Oh absolutely, babe! Of course you can share with us - who are all going through the same struggles - there surely won't be a single person on here who will judge you for it... And if there is, I'll kick their butts for them because they don't deserve to be here!
I reckon a big part of the difficulty at this stage could just be being so close to your goal, now. It's harder to get your head back in the same place it was at first...
Ted.E Bear said something similar the other day - that twice before she's got within a few pounds of goal but never quite made it. Getting into smaller, sexier outfits and having lots of compliments can lead to complacency (I'm paraphrasing...
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I suspect that your situation is a bit more complicated than that, but I've realised it's been happening to me on a sub-concious level and it doesn't help when trying to resist temptations! I was about to eat a meal this weekend (due to an unexpected visit from someone I didn't want to be anti-social with), and I was feeling very confident that I knew exactly what I was doing and that I could control it and get back to shakes the same night and so on... In the end, the meal fell through so I didn't have to be tested! With hindsight now, I fear I may have been too optimistic. It's made me determined to stick to 100% now until I'm done.
I hope now that you're over the hurdle of the first day you'll be able to harness that determination, too. But we're here for you no matter what.
Best of luck,
Marianne x