lookingforme
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RawrGirl is a scale addict. She would visit demon scale everyday even though her official weigh-in was Friday mornings.
THIS has to be the worst habit i ever picked up and im almost out of it this first week, fingers crossed i will reap the rewards of not wieghing, im certainly more conciouse of what im eating as when i wieghed daily i thought well im only that much in wieght can have that freddo.
So Monday mornings to me can be like christmas morning if I can hold back long enough.
Thats what ive been missing so much the excitement the not knowing and life has been quiet dab without it lol
RawrGirl wants to be thin/fit so that...
she looks good in photos
she's confident in bed with Prince Charming
she enjoys clothes shopping for the first time in her life
she loves attending socials with friends and feels great in her outfit
she feels and looks feminine and graceful
she can enjoy watching movies without feeling self-conscious of skinny actresses
she can buy/wear stunning dresses and outfits
she feels confident and beautiful
she can enjoy the summer without hiding in pants
she can enjoy pool parties and going to the beach
she feels beautiful, elegant, and graceful when figure skating, esp performing a routine
What RawrGirl hates most about being chunky:
The way she looks in pictures
Feeling shame while watching movies
Hiding under the sheets or in the dark
Cringing when she discovers she's been tagged in a photo
Avoiding socials because she either looked like a blimp in loose fitting clothes or a squashed sausage in fitted clothes
Feeling awkward and clumsy
Feeling self-conscious and full of shame
Avoiding malls, dressing rooms, shopping, and mirrors in general
Avoiding any situation that puts her in a bathing suit
Passing a mirror and realizing she looked like a sloppy blob
Only buying clothes from Walmart of Goodwill
Feeling like a blob on the ice
Dreading family gatherings and wishing she could hide
RawrGirl's Rewards for reaching her goal:
A new dress for Thanksgiving and/or Christmas
Getting a boudoir photo shoot for her Prince Charming
Building an amazing wardrobe (as finances permit)
LOVE how you have done this list above i shall do one my self later..my trouble is i forget to do these things and this seems such a motivator.
The only thing i could sya to you hun after 3 pages read....(i will read more each day and catch up)
I lived with a parent who wouldnt allow make up or fashion, i was teased at shcool.
I came home to find make up that i did have in the bin and i broke my heart on my knees going through rubbish to find it.
I became a punkand had great extroverted vision for fashion....where i may be now... i could may have been the next fashion mogle.
Its awfull what parents can do to us, i only leart in 2011 how to be happy or as happy as possible. We all have history past that wighs us down so complete and utter happiness is something that i feel is not reachable.
So accepting my life baggage my happiest was 2011 and it only came when i found m inside me, i worked on me, i built me and while doing that i introduced foods and exercise.
I found a place where no one esles opionin mattered, i didnt notice flaws in other people so not only did i accept myself i accepted the world and life as it was.
I do a positive action forsomeone eachday if the oppurtunity arises, I look after my family and friends ( very few) aquinatances are many.
The mind change came with a very strong self belief, independant and assured value that...if im not how you like me then DO ONE because i like me very much and i deserve to be at peace to enjoy me for me.
So huni Please do what you are doing for you...maybe your muffin tops are part of you.
We can exercise and keep fit to spend more time with our families and friends and be stronger to live indpendant in older age, but at the base of us all, is what we are and who we are and thats something that we should not ever try to change. My journey to find that started inwards.
Hope yu have a great day hun and will read more later XXXXX