'BIG' .......Bring on the summer :D

[judith55]

WI day- 2 lbs off:clap:

I'm really really really happy with that, cos I was only back exercising this morning after 5 days off.

Mostly I'm happy about my eating. Right now food is not controlling me, yes I had a few sweets and a taxi bar last night, but i was in control. I know I had a little more than i should have because when I'm not exercising it seems that my brain doesn't register food in the same way, but after 5 days off I was able to get straight back into it, rather than getting into my old habit of taking 3 days off and forgetting to go back for 3 weeks!

I';m heading to visit a friend who is working on an island this week, I am there from this evenign to thursday, so I know it'll be tough. I'm having porridge for breakfast and then just fruit to allow for the big dinner and wine we'll be having tonight and hopefully I'll get at least one walk in out there.
Judith, thanks for the advice on slimfast, but I think I'd eat someone's arm off- if it doesn't involve solids I don't class it as food. I have such respect for ppl who do those kind of diets.

Nee, how are you feeling today?

oh boxer boy sent a text last night, which I appreciated- shows respect i think.

Hey Kellie, well done on the loss. Understand completely on the Slimfast thingy. I am amazed that they make me feel full for quite some time and they are convenient. In some ways I think they don't trigger my urge for food the same way just because they aren't solid so they defo reduce my binging.

Good luck on the island - sounds very exotic - and sounds like you've got a good plan. Try to enjoy next few days and not keep checking your phone for more texts - if you do it might be a sign that the friendship malarky might be too stressful. Have a lovely weekend. x

 

[kellierocks]

misremembered is a great word judith- AHHHH u must be so annoyed. But listen its a loss, a step in the right direction.

Love the photo idea. I can feel clothes geting looser and have had one or 2 comments (hate ppl noticing I've lost cos that means they;re noticing when i gain...)
BUT i am kind of cheating - found these nifty vests in Penneys (ur Primark) that pull in my waist. They're not as restrictive as spanx and fit really well, so that is the main reason I'm looking better in jeans with less muffin top!!
I know its like cheating but i don't care!!

Went to this life coaching thing last night- it was a fundraiser for my marathon. HAd to talk to my manager (as in we were both there- she's nice). She spoke about her weight and how much it bothers her- she hurt her knee and a lot crept back on cos she couldnt exercise. Now the knee is getting worse cos of the weight. It motivated me. We are alike in many ways, and it is much better for me to lose this weight now than when my joints play up.
motivation!

 

[judith55]

Happy Wednesday peeps.

Yesterday was ok but I'm beginning to think that there are more calories slipping into my day than I think as my weight loss is so slow. Technically I should be hitting 2lb a week easily but I'm averaging just 1lb. I think the milk in tea/coffee, the odd bite of cheese when I'm cooking and some of the "free" fruit/veg might count more than I think. I used to make the WW free soup which I noticed the other day has a calorie count of 50 per portion. I think I know in my head that veg can't have no calories and that fruit can be quite high but I fell into the trap of thinking if its good for you it shouldn't count (bit like olive oil). But tbh given the choice of 100 cals for a banana and 110 for a curly wurly which do you think I'd choose???!!? So the moral of this story is: stick to chocolate

Spring is busting out all over. Hope you're all having a great day. xx

 

[Hanz]

Hey all, hope everyone has been having a good couple of weeks..have been very all over the place and not on my laptop very much
Spent most of last week not doing much at all.. somehow ended up injuring my back last sunday which meant a week odd of pain, little sleep and painkillers! Killed my usual routine and food went a bit awry.. was a pretty miserable week in all but weighed in yesterday for a 3 pound loss so at least that cheered me up!
Now Im feeling much better and looking foward to this week, 1/2 pound to go till my 2 and a stone award so thats good.

 

[judith55]

Hey all, hope everyone has been having a good couple of weeks..have been very all over the place and not on my laptop very much
Spent most of last week not doing much at all.. somehow ended up injuring my back last sunday which meant a week odd of pain, little sleep and painkillers! Killed my usual routine and food went a bit awry.. was a pretty miserable week in all but weighed in yesterday for a 3 pound loss so at least that cheered me up!
Now Im feeling much better and looking foward to this week, 1/2 pound to go till my 2 and a stone award so thats good.

