THANKS everyone for the support.
My stomach was churning each time I thought about it, all day... but her response was not the angry, defensive one I'd expected. Thank goodness she said that she was concerned that I wasn't 100% happy, and she does want to put it right.
She DID admit that the physical activity element is supposed to be 45 minutes, not 35. Then she claimed to have arrived 10 minutes early, which she definitely did not, as when she knocked I was sitting at my computer (with my b/f) and I instantly looked at the PC's clock and said, "1259, that must be her - she's always bang on time."
Anyway, I have replied to her to say that she owes me 10 mins training. Also, that I don't want her to sit in judgment over my food diary. Like I said, I wanted tips on how to stick to a diet and ways of coping psychologically, not just to be told "You shouldn't be eating that". I've told myself that constantly for 30 years, and it's never worked. She did give me one or two "recipe tips", that is quite useful, but mostly just looked annoyed at me.
I was wondering if everyone experiences this kind of thing or is it just me? What I mean is, being cheated, getting poor service, being taken advantage of, getting a raw deal, not getting what you paid for, or being overcharged? I do sometimes wonder if it's me because it happens so often, in different circumstances. For example one time it was a hypnotherapist. I paid for 45 min sessions, but she was always with her previous client when I arrived so I had to wait and by the time we got started it was ten past, and yet she always terminated on time. Another time a roofer went up on my roof, just to give me an estimate, but when he returned he said he'd done some work and charged me £180. I could bore you with twenty other examples, but I won't ;-)
AND NOW THE GOOD NEWS
Yesterday I had a tin of pilchards on two Warburton toast. Total 300 calories. I deffo recommend this as a breakfast to anyone. Last AGES in the tummy, has loads of nutrients like protein, Omega 3 (or is it 6?) and wholegrains.
Then I did a solid hour aqua-zumba without once stopping for a breather. I felt fantastic... so full of energy. Sometimes it's hard to believe I am nearly 57 and weigh 332lbs. Then I struggled out of the pool and felt every single POUND of it as I waddled to the shower.
Taxi to my handsome young osteopath, who did quite a bit of manipulation of my legs to try to free a trapped nerve. I actually enjoyed the sensation of having my legs pulled and bent this way and that. I did NOT enjoy the bits where he pressed his huge, powerful thumbs into my soft, flabby flesh and I'm slightly ashamed to admit that I screamed like the big baby that I am! I loved that he was 100% honest with me without being judgmental or in any way sneering. He said "90% of the problem is caused by your weight." He said it in such a friendly, matter-of-fact way, as though he was telling an overly tall man that his back problems are "caused by his height". The other 10% is wear and tear.
From there instead of waiting at the bus stop right outside I just started walking, downhill then slightly uphill, just wandering wherever my fancy took me, for about 20 minutes. When I'd had enough I called a taxi. Got home about 3pm and tucked into a big bowl of home made mince bolognaise, on a bed or mixed veg and brown rice. It was made without fat so I guestimate it at 650 calories.
With the fishy breakfast and a couple of cups of tea I ended the day on about 1,000 calories.
I then fasted from 4pm right up until 10am today.
I'm currently toying with the idea of intermittent fasting, 16/8 and 5:2, to see which I can tolerate without any discomfort. I seem to have naturally fallen into the habit of not eating past 6pm and I can easily go till 9 or 10am. All of this is a way to reduce calories consumed, and reduce insulin levels, by keeping the "feeding window" small. It should also have an effect on cortisol and other hormones.
I was struck this morning by the idea of doing the Hastings Half Marathon, but in sections. I've already walked a mile twice with my PT, so that's 2 miles. If we do that another 11 times, I'll have walked 13 miles!
Came down and weighed naked, and found I'd dropped to 329. Very slow progress, so disappointing :-( But I will carry on regardless.
Just done my Tesco order for Tuesday. Have ordered 10 Covent Garden soups as they are currently half price. (They are freezable.) Am thinking of having pilchards for breakfast (300 calories), half a carton of CG soup (170) with 4oz chicken breast meat (120) fried in olive oil (100) and some veg thrown in (100) for lunch, and granola and live yoghurt and fruit (600) for dinner, and see how that goes. With milk in tea and lemon juice in fruit tea, that will bring it up to around 1800.
I hope everyone is having a good weekend. I only wish I had the time to visit everyone else's diaries and give some support. I do feel guilty about that, sorry :-(
xx
