guys im goin homeeeeeee! yay. speak to yas later on xxxxxxxxx
I don't mind working for someone else, i am rather lazy lol. I just wanna go in, do my work, get my money and go lol. I am still shocked i wanna do Medicine still. I usually change my mind to what i wanna be when i grow up every month. But i have been hell bent on this one since last year lol.
Even with 12+ hour shifts, not the best pay, horrible working conditions, i still wanna do it. Its not like you are ever going to be stuck to the same thing every day lol. Besides, i wanna go live in another country as i know, and medicine is needed everywhere lol.
I had a friend who was doing Forensic Science but she dropped out after finding out there is only 5 foresenic jobs each year lol.
I also have a friend who is doing Archeology, as she is hell bent on being a forensic Archeologist, she is really freaky i know! lol She wants to dig up dead folks!
my inner group of friends are soooo different. You have me doing Deaf Studies, Nat doing the Archeology and my other friend doing Sports Science! lol No idea how we found each other at uni lol
well i check calories where i can but im just eating less and better. like today i had the tiniest amount of cereal you can imagine, the kellogs version of shreddies cos i figure the fibre should help me. ive had almost 2 glasses of water since and for lunch ive got a homemade tuna and onion sandwich on brown bread with a bit of dairy free spread, a few prunes, an apple and some cucumber. last night though my carbs thing went out the window as my mum made risotto but i was starving when i went home so just ate it and shut up. had a smaller bowl than everyone else though... but still, tonight i refuse to eat carbs after 6 just like i said, so tough luck mum, whatever you're cooking tonight haha. guaranteed its pasta now hehehe xxx
Lol i am the other way, give me a huge empty room silent room and i am happy lol. But yea, she got the severe one, only left the house. 4 times that i can remember. 2 funerals, 1 doctors visit and 1 wedding.
She didn't even come to the hospital when i was hit by a car (only broke my ankle) Or when my sister was run over.
And me and my sister just have major conflicting personalites lol. I am laid back and friendly, she is very high strung and has more aggression than any woman i have seen. Only common ground we ever usually share is our mum. We don't hate her or anything. But we are really, really tired of her now.
Something has happened in the last couple of months (my sister has suffered it more because i only came home recently) But my mother has stopped doing EVERYTHING. All she does is lay on the couch, and thats it. She won't get up to get her own food/drink. Every morning i go down and have to open the curtains, she wont even do that.
Can't really explain just how i feel most of the time. Mixture of digust, anger, fury, pity. Most of the time i just contemplate not commin back home after september. Makes me a horrible person i know lol, but i have just had enough, then i realise its my mum, she cleaned my shitty nappy when i was a baby, and shes ill. Now its my turn to look after her, no matter how hard it is lol.
Ok... i have no idea why i just told you all something i have never told anyone before... Talk about a downer. Feel free to ignore the post and continue to be happy! lol