A quest for the old happy Em

Sorry to hear about your friend being so unwell. Do hope that the results are more positive than you think.
As far as the weight gain is concerned I am sure you can make a difference before Sunday:) Unfortunatly, speaking as a fellow scale hopper, we open ourselves up to disappoinment when we jump on every day. Hope the scales are kinder to you tomorrow;)X
 
Thanks for the support. I'd been getting so much better at that too Jane, just doing one mid week weigh-in instead of every day. But yes, I still react badly to seeing them go up. Hopefully by Sunday they'll have gone down again. Don't want to have to make my new xmas target ticker go backwards!!
 
Loving your xmas ticker Jane :)

Scales this morning were back under 14 stone but still say I've put on a pound. I can live with that as I've not been 100% this week. I'm just really after keeping the 13 stone something on the screen!!

Forgot my lunch today!! :eek: Had my lunch bag all ready on the side and forgot to pick it up in my rush to get out the door. So the yoghurt won't be much good when I get home at 9pm but more importantly.....I have no yoghurt or satsumas for pudding. Luckily I have 2 alpen bars in my desk drawer and a mugshot for mid afternoon but it's Friday.....and I just know there won't be potato and beans in the canteen like the menu says there should be :mad:

So I'm either going to go very hungry for lunch and eat nothing or chance the tomato pasta. It's just pasta and a tomato sauce but I won't know what's in the sauce. I could have some fruit salad from the canteen and a 1/2 syn pot of jelly I have in my desk I suppose. I'll take the jelly down with me and make a decision when I see the pasta I think.
 
There was a potato left and beans - yay! Just as well as the usual pasta with a tin of tomatoes tipped on it which is laughingly called a 'bake' despite it never having seen an oven or any cheese, actually was a pasta bake today. Loads of melted cheese on top and veg in it too.....shame I had to pass it up! So I'm a happy monkey now full of potato and beany goodness to keep me going till gym time later.

The boyfriend is out with the guys from work tonight for an all you can eat chinese buffet (not jealous.....much!) so I'll be having chick pea dahl or something else syn free for tea by myself.

Our lunch time conversation at work today involved me bigging up the wonder of Frylight and questioning why anyone uses oils and fats to cook with. It fell on deaf ears, but they are all men who can eat what they like and not put weight on so I shouldn't have expected any different :)
 
Thanks Jane, it wasn't so bad in the end. I lost 0.2 of a pound so a STS really. I was over the moon about staying in the 13's even if my xmas countdown ticker didn't move.

It's proven that having over 10 syns for me is a no no given my slow metabolism. It only equates to about 100 calories difference but that's the difference between losing and gaining to my body it seems, which feels a bit unfair to say the least. I know it's the thyroid doing it and that I'm stuck like this for life so I have to live with it but that doesn't make me feel any less hard done by :(.

Up to now I've been having less than 10 every day, closer to 5 probably, but this week I just fell off the wagon and it crept up to 12-15 per day instead. So I was still 100% on plan but I clearly need to be very strict and restrict my diet further to keep losing. I already stick to the old SW way of 1 HEXA and 2 HEXB rather than 2 A's as I know even before my thyroid packed up that 2 A's made me put on weight.

My boyfriend offered me the fun size chocolate again last night (he wanted some really) and confessed he'd been hiding them in the conservatory to keep them chilled (more like frozen after last night!). I said I hadn't looked for them and hadn't even thought about them - which is true. I said he could have one but I wouldn't so neither of us did in the end. Well we are supposed to be saving our syns for curry Thursday :p
 
I think I should get my OH to hide the naughty food where I can't get to it!! He takes chocolate to work and it lives in the fridge (In the salad drawer of all places!!) which is a temptation I often give in to!!

Well done on the STS / loss! It is very unfair how different people lose weight at different rates but ultimately it is one of those things and we have to learn what works for us and get on with it. I also try to stick to less than 10 syns a day to keep losing. Thyroid problems suck by the sounds of things but there are plenty of worse conditions you could be living with.

I got some digital scales last weekend and they measure in tenths of a pound so I am now getting a little obsessed over each 0.1lb I lose or gain! On mechanical scales I could never really tell, the pound markers were hard enough to tell apart...
So I would definitely count 0.2lbs as a loss! :) :)
 
I guess your OH figures no-one will look in the salad drawer and steal it! I'd just need it out of reach on a high shelf I think :D

Our previous scales weighed to quarter of a pound which I used to panic and stress over, so when we got the new ones that do to a tenth of a pound it's even worse! But yes, 0.2 is nearly quarter of a pound so I should count it as a loss really. All better than a gain :)

I think the more you have to lose the more syns you can probably get away with. The more you lose, the less you can get away with. I remember a lady at target in the class I used to go to who found she really needed to restrict her sugary fruit intake like bananas or she started gaining again and they're super free foods, so limiting the syns makes sense. I'll try and get them down a bit and see if that helps for next weeks WI.
 
I doubt naturally skinny people stress over eating anything prawnchopsuey, just us slimmers!

