Well done jenna love! No killing yourself though.
Clare I hate it when that happens. You will find something even more perfect.
Marilyn, I agree with following one of the plans online. For my first week I did one from the magazine. It is hard to explain/give someone a plan because everyone likes different things. Break down your meals into free foods (i'll base it on extra easy) lean meat, fish, potatoes, pasta, rice, beans and pulses, fat free natural yogurt and some flavoured yogurt, fat free fromage frais, fat free natural Greek yogurt, eggs, starch veg, e.g. peas. These take up 2/3rds of your plate. The other 1/3rd must be made up from "superfree" foods. You should have a list of these. All fruit fresh and frozen NOT JUICED, PUREED, DRIED, TONNES OR COOKED. And most veg, which can be fresh, frozen, tinned, cooked and pureed (e.g. your own homemade soup). You then have two healthy extra sections, a) calcium and b) fibre. Options for each have to be measured and the lists of each and quantities are online and in your pack. You get one choice from each section each day. The third component is something called "syns". This covers everything else not covered. Alcohol, chocolate, crisps, oils, fruit juice, butter, mayo etc etc etc. You can have 5-15 syns a day, everything has it's own syn value and you must measure and count these up.
That is basically it. If I've missed anything someone else will chip in. I don't know what the online membership provides so I'm not too sure what needs explaining. Today I'm have fruit and yogurt for breakfast, roast pork (fat removed) potatoes roasted in frylight, and loads of veg (carrots, cabbage, broccoli, cauliflower etc) later on I may have an open sandwich made from 2 slices of wholemeal bread from a 400g loaf (healthy extra b) with egg, or tuna mixed with fat free fromage frais and salad. My healthy extra a will be used on 375ml of skimmed milk. If I am hungry between i tend to snack of fruit, cooked meats, pickles, beatroot, cherry tomatoes, mullerlight yogurts etc.