Hahaha...well my roast was too luscious to miss=-) But the BNS sounds gorgeous....might have to have a look at that sometime. These days all I have to do is hand my OH the recipe and poof he cooks it. It's like being rich and having your own chef! *LOL*
Well today is christmas tree day. I also put it up on the 1st of dec. As that is when the advent calendar starts. So I am looking forward to it. This is the first year where LU really understands what is going on. He was 2 1/2 last year and understood about presents and a tree but really didn't know what was going on. And this year, he does. He knows (for us) christmas is about sharing and spending time with the family. "getting presents" and being grateful for all that you have. Which is good enough for me.
Well I heard news about the funeral. Apparently all was well, and my cousin took things very well. I guess when you have a child that is that is even before birth and knowing the circumstances you have the chance to settle in yourself the reality of the situation and that everyday is precious as he could go at any moment. So the family were prepared. My mom said it was a celebration of his life. She dressed him in a little cow boys outfit with boots and all. Being from texas that is the thing to do. My mom said he looked like an angel and that he still had loads of colour as though he were only sleeping. Neither of us saw him or had any relationship with him, and my being over here it is hard to be part of the situation. But I am certainly , as a mother myself, empathetic to her situation. As was my mother. She she he looked similar to my son and that was what made her breakdown. I am sure it does hurt her, my being over here. I have 2 brothers, but one is estranged, and the other has no kids of his own. So there is only me. And I have here. I mean she has 6 other step grandkids who she loves very much, but your own makes a big difference. She always dotes over the LU when I am home. And it freaks me out, as I can't imagine her ever being like that when I was little. Don't get me wrong. My mom is lovely, sweet, kind, thoughtful at times person. But, i would never describe her as warm. She is indeed quite cold, abrupt, and someone emotionless. Which is what I find hard. But to my son, you would never know it though. She is like someone else when my son is around. But I do love it. The first time I took him to the US when he was 1, he struggled to settle the first night, because of the changes in evenything. But she did it. She picked him up in the dark and just cuddled and rocked him, and in he stopped screaming almost immediately, and was asleep in 10 minutes. Where I had already been trying for an hour. It is amazing. Anyway, sorry.
Point it...the funeral went well and he got the send off he deserved. The family were all there, and celebrating the 1 year he had. he was 53 weeks ok. just past he 1st birthday. I am not religious, but I know he is in a better state now, no more pain, and no tubes, no more meds...and that is a good thing.
Anyway on the upside....today should be good. We are going to sort the tree out....maybe go out to lunch with LU and just spend some time together, once I sort out all the crap I need to do. So hope you all have a nice day.=-)
