Step 1 Sole Source + Banishing junk food and junk thoughts

Oh dear, slight hiccup.

After a truly dreadful day yesterday, I went into reckless self-destruct mode, drank wine and ate...possibly everything. Has anyone checked to see if there is any food left anywhere? :eek:

So today I was intending to be back on it with a vengeance, except I have totally lost my appetite with all the stress, and swallowing even water makes me feel like there's a lump in my throat and I'm going to choke. I've managed one shake so far, and don't feel like having anything else at all, but will make sure I have the others later.

Feeling a bit better mentally at least!
 
Ooh, 49 posts. What happens when you've made 50? Apologies for this pointless post; I just want to find out!
 
So I've been on SS+ for just over a week, and a few days ago got some really horribly bad news. I don't know what to do about the diet. Feeling in control of something would help, but a vlcd is pretty intense, and an extra pressure I can't deal with. I've struggled to stomach anything at all the last couple of days, so I doubt I've gained, but the only thing I've really had is toast, which obviously isn't CWP-friendly.

I think I'm going to have to give up and start again in a few weeks, and try to maintain the small loss. It sucks as I feel so motivated to do it, but this other thing has to come first.

Gahhh, I feel really defeated and crappy.
 
Auburn, Cambridge will still be here when you have dealt with your other matter - or if you still wanted some if the structure you could do step 3 or 4. You know the diet works but it is as much a mental battle as a physical one do you need to be strong enough for it xxxx
 
Thanks fraufrau, I've emailed my cdc to ask whether she thinks it would be better to stop, or move up a couple of steps and just aim to maintain for a few weeks. I'll see what she advises.
 
Fraufrau is so right hon, this will always be here for you to come back too and with cambridge you have to been in the right head space to do it. Take a step back (or a few steps up) and come back when you feel stronger..........some things are more important xxxxxx
 
Aww thank you. I had a chat with my cdc too and I'm going to try stepping up for a couple of weeks, and see how I feel. I'm not going to feel under pressure to lose weight while I'm so stressed about other things, but I also don't want to give up after a week and end up heavier than when I started.

I ordered an easy life. How do I get my money back? :)
 
Aww Auburn. Glad you have a plan. Sometimes having a bit of control over one area of our life helps deal with other uncontrollable parts. Good on you xx
 
Good evening. :)

Having pretty much decided to move up from SS+, I've now changed my mind. :eek: I realised that I have felt so stressed that I'm hardly eating anyway, so I may as well at least have the shakes so I'm getting the nutrition.

The past couple of days I've also had two voices in my head (that's normal, right? :) ), one saying "You don't need more pressure right now", and the other saying "Will being able to comfort-eat REALLY make things any easier, or will you just feel fat and sad?".

MY HEAD VOICES ARE SO MEAN!!!

Anyway, to get to the point, I'm sticking with SS+ for now. Oh, and I lost 3.5lbs, although that feels a bit like cheating because I couldn't eat anyway.
 
Bah, I tried really hard today, but was caught out by an unexpected pub lunch with a colleague.

I ordered a prawn salad with no dressing, thinking I could eat the lettuce, cucumber and prawns, and subtly leave the tomatoes, etc.

But they forgot about my 'no dressing' request, and being very British about these things, I couldn't bring myself to ask them to change it. :rolleyes:

I surreptitiously removed as much of the dressing as I possibly could, and I feel fairly sure that it won't have much of an effect, but I WANTED TODAY TO BE A 100% DAY!! Never mind, it has been other than that. Resisting things I shouldn't be eating seems to be getting easier, but I don't think I've had as much water as I should have had today. Something to work on tomorrow!

Oh, I also had to alter my favourite skirt because I couldn't keep it up. I am the WORST at sewing, and my mum would be horrified if she saw how I've done it, but it works, and I am not at the stage where I wear tops tucked in, so my frankly hilarious sewing will remain hidden, and can be our little secret. :flirt2:
 
Yay for having alter your skirt and like you say if your sewing is so bad at least it's hidden. Hopefully the dressing won't make a difference and you still lose this week.
 
Oh dear, this week is not going well, and I would really like to stomp about and mutter 'It's not my fault', but I won't!

Having claimed not to socialise, a former colleague and great friend invited a group of for lunch at her house. I thought it was going to be a buffet-type affair, but it turned out to be a sit-down meal. She had made the most delicious lasagne, and a tiramisu! Refusing to eat it would have been so rude after all her effort, and it was JUST.SO.GOOD!!

But yeah, not going to lose this week now. 100% so far today, and it's reassuring that with only one exception, I've only slipped when circumstances have meant it would have been very awkward not to.

Ohhh haha that sounds like a rubbish excuse. :eek: But I ALWAYS feel awkward and shy in social situations, so I really couldn't bear to draw attention to myself by not eating.
 
I *needed* a bit of retail therapy today after spending most of last night bursting into tears. I didn't buy much because I'm spending all my money on shakes and soups. :) I did meet a friend for lunch in town, but had a prawn salad again. This time when they brought it with dressing (again!!! :rolleyes: ) I was brave and sent it back. I ate the lettuce, cucumber and prawns, and left the rest. They didn't have Coke Zero so I had sparkling water, and left feeling very virtuous. :)

Discovered this afternoon that my tearfulness last night was hormone related. Hurray for not having eaten chocolate!

Having heard so much about the spicy tomato soup, I decided to give it a try this evening. OH MY GOODNESS, IT IS VILE!!!

The flavour isn't actually *too* bad, but the texture...shudder!

No matter how much you mix it, blend it or stir it, it has a layer of what I can only describe as 'foul-tasting dust' on the top. Why? Just Whyyyy?

I'm struggling to finish it, and feeling very glad that I only have one sachet of the stuff. If I miss it though, I'll lick the dust off the television screen, and it will be almost the same.
 
Hahaha I can't bear the spicy tomato either and I really did persevere.

I think I was hoping for the rich creaminess of Heinz soup and it was a HUGE disappointment! Favourite soup is the Veggie, but I'll be honest I'm not a fan of the soups, full stop! X
 
I'm not massively keen on the soups either, although they're good when you're really craving something savoury. The spicy oriental and mushroom ones are quite nice, and the rest (except the tomato) are bearable.

100% today, and now the pmt has passed, I'm feeling focussed again. I'm SO tired, but I think that's more to do with it being after midnight than it is the diet. My weigh in is tomorrow, and my scales are showing half a pound off, but they're never the same as the CDC's scales, so who knows! I can see that I have lost a bit of weight in the last 3 weeks, but drinking so much water makes my stomach full, which my brain translates as feeling heavier. Silly brain. :)

I know I don't 'deserve' a loss this week (as in, I know I haven't been 100% enough of the time), but my handy 'totm' excuse is at the ready. :D
 
Good luck for weigh in today! :cross: it maybe better than you think!!

oh and I hate the soups...not so much the taste but as you say it's the texture, bluergh!

Xx
 
*GULP*

It's the Weigh In Day of Doooooom!! :eek:

She's coming at about 8.30pm I think. Is it too late to remove a limb?
 
Aww Auburn it's not easy sticking at this at all. If we were all fantastic at saying no to nice things we wouldn't need Cambridge now would we?! Head up and be proud of yourself xx
 
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