Hi hanz and welcome back - thanks for the message too. Sorry to see that you've been poorly. I've been dogged with back and neck pain and i posted somewhere else that I wonder if our bodies are just responding to the change in the status quo that our weight loss causes. Let's hope its just a temporary thing. Well done on the loss as well - brilliant!

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Yesterday was okay for me, nothing special to report. Managed to pick up a few cheap Slimfast from Lloyds Pharmacy (not bank obv) but they didn't have many left, but a BOGOF is a huuuuuge saving so may try a couple of others that are within a couple of miles (benefit of living in a city).

Have a thundering good Thursday all you lovely people. xx

 

[judith55]

Happy POETS day peeps (p*ss off early tomorrow's Saturday),

Just a quick post before I head off for the weekend. Was pretty good yesterday and stuck to plan so feel I'm prepared to stick to my eating/drinking plan for weekend (BMR for maintenance and not attempt to actually lose). Got 3 Slimfast packed in my bag to help me out but the hotel has breakfast included so will try to be good (-ish).

Been out with doglet and decided to walk/bus to station as well rather than taxi cos I shouldn't be such a lazy sod.

Hope you all have a great weekend. xx

 

[kellierocks]

Welcome back Hanz. the back injury sounds painful- and yet you still managed to lose weight- Jealousy is dripping off me.

Ok guy i need to 'fess up- it has been 3 days of over over over eating, i feel bloated and fat. I even had 3 starters adn half a main course from the chinese tonight, zilch exercise. I calved in front of sex and teh city all day yesterday and today. Sickening myself.

So I have gone for a long bath, rubbed in moisturisee all over (nothing like that for you to learn a bit of respect for your body) and tomorrow I will be in teh gym for 2 hours frm 9 am.

Please hold me accountable to this!!!

 

[x Nee x]

Nee, I feel for you. Maybe this is a plateau stage where ur body is just getting used to the weight loss and gearing up to lose more? Do not lose heart. You are doing so much, I can't believe you have sts for 2 weeks.

Me too hun, just makes it so much harder having stayed the same xx

WI day- 2 lbs off:clap:

I'm really really really happy with that, cos I was only back exercising this morning after 5 days off.

Mostly I'm happy about my eating. Right now food is not controlling me, yes I had a few sweets and a taxi bar last night, but i was in control. I know I had a little more than i should have because when I'm not exercising it seems that my brain doesn't register food in the same way, but after 5 days off I was able to get straight back into it, rather than getting into my old habit of taking 3 days off and forgetting to go back for 3 weeks!

I';m heading to visit a friend who is working on an island this week, I am there from this evenign to thursday, so I know it'll be tough. I'm having porridge for breakfast and then just fruit to allow for the big dinner and wine we'll be having tonight and hopefully I'll get at least one walk in out there.
Judith, thanks for the advice on slimfast, but I think I'd eat someone's arm off- if it doesn't involve solids I don't class it as food. I have such respect for ppl who do those kind of diets.

Nee, how are you feeling today?

oh boxer boy sent a text last night, which I appreciated- shows respect i think.

Hey hun, Well done on the 2lbs thats great and so glad you got back into the swings of things.... you will see my ramblings below

Good morning - where's everyone gone??

Today is my WI and I'm a bit non-plussed. All week I had been thinking that 207lbs was a 3lb loss and it had held steady since about Saturday so I was disappointed to see that I had misremembered and last 2 weeks I have been 209lbs. Damnit to bugg*ry. Good to have lost but its over 2 weeks so not great as I'd hoped to be half-way to my May target.

When I started this diet I had my poor TT take a couple of pictures of me in my bra and knickers (it'll cost me a fortune in therapy poor lamb). One of them I photoshopped to slim down my belly, my chin and my thighs. I pinned them up side by side next to my full length mirror on my wardrobe so they can taunt me each day. Looking at them I can see that I have definately lost some weight - yippee! Don't think its enough for people to notice or to change my overall shape but it's a start.

So how's it going for all you other WeMITTs - come on, get posting.

xx

Im still here xx

Happy Wednesday peeps.

Yesterday was ok but I'm beginning to think that there are more calories slipping into my day than I think as my weight loss is so slow. Technically I should be hitting 2lb a week easily but I'm averaging just 1lb. I think the milk in tea/coffee, the odd bite of cheese when I'm cooking and some of the "free" fruit/veg might count more than I think. I used to make the WW free soup which I noticed the other day has a calorie count of 50 per portion. I think I know in my head that veg can't have no calories and that fruit can be quite high but I fell into the trap of thinking if its good for you it shouldn't count (bit like olive oil). But tbh given the choice of 100 cals for a banana and 110 for a curly wurly which do you think I'd choose???!!? So the moral of this story is: stick to chocolate

Spring is busting out all over. Hope you're all having a great day. xx

I know exactly what you mean, suddenly these things just re-appear into the diet and you dont even notice!!

