♥ Nicki's ♥ Diary - I've been here the whole time, the whooooooooooooooooole time!

[.Nicki.]

Thanks guys, I'm a little smitten with tilly. Although i think i'm scaring her, she didn't come out all day yesterday so i got her up and this morning i went to check on her and thought she was dead but apparently just asleep (half hanging out her house) had lovely cuddles though and she didn't bite or attempt to jump. Gonna leave her for the rest of the day and get her out tonight, going to buy her some more goodies later. Oddly she is making me feel a lot better, so my plan of action is to sort my diet bible out today and return to class on wednesday, i've only missed a week and it was the worst thing i could have done, although i did enjoy sleeping until mid day. Not going to worry about diet until wednesday.

 

[Kater-tater]

spider ham! LOVE IT

 

[Jo Slim]

Hi Nikki,

oh Tilly is sooo cute, you sound really good Nikki

 

[Jax123]

Good on you for considering joining the gym - really hope it works for you. Love tilly - sooooo cute!!! Hopefully she'll give you back your mojo xxx

 

[Emma_2008]

Well Titch has had a slight name change since yesterday, she's now Tilly. It suits her better although from this pic maybe she should be called spider-ham

Too cute!

 

[Mumma K]

Hope you and Miss Spiderham have a great day x

 

[.Nicki.]

Well its hubbys birthday in a few weeks and he is a total nightmare to buy for, not least because we are on a saving mission so he knows how much i should have, makes buying presents a pain. Anyway for christmas i bought hubby some cans of wild cherry pepsi from ebay because you can only get them from america. Well i found a website specialising in american products so for his birthday i've got him 2 crates of the stuff (plus 2 cans which i'll give him first) a box of haribo chews, a box of fizzy cola bottles and some sour jelly beans. Can't moan about his sweet consumption after that, did get myself some blackberry and raspberry sweets though
Tillie is settling, she came out of her house on her own yesterday but did run when she saw me have been picking her up everyday and she hasn't tried to run or bite although she likes my wedding ring, defo got good taste! I'm off today with a migrane it was killer this morning but is easing off now.
Random question, does anyone go to church?? I've never belonged to a church as my mum is very anti religous, but now i'm older i feel like i've missed out on something, like something is missing. I have 2 churches on my road, one opposite my house and one down the road and for some reason i just feel drawn to the one down the road, not had the nerve to go though.
Wow that was serious for me, Grown up time over!

 

[Jo Slim]

Hi Nikki,

I agree with Nik if you feel drawn to the church then it wouldn,t hurt to give it a go. I,m not a religious person but have known quite a few people who are. They get great comfort from their faith & community

 

[Mumma K]

I'm not religious as such although I do believe there is more to life out there than we can actually see if that makes any sence.
I also believe that a person should be allowed the freedom to choose what they want to and religion should not be choosen for them hence never having my son christened but if he came to me and said mum I want to follow Judaism ( his father is Jewish ) or I want to follow Islam or RCatholic it wouldn't make the slightest difference to me he's free to choose.
If you feel you are being drawn towards the church then follow your heart and go, these feelings you are having are for a reason, your reason in the great scheme of life.

 

[.Nicki.]

:ashamed0005: Hey Mini's,
I confess i've been avoiding you, i'm still not back on plan, i still haven't joined the gym, i'm a feeling really uncomfy all the time. Oh and i've developed a little thing that when i'm stressed or upset i get stabby pains in my tummy :character00264:
I'm trying to sort out my debt i've been ignoring for years, trying to get my life in gear and the only thing its doing is stressing me out.
I don't have much of a plan when it comes to the diet or anything really. My friends want me to join the gym so we can go swimming but at the moment its a whole lot of effort. I'm currently fighting a severe chest infection and on steroids. I'm seriously under a big black cloud at the moment Seriously i'm thinking these smilies could tell the story of my life and they'd be cuter!
I'm going to attempt to catch up on your diaries but i'm sensing this could take all day

 

[Mumma K]

Aww chick
sorry your not feeling to good, stress is awful
and can cause all sorts of problems hope you get everything sorted out soon

 

[florabell]

good to see you back Nicki but sorry to hear things aren't going too good at the moment, just concentrate on getting your head in the right place for now xo

 

[.Nicki.]

Well i'm feeling mighty positive today, its a bit of an odd feeling. Diet is still pretty of the charts but i'm hoping to be back on the wagon in the next couple of days. Still getting pains with my tummy and acid in my throat so off to the doctors again.
I AM going to join the gym, if only to go swimming a few times a week, as long as i swim 3 times a week, i making the most of the membership. Yesterday was funny, got out the shower grabbered one of the new towels, wonders into the bedroom and hubby bursts into laughter (was not the best response to walking into the bedroom nekkid) so i looked down and i was covered in black fluff, it was a good look, so back into the shower i had to get, my god the effort.

