs then losing 4 putting on 10 then dieting off 8 but thats eant that gradually I put back a stone, which still left me felling not so bad, then really suddenly and quickly in about 3 months I've lost all control and ballooned a further 20lbs! So now I am almost back to where I was 5 years ago and I just keep thinking I can't do it all over again, every time it gets harder and harder to shift any weight and at the back of my mind is the thought that once its off I won't be able to keep it off for long. 2016 is the year I will hit 60 which kind of terrifies me but I really don't want to be 60 and obese.
I am intending to go back to slimming world this week as having a goup to attend helped me before but I intended to start last week and managed to find excuses as to why I couldn't go and talked myself out of it.
I know that once I begin to lose weight I'll feel so much better in myself, healthwise as well as in confidence and motivation, but if anyone can think of anything to say that might help get me motivated enough to actually make an effort - NOW and not next week, month or year, I'd so appreciate it. so much.
Knowing I need to lose weight, and feeling like crap in my own body just isn't giving the motivation to actually DO anything about it just think about it, then feel even more guilty that I still haven't made any effort.
Having yoyo dieted all my life and veered between being 3 or 4 stone overweight to brief spells of getting down to what I'd consider an acceptable, healthy and comfortable weight, then up and down and up again. About 5 years ago I finally managed to acheive what I felt was the right weight for me a little higher than what I'd been trying to stick at before but at the upper edge of a healthy BMI and a size I felt I looked pretty good at and felt much fitter and more active at almost 3 stones lighter than usual..
But over the following 4 years I still yoyo'ed but not as much putting back 5 lbs then losing 4 putting on 10 then dieting off 8 but thats eant that gradually I put back a stone, which still left me felling not so bad, then really suddenly and quickly in about 3 months I've lost all control and ballooned a further 20lbs! So now I am almost back to where I was 5 years ago and I just keep thinking I can't do it all over again, every time it gets harder and harder to shift any weight and at the back of my mind is the thought that once its off I won't be able to keep it off for long. 2016 is the year I will hit 60 which kind of terrifies me but I really don't want to be 60 and obese.
I am intending to go back to slimming world this week as having a goup to attend helped me before but I intended to start last week and managed to find excuses as to why I couldn't go and talked myself out of it.
I know that once I begin to lose weight I'll feel so much better in myself, healthwise as well as in confidence and motivation, but if anyone can think of anything to say that might help get me motivated enough to actually make an effort - NOW and not next week, month or year, I'd so appreciate it. so much.