Hey all, hope everyone has been having a good couple of weeks..have been very all over the place and not on my laptop very much
Spent most of last week not doing much at all.. somehow ended up injuring my back last sunday which meant a week odd of pain, little sleep and painkillers! Killed my usual routine and food went a bit awry.. was a pretty miserable week in all but weighed in yesterday for a 3 pound loss so at least that cheered me up!
Now Im feeling much better and looking foward to this week, 1/2 pound to go till my 2 and a stone award so thats good.

Well done on the 3lbs, bet thats a nice feeling after having such a rubbish week. Hope your back is abit better too x

Happy POETS day peeps (p*ss off early tomorrow's Saturday),

Just a quick post before I head off for the weekend. Was pretty good yesterday and stuck to plan so feel I'm prepared to stick to my eating/drinking plan for weekend (BMR for maintenance and not attempt to actually lose). Got 3 Slimfast packed in my bag to help me out but the hotel has breakfast included so will try to be good (-ish).

Been out with doglet and decided to walk/bus to station as well rather than taxi cos I shouldn't be such a lazy sod.

Hope you all have a great weekend. xx

Good on you for having a good day and im sure you'll tackle the weekend with no probs

Welcome back Hanz. the back injury sounds painful- and yet you still managed to lose weight- Jealousy is dripping off me.

Ok guy i need to 'fess up- it has been 3 days of over over over eating, i feel bloated and fat. I even had 3 starters adn half a main course from the chinese tonight, zilch exercise. I calved in front of sex and teh city all day yesterday and today. Sickening myself.

So I have gone for a long bath, rubbed in moisturisee all over (nothing like that for you to learn a bit of respect for your body) and tomorrow I will be in teh gym for 2 hours frm 9 am.

Please hold me accountable to this!!!

Hey you.... You going Gym hee hee ?? xxx

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Morning all,

I am plonk of all plonks ha!

After staying the same, I was determined to shift some lbs this week, started really well, even with doing a show this week so long days ... tuesday, I thought ..'one takeaway wont hurt' and although was yummy it wasnt worth it, so wednesday was really good again....Thursday, doom day I turned 29yrs old hee hee was again good all day, didnt even want or have a birthday cake due to having the takeaway on tuesday... came home earlier (7pm) and for some reason felt abit miserable so the OH suggested we have a treat and get another takeaway, diet mind slipped and my naughty head kicked in and again had another one .... then yesterday I made sure I took loads of fruit and nothing else...maybe it wasnt enough to keep me in control but got to 6pm and everyone was ordering a takeaway so how could I refuse so this week has resulted in 3 STUPID takeaways, I feel utterly miserable from it, fat, and stupid stupid stupid...

I am determined to make today and tomorrow good days and PRAY I dont gain on Monday, have my sister and mum coming down for the day and hope I dont get tempted by anything!!

Sorry to whinge just really disappointed in myself... hope everyone has a fab weekend

xxx

 

[kellierocks]

After staying the same, I was determined to shift some lbs this week, started really well, even with doing a show this week so long days ... tuesday, I thought ..'one takeaway wont hurt' and although was yummy it wasnt worth it, so wednesday was really good again....Thursday, doom day I turned 29yrs old hee hee was again good all day, didnt even want or have a birthday cake due to having the takeaway on tuesday... came home earlier (7pm) and for some reason felt abit miserable so the OH suggested we have a treat and get another takeaway, diet mind slipped and my naughty head kicked in and again had another one .... then yesterday I made sure I took loads of fruit and nothing else...maybe it wasnt enough to keep me in control but got to 6pm and everyone was ordering a takeaway so how could I refuse so this week has resulted in 3 STUPID takeaways, I feel utterly miserable from it, fat, and stupid stupid stupid...

I am determined to make today and tomorrow good days and PRAY I dont gain on Monday, have my sister and mum coming down for the day and hope I dont get tempted by anything!!