I tried to catch up with everyones diaries but soooo much has happened i got lost and gave up. So might be a bit quiet until i work out whats going on.

 

[chocaslim]

Well its hubbys birthday in a few weeks and he is a total nightmare to buy for, not least because we are on a saving mission so he knows how much i should have, makes buying presents a pain. Anyway for christmas i bought hubby some cans of wild cherry pepsi from ebay because you can only get them from america. Well i found a website specialising in american products so for his birthday i've got him 2 crates of the stuff (plus 2 cans which i'll give him first) a box of haribo chews, a box of fizzy cola bottles and some sour jelly beans. Can't moan about his sweet consumption after that, did get myself some blackberry and raspberry sweets though
Tillie is settling, she came out of her house on her own yesterday but did run when she saw me have been picking her up everyday and she hasn't tried to run or bite although she likes my wedding ring, defo got good taste! I'm off today with a migrane it was killer this morning but is easing off now.
Random question, does anyone go to church?? I've never belonged to a church as my mum is very anti religous, but now i'm older i feel like i've missed out on something, like something is missing. I have 2 churches on my road, one opposite my house and one down the road and for some reason i just feel drawn to the one down the road, not had the nerve to go though.
Wow that was serious for me, Grown up time over!

hi nicki just reading your diary my 6 yr old daughter and i got to a church of england service on sundays and i help out with the sunday school group that meets half way through i find it inspirational i havent felt like a christian all my live only within the last 3 yrs but it has helped me become a better person and less judgmental i take a day at a time my hubby doesnt come as he doesnt believe but he does support my beliefs good luck if you do decide to follow a religion.x

 

[Mumma K]

Hope your feeling better soon hun
sounds rather like some sort of nervous tummy troubles
good luck re getting back on the rollin wagon do your best to avoid those probing Aliens nasty little boogers they are :8855:

 

[.Nicki.]

Oh man i still can't get back on the wagon, last few days i haven't been able to sleep, i not really eating anything much and certainly nothing good. I've been reading through my diary hoping i'd get some inspiration of how to get
back how good i used to be, but makes me sad.
I'm also mad because i spent 12hours yesterday waiting for a parcel that didn't turn up. So another day of waiting is instore, its hubbys main birthday present and its the last day i'm off for it to be delivered, so it best bloody turn up.
Ok i'm off to trawl through ww mags to find some inspiration.

 

[Emma_2008]

Oh man i still can't get back on the wagon, last few days i haven't been able to sleep, i not really eating anything much and certainly nothing good. I've been reading through my diary hoping i'd get some inspiration of how to get
back how good i used to be, but makes me sad.
I'm also mad because i spent 12hours yesterday waiting for a parcel that didn't turn up. So another day of waiting is instore, its hubbys main birthday present and its the last day i'm off for it to be delivered, so it best bloody turn up.
Ok i'm off to trawl through ww mags to find some inspiration.

Hope the parcel turned up - hate it when things you wait for dont arrive!!!

Hope your feeling better hun xx

 

[.Nicki.]

Well i am back on the wagon, its day one, and although i feel i could jack it all in and have a pizza, i am still on track. I weighed in this morning and i have put on 3.5lb which isn't bad for over a month of eating nothing but rubbish. This time i am going it alone, so to speak. I have a few skinny friends dieting and i have you guys. I honestly think me not coming on minimins has made a real difference, but not in a good way. Last time i wasn't on the wagon i was still here all the time and got back on the diet quicker. Ho hum i'm back on now so we'll see how it goes.
The parcel arrived on Saturday and Hubby instantly knew what it was, so i gave it to him. Think he's a bit annoyed i spent so much money of a satnav but i wanted him to have the best for his new car. Seriously running out of presents to give him on Wednesday. We're going out to lunch so i'm going to be good, not sure where we are going but i'll plan in advance.
I'm still having heartburn issues so i'm not eating as much so hoping being back on the diet will ease things.

I'm going to attempt to catch up on diaries (again)

 

[PickyNic]

Good luck with the fresh start Nicki! 3.5lbs on isn't too bad at all, you'll have that off in no time.
Once you've got through today, that'll get you back in the swing of things.
I know what you mean about Mini's, it definitely keeps me going and even if I have a glitch i come on and confess and that gets me back in the game!

 

[Mumma K]

Good luck Nicki on the full restart
totally agree with everyone who's gone before me
but could not do without the support we give each other here