Hey
I'll be fine, I turn into what is fondly referred to as "crazy lady" for about 5 days before Mother Nature time - That was to the end of last week. And I was being generally quiet online and in the real world because I tend to get defensive and argumentative etc etc etc... Wow, I'm such an ace person! But I have done well this month and kept out of trouble
The fella, it was his works night out, on friday, and he said he
should be ok for a lift but would let me know. Anyway, it got to 1am [bare in mind its an hours drive to the city for me] and I hadn't heard a thing. So I text to check if I was needed or should I go to bed, and heard nothing. Next I heard from him was when a postcard from Singapore turned up at teatime in the post yesterday, and I text to say
Thanks for the postcard! and he said
I wondered where that was
...
Not exactly the most affectionate he's been... lol. I had [wrongly] presumed we'd be having a quiet night in with the X Factor Final, since we've watched the whole lot together. But no, no invite to come round, then I got a text at 8ish to say his family wanted to watch Strictly so he was missing x factor. Then today, he was on MSN for a bit, not overly chatty [which is fine, Im used to him being quiet some times] and when he asked how I was I said I just wanted to curl up on the sofa with a box of chocs and watch a dvd, to which he said he had visitors after lunch so sorry his sofa would be occupied. I wasn't inviting myself over and I wouldn't have gone even if he asked anyway lol why should I drive over there when I feel crap??
So anyway, I feel completely unwanted and unloved haha and chances are I'm behaving completely OTT because of the hormones. I just kinda had it in my head that I was being the dutiful girlfriend by picking him up on friday, then we'd do something on the saturday like we do most weekends, have a nice evening in with the bloody x factor, and then go for our usual walk on Sunday... Instead, I aint hardly heard a peep from him. I don't get to see him a lot in the week, so if I was to not see him at the weekend, I wish I'd known a bit in advance!! But anyway... It's back to work tomorrow after a car service, hey ho..!
I went to town yesterday and got my hair all chopped, and I really like it. Bet he doesnt notice when I do see him though lol.
I also had a sneaky weighin on saturday morning, had lost 6 lbs, but then this morning had put it all back on... So god knows what tomorrow night has in store.
I think though, I am happy so long as I dont put anything ON. I have tried to stick to 22 points this week, and averaged probably 24, not counting pizza+curry wednesday... so if I maintain til new year and then worry about losing FAST FAST FAST!! haha
This friday coming up is my works night out - we have the xmas lunch, which there is no choice on the menu - Mushroom soup, turkey dinner, and I think sticky toffee pud for dessert. Highly festive.. then we have a VIP area booked in a bar in town, and I was going to be driving but I think the fella can pick me up now? Hmm. So damage limitation, I think I will be on porridge for breakfast, fruit, soup for lunch, and sensible teas the rest of the week to allow a bit of leeway. My drink on a night out is spicy rum and diet coke, so that's 1 pt a drink.
ANYWAY! Todays foods:
Breakfast: Bacon and mushrooms on toast - 4
Snacks: Cereal - 4, two digestives - 2, creamed rice stuff - 1.5
Lunch: Toasted teacake - 3.5
Think I might have some soup now, thats 1.5
Dinner: baked potato and 3 fish fingers
- 5.5
That's bang on
22.
Hurrah.