Sorry to whinge just really disappointed in myself... hope everyone has a fab weekend

xxx

Ah Nee, I'm so in the same boat as you. Ok misus, get back into it. Can you ask ur mum and sis for help over the weekend? Try to increase activity rather than drastically cutting back on the food.

Thank you for asking- i went to the gym! and just had porridge for breakfast so hoping this is my ass kicked in teh right direction again!

 

[x Nee x]

Ah Nee, I'm so in the same boat as you. Ok misus, get back into it. Can you ask ur mum and sis for help over the weekend? Try to increase activity rather than drastically cutting back on the food.

Thank you for asking- i went to the gym! and just had porridge for breakfast so hoping this is my ass kicked in teh right direction again!

ummm It didnt work.... Had a really nice day and actually ate well but then got home and had pizza!! so made a decision to not feel bad and take the consequences of my bad bad bad week and didnt eat great yesterday either OOPS

So even though Im not proud I still weighed this morning, and not suprised to see a 4lb gain :cry:

Im not going to let it bother me, Im back on it today and I will lose next week, without a doubt. Have ordered my food shopping so I have lots of healthy stuff on its way which Im hoping will help.

So fingers crossed for next Monday

 

[judith55]

Ok guy i need to 'fess up- it has been 3 days of over over over eating, i feel bloated and fat. I even had 3 starters adn half a main course from the chinese tonight, zilch exercise. I calved in front of sex and teh city all day yesterday and today. Sickening myself.

So I have gone for a long bath, rubbed in moisturisee all over (nothing like that for you to learn a bit of respect for your body) and tomorrow I will be in teh gym for 2 hours frm 9 am.

Please hold me accountable to this!!!

What the hell - we all have bad days when we just can't seem to get back on track. Just try to do "damage limitation" until your resolve comes back - because you know that it will come back because you really mean it this time.

I am plonk of all plonks ha!

After staying the same, I was determined to shift some lbs this week, started really well, even with doing a show this week so long days ... tuesday, I thought ..'one takeaway wont hurt' and although was yummy it wasnt worth it, so wednesday was really good again....Thursday, doom day I turned 29yrs old hee hee was again good all day, didnt even want or have a birthday cake due to having the takeaway on tuesday... came home earlier (7pm) and for some reason felt abit miserable so the OH suggested we have a treat and get another takeaway, diet mind slipped and my naughty head kicked in and again had another one .... then yesterday I made sure I took loads of fruit and nothing else...maybe it wasnt enough to keep me in control but got to 6pm and everyone was ordering a takeaway so how could I refuse so this week has resulted in 3 STUPID takeaways, I feel utterly miserable from it, fat, and stupid stupid stupid...

I am determined to make today and tomorrow good days and PRAY I dont gain on Monday, have my sister and mum coming down for the day and hope I dont get tempted by anything!!

Sorry to whinge just really disappointed in myself... hope everyone has a fab weekend

xxx

Nee, you don't know how reassuring it is to know that I'm not the only one who has bad days/weekends/weeks/months. After a session like you've described I search my soul for a reason but I have no idea why I do it - do you have any self awareness/insight that you can share? I've read all this stuff about feeling an emptiness inside that you try to fill with food but this doesn't resonate with me especially. I know I do love food and if I had no weight/££ issues I would probably always eat out/takeaways and eat loads. For me the satisfaction of being thin doesn't seem to be as big as the satisfaction I get from eating.

Thank you for asking- i went to the gym! and just had porridge for breakfast so hoping this is my ass kicked in teh right direction again!

Good for you Kellie - keep it up. xx

ummm It didnt work.... Had a really nice day and actually ate well but then got home and had pizza!! so made a decision to not feel bad and take the consequences of my bad bad bad week and didnt eat great yesterday either OOPS

So even though Im not proud I still weighed this morning, and not suprised to see a 4lb gain :cry:

Im not going to let it bother me, Im back on it today and I will lose next week, without a doubt. Have ordered my food shopping so I have lots of healthy stuff on its way which Im hoping will help.

So fingers crossed for next Monday

Pizza is the food of the gods and should be available on prescription only. It is the one thing that I feel there is no real substitute for - I make my own curries, chinese, burgers in which I can control the cals but pizza is my fave and I have no "off button" when I'm eating it. I used to tell myself that it was the "healthiest" of the take aways as an excuse. :8855:

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Well weekend away was actually about how I planned in that I was fairly good about the eating and overindulged in the alcohol. Friday was about 1200 cals in food having had the 2 Slimfasts I planned, but then I drank about 5 pints of lager over 7 hours.

