Hi guys, i'm so ashamed of myself, really, i felt that bad that i didn't even want to come on here and admit i have been bad. Well after the fridge freezer broke everything kind of went up in the air. Friday night i had 3 (big measures) vodka, numerous packets of crisps, a few of those orange french fancies that are out just now for halloween and haribo mix. Saturday, dd wasn't very well and i was hung over. I ended up eating nothing in the morning then at lunchtime i had fattening noodles (2 packs of) and more crisps. Then i was having a little halloween night for the kids so took ds out trick or treating then when we got back had lots of party food, sausage rolls mini pizzas that sort of thing. Then when my mum came round at half 8 she took ds round to hers to stay the night. I ended up having another few vodkas to watch the xfactor and my brother was round (him and my oh don't drink)and we had lots of bad cakes and biscuits and crisps (yes more crisps). Anyway sunday morning came and i was a little hung over, my little girl just looked terrible, she wouldn't let go of me she was so clingy, then she wouldn't let anyone touch her and she kept saying 'mummy sore'. So we had to take her to the emergency drs. Turns out she has a throat infection. I just felt terrible all day and having to look after dd was hard work too, she wouldn't let me out of her sight. Dinner time came and i planned a sunday roast with all my family so didn't want to let them down, it was going to be sw friendly but ended up with mashed potatoes with butter and whole milk, gravy made from meat juices and ended in home made apple crumble with custard.#
I feel so gutted that i haven't been able to stick to plan. So today i have been 100%, even though i don't feel like it, i'm just so tired. I need to get back on track, however i'm expecting another gain on weds.
I can't help but think things have went down hill since i was given the xenical, instead of made them better. I was plodding along on sw losing a pound a week and sticking to plan well, then i started xenical and started calorie counting, this led me to feeling not satisfied anymore and made me binge eat again, then gave me the tast for bad foods again, plus i was living on ready meals.
Need to be 100% now and get on with it, i'm hoping to lose a good few lbs for xmas.
Sorry for the long rant but needed to type things out to get them off my chest.
Hope everyone is well and having a good day xx
Brekkie: Morrisons sausages and scrambled egg (all free)
Lunch: 3 pagen rolls with cheese and ham (b and a)
2 meringue nests crushed into total with sweetner and grapes (5 syns)
Dinner: Not sure yet