Yesterday was looking sooooo back on track I was feeling very pleased with myself. Tea time and a syn free tea in front of me and no syns used all day.....then I spied the fresh bakery tiger rolls on the worktop (yes, he left things in full view on the side again!). I resisted making my choice to give in worse by adding margerine, but still ate the roll. Then I had some velvet crunch with it.

I'm holding JaneR fully responsible for that one :p Just kidding Jane. You might have put me on to them but I shouldn't eat them so readily. Not buying any more I've decided, I can't be trusted. They are so good - you weren't kidding Jane.

So I think yesterday was pretty much my full 15 syns again :( So stupid. I really am letting things slide this last week or so. Maybe it's because I've been dieting for what seems like forever and I'm getting bored and all the nice foods I can't have any more are becoming too tempting. Not the chocolate though, that craving does seem to be staying away for now - thankfully. Just the snacking I need to stop. This week was only my second STS and I don't want that to continue. 5 weeks and 5 pounds to go, really need to sort it out. But how!?
 
Sorry about the Velvet Crunch Emmylou!
I have stopped buying them for now as I can't be trusted. Hope the rest of your week goes well. x
 
In a random thoughtful moment from my boyfriend while he was at the shops yesterday, I came home to find a big bag of velvet crunch in the cupboard!! He said he'd bought them because he knew they weren't too naughty and I liked them.....I said he was quite right and thank-you very much but when you eat too many of them they become naughty so he'd have to hide them along with the fun size chocolates!

Yesterday was a nice low 4 syn day in the end. Today is probably going to be 8 syns in total as I gave into a tiny brownie bite at work that someone brought in and they are about 6 syns. So not too bad, keeping under the 10 syns at any rate.
 
Hi Emmylou, hope that you are OK as you don,t appear to have posted recently. Hope that the Velvet Crunch didn't 'take over'. X
 
Seems like it's been a while since I posted...amazing how feeling like you've fallen off the wagon makes you too scared to share that with people! I've been picking at bread, velvet crunch, special k bars and having about 15-20 syns a day :cry:

Thankfully I managed to stay the same weight this week. So my xmas ticker still isn't moving but new week, new start right!? Last week was super stressful as I took over a colleagues work at the last minute knowing nothing about it and involving visitors coming from London and me taking them round for 2 days. Loads of exercise though walking about, going up and down ladders, lifting heavy metal covers etc so that's possibly why I managed to stay the same weight. Much calmer week ahead so back to normal.

I've decided that if I still haven't got back into the SW way by next week then I'll look to rejoin a class. That was my feeling all along that I'd go back to a class when my weight loss slowed and I was losing my way.....which I clearly am. Best to nip it in the bud before I put any back on.

Having read on another thread about getting a countdown on the nhs I think I might well go to my GP and enquire about that as money is the main reason I don't go to class. As it's the nhs's fault I put so much weight on (took forever to get the right medication after I insisted I see a specialist) I should get some help to lose it really.
 
Yesterday was back on track, sort of. Well I had 14.5 syns and only one of my healthy B's so it was on plan but not as good as I'd hoped. I'm working from home again today so the temptation to dive into the cupboards is always there! Glad to get back to the office away from them....just as soon as I can move my head properly again of course. All the work I did Friday pulled something in my neck and I can't turn my head which isn't great for driving :(
 
Off to bed soon hoping a nights sleep won't mess my neck up any more as I really have to get back to the office tomorrow. The boyfriend seems to find my being at home annoying and reason to be moody with me as if I'm having a day off......when I'm clearly at my laptop all day working. Nevermind.

Today was still on track albeit a 12 syn day.....still staying under the 15 so that's a good start to getting back into it properly.

I did a whole load of measurements tonight too and compared them to 3 years ago when I first found I had the thyroid problem and was already tipping the scales at 14 stone 1lb. Oddly I'm now 13 stone 12.7lbs so lighter than 3 years ago....but all my measurements were half an inch to a full inch bigger now than back then!?

I think I had more muscle back then though as I'd been hitting the gym 4/5 days a week and dieting hard to try and shift some of the 4 stone I'd gained in the space of a couple years. This is what alerted me to the fact i must have something medically wrong with me to not be losing weight at all with all that effort! Not one pound lost for months of hard work.....gutted is an understatement. I lost all motivation for the religious gym going after that till I was 'fixed'. Unfortunately I still don't feel fixed but it's as good as it gets I think so have vowed to get back to the gym tomorrow after work and get my fitness levels back up.....and hopefully get that xmas ticker moving :D
 
Hope you are feeling better Emmylou:) Well done for staying within your syn allowance when you were home all day and suffering with your neck. X
 
My neck is still bad today but I'm back in the office. Had my usual jacket potato for lunch for the first time in a week so that was nice to have again - made me feel like I was back into SW in a familiar routine sort of way.

Not sure if gym is a good idea after work but I'm only thinking of 10 minutes on the cross trainer and 10 minutes on the treadmill (brisk walking on an incline, not running) so nothing that will jar or twist my neck. I'm so unfit that will be more than enough exercise for one day!!

 
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