Saturday morning I had the hotel breakfast but didn't get too carried away and it took me through to supper apart from a coffee and 3x posh chocs like Thorntons from an amazing Chocolate Hotel shop in Leeds. Supper at the casino was cold chips with the worst pizza I have ever had but bizarrely I still ate it covered in sweet chilli sauce to make it edible. I can only explain that its because the break from the poker tournament isn't long enough to go out, find a restaurant and eat. But I was very cross at the waste of cals. Again, about 5 pints of lager over 10 hours. Sunday was very good with hotel breakfast, Slimfast for lunch, WW curry for supper with couple of snacks during the horrible 5 hr journey home. So this morning is not my WI (tues) but scales say I've put on a pound which I don't think is too horrendous. I think its unrealistic of me to expect a loss after a weekend like this but to STS would be good.

Have a great day everyone, xxx

 

[kellierocks]

Judith- well done, it does seem that you stayed in control and 1 lb today will prob disappear by tomorrow on your usual routine.

Do I overeat cos I feel empty- no cos I'm bored and usually somewhere different. Like you, I love food!!

 

[Karmacoma]

Hi Guys
I'm still here... this past 2 weeks have been pretty hectic and after work I have been running about like a headless chicken going to the hospital to see my dad and when I wasn't there, I was doing photo shoots [I'm the photographer, NOT the model!] so hardly had any time to come online!

I've stayed the same this last 2 weeks, I'm happy with that so I'm still at 266 lbs!

I've not been bad with my food, just not eating enough fruit and veg and normally at work I drink my way through 2 litres of water but been opting for ice cold fizzy juices... Anyway, back on plan 100% today and no photoshoots this week so time to relax at home!

 

[kellierocks]

Hi Guys
I'm still here... this past 2 weeks have been pretty hectic and after work I have been running about like a headless chicken going to the hospital to see my dad and when I wasn't there, I was doing photo shoots [I'm the photographer, NOT the model!] so hardly had any time to come online!



I've stayed the same this last 2 weeks, I'm happy with that so I'm still at 266 lbs!

I've not been bad with my food, just not eating enough fruit and veg and normally at work I drink my way through 2 litres of water but been opting for ice cold fizzy juices... Anyway, back on plan 100% today and no photoshoots this week so time to relax at home!

Hi Karma, well done on keeping going! It sounds like you have been flat out, so managing to STS is amazing to me! take this week to spend more time on yourself. How is ur dad?

 

[kellierocks]

ummm It didnt work.... Had a really nice day and actually ate well but then got home and had pizza!! so made a decision to not feel bad and take the consequences of my bad bad bad week and didnt eat great yesterday either OOPS

So even though Im not proud I still weighed this morning, and not suprised to see a 4lb gain :cry:

Im not going to let it bother me, Im back on it today and I will lose next week, without a doubt. Have ordered my food shopping so I have lots of healthy stuff on its way which Im hoping will help.

So fingers crossed for next Monday

Nee
Like the attitude, my sister is my coach in this, and she doesnt mind 4 lbs on- she says she does it all the time, but she kicks my ass if it stays there for a week!

Yeah, sometimes we gotta we gotta enjoy life and the food that goes with it. Good luck this week, I bet you will have that weight off and more by next monday

 

[x Nee x]

Judith- well done, it does seem that you stayed in control and 1 lb today will prob disappear by tomorrow on your usual routine.

Do I overeat cos I feel empty- no cos I'm bored and usually somewhere different. Like you, I love food!!

I agree, Wekk done Judith xx

Also I have been thinking alot recently why I get the urge, I think its definately like a comfort thing, and also the feeling of rebel against what I should be doing and then I dont know when to stop. I have also noticed that I have to clear my plate.... doesnt matter how much is on it or how little or even if I like it or not, every last bit goes, and then I always say to my OH comments about him not eating all his as if its bad hmmmmm interesting!!

Hi Guys
I'm still here... this past 2 weeks have been pretty hectic and after work I have been running about like a headless chicken going to the hospital to see my dad and when I wasn't there, I was doing photo shoots [I'm the photographer, NOT the model!] so hardly had any time to come online!

I've stayed the same this last 2 weeks, I'm happy with that so I'm still at 266 lbs!

I've not been bad with my food, just not eating enough fruit and veg and normally at work I drink my way through 2 litres of water but been opting for ice cold fizzy juices... Anyway, back on plan 100% today and no photoshoots this week so time to relax at home!

well done for STS with everything you have going on thats fab, good luck this week xx

Nee
Like the attitude, my sister is my coach in this, and she doesnt mind 4 lbs on- she says she does it all the time, but she kicks my ass if it stays there for a week!

Yeah, sometimes we gotta we gotta enjoy life and the food that goes with it. Good luck this week, I bet you will have that weight off and more by next monday

I agree, have to enjoy life but then there has to be a limit, last week there was no stopping me and I need to learn from it

xx

 

[Wasted Ink]

I've had a few off weeks. Two weeks ago I gained a 1lb and only just got it off last week. I assumed I would lose more and the initial gain was water weight, but apparently not. I am annoyed that I spent seven hours exercising last week, only to get back to what I was.

So far so good this week. I'm back on calorie counting for a while and it's going well. I've decided to mix up my exercise routine and get even MORE activity in.

I walked for 1 1/2 hours this morning.

 

[kellierocks]

STS !!
I am so happy, I thought i had 4 lbs on (well the scales said yesterday i had) SO i am very confused, but glad to have staes the same after so soso much food all last week!

Here's hoping -2lbs next week!

 

[Hanz]

Also I have been thinking alot recently why I get the urge, I think its definately like a comfort thing, and also the feeling of rebel against what I should be doing and then I dont know when to stop. I have also noticed that I have to clear my plate.... doesnt matter how much is on it or how little or even if I like it or not, every last bit goes, and then I always say to my OH comments about him not eating all his as if its bad hmmmmm interesting!
xx

Im exactly the same.. I have always had to clear a plate! I used to just eat really fast and clear it and then end up feeling uncomfortably full.. Im actually starting to slow down eating and find I actually leave things nowadays, theres still that urge to eat when im full when im tempted but Im getting better at stopping ot at least wait and then if im still hungry I can have something else. Ive always wondered if it went back to school days when the dinnerladies would always make us clear are plates.. if you didnt it was a bad thing.
Good luck with this week Nee, I think its good after a setback to just get back on trackandnot dwell, im sure you will rock it this week

Had a pretty good week, althou a little worried Ive gone to far inthe other direction as have been experiencing a bit of lightheaded-ness.. im not eating any different than usual so im not sure what that is. Lost 3 1/2 tonight so very thrilled, Finally in the 16 stone bracket..I havent been there for so long I kind of want to cry of happiness!
Everything has kind of hit me this week -im finally starting to notice I look so much better and went clothes shopping and everything fit so much nicer..it wasa good feeling.

 

[kellierocks]

Im exactly the same.. I have always had to clear a plate! I used to just eat really fast and clear it and then end up feeling uncomfortably full.. Im actually starting to slow down eating and find I actually leave things nowadays, theres still that urge to eat when im full when im tempted but Im getting better at stopping ot at least wait and then if im still hungry I can have something else. Ive always wondered if it went back to school days when the dinnerladies would always make us clear are plates.. if you didnt it was a bad thing.
Good luck with this week Nee, I think its good after a setback to just get back on trackandnot dwell, im sure you will rock it this week

Had a pretty good week, althou a little worried Ive gone to far inthe other direction as have been experiencing a bit of lightheaded-ness.. im not eating any different than usual so im not sure what that is. Lost 3 1/2 tonight so very thrilled, Finally in the 16 stone bracket..I havent been there for so long I kind of want to cry of happiness!
Everything has kind of hit me this week -im finally starting to notice I look so much better and went clothes shopping and everything fit so much nicer..it wasa good feeling.

I think I'm crying for you. Well done. Its not about losing weight alone, you are making your goals come true and I am really proud of you- your weight loss has been truly amazing! You are already very beautiful ( I would kill for your skin!) and the weight loss will make you more confident and energetic to achieve anything you put your mind to.

Mind the light headedness. Maybe get your iron and blood pressure checked to be on the safe side?

Nee- the rebel thing sticks with me- I totally do that- its like the devil in me says "you say I cannot have this" or " you say I should go to teh gym, well then I';ll show you " and he uses my body to fatten up on teh couch!!

I'm feeling really emotional today, up adn down, good and bad.

I'm trying to work out where I'm going. Still lost, but tonight I think I;m happy being lost.