BMI same as my age!!

[Kaysa]

Well done on your loss that’s awesome! I’m definitely along stream now I’m thinking about having a meal tonight, will be my first proper food since I’ve started but I can feel a big fall off the wagon coming if I don’t! I weighed myself last night as I couldn’t go two weeks without seeing what my progress was and my scales show I’ve lost 4lb so I’ll put it down as that and see what happens next Friday.

Oh the swimwear dilemma, I feel your pain but I will back up crafty and chant kaftan kaftan kaftan too ha x

Well done on your 4lb loss! That’s great

It’s better to have a planned meal than an unplanned fall. Then you can make healthier choices. I did wonder what you meant by “along stream”!

I have two kaftans for covering up, but I will be in the pool and sea a lot with the children, so I’ll have to bare all for that. Oh well, I’m sure the people around will recover from the trauma of seeing me in a swimsuit with suitable therapy.

Thinking about being by a pool reminds me of my last holiday. I went to the poolside buffet to get lunch for the children, my husband and myself. As I was carrying the full tray away I heard a group of American women laughing loudly to each other and saying, “I bet that’s all for her!” I felt so ashamed about my body.

 

[CraftySam]

I've worn a kaftan in a swimming pool before. Bit draggy but hey...body magic

 

[Kaysa]

I've worn a kaftan in a swimming pool before. Bit draggy but hey...body magic

I just snorted my milkshake up my nose!

 

[CraftySam]

I just snorted my milkshake up my nose!

Feeling crud today so making other ppl laugh is my jam
We aim to please

 

[Kaysa]

I finally went through all the clothes in my wardrobe.

Although I didn’t find anything else that fits now that didn’t before, it was a worthwhile exercise.

I’ve moved everything that doesn’t currently fit well to the back so I know exactly what I can wear right now.

And it turns out that I have LOADS of clothes that fit. There is absolutely no reason for me to live in the same few tops, pair of jeans, and pair of shorts. I’ve got at least a dozen lovely dresses in my current size, most of which have only been worn a couple of times.

I think the problem is that I like the idea of wearing dresses but when I get dressed in the morning they’re not ironed, or I don’t have comfy shoes to go with them, or I’m worried my thighs will rub. So, I am planning to do a mega ironing session within the next week, so that everything is ready to throw on. And I’ve got one pair of comfier shoes and am hunting for more. And I’ve got some short leggings to wear under dresses so that my thighs don’t rub.

I’ve got a girls’ night out coming up on Friday and I am going to wear A DRESS! And we’ve got friends coming over for Sunday lunch tomorrow (yes, I’m going to have to eat food) and I am also going to wear A DRESS!

Heck, I might even blow dry my hair, something I gave up doing when I had children and moved on to a ‘mum ponytail’ every day.

 

[CraftySam]

Oh that’s great news
So happy for you

 

[Kaysa]

Does anyone else on Cambridge diet find it makes them exceptionally gassy?

I can barely walk four metres without trumping. It’s rather embarrassing. Today my brother said, “What’s that noise?” and I had to pretend it was the boiler.

Maybe it’s just me that’s windy city on Cambridge...

 

[CraftySam]

Not on Cambridge but I’m extra gassy my cpap makes me swallow air sometimes
I can’t blame on anyone

...and as I’m bedbound and lay on my back it makes applause as it comes out which is worse!,

 

[Kaysa]

Not on Cambridge but I’m extra gassy my cpap makes me swallow air sometimes
I can’t blame on anyone

...and as I’m bedbound and lay on my back it makes applause as it comes out which is worse!,

Oh crikey CraftySam - why are you bedbound?

 

[CraftySam]

Oh crikey CraftySam - why are you bedbound?

Long story so
In a nutshell chronically ill since 11, moderately affected , then pushed myself too much and fell down stairs and body sort of gave up a bit. Hopefully going to get better soon been bedbound for 6/7 years x

 

[Kaysa]

Long story so
In a nutshell chronically ill since 11, moderately affected , then pushed myself too much and fell down stairs and body sort of gave up a bit. Hopefully going to get better soon been bedbound for 6/7 years x

Gosh, what a hard thing to happen to you. I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be to be bedbound. And how remarkable that you’re managing to lose weight anyway.

 

[Kaysa]

I was pretty good at lunch time today. I stuck to roast meat and vegetables, no potatoes. But I did feel obliged to eat some bread and butter pudding that one of our guests brought. It would have seemed very rude not to. I don’t even like bread and butter pudding!

Hopefully no more social engagements that I’ll have to eat at until Friday, so I can settle into five days of pure angelicness.

 

[Almost Fayemous]

Good on you! So I made myself a salmon stir fry last night and I maybe got through a quarter of it before I had to give up! Definite stomach shrinkage right here. Roll on Friday I say.

 

[Kaysa]

Good on you! So I made myself a salmon stir fry last night and I maybe got through a quarter of it before I had to give up! Definite stomach shrinkage right here. Roll on Friday I say.

Wow, stomach shrinkage! Yay! Four days left until your weigh in so stay on track with eyes on the prize.

 

[Kaysa]

I’ve gone down another notch on my belt, so that’s two notches now. It’s definitely working!

I’m well on track today and feeling positive.

 

[Almost Fayemous]

Yessss good work missy!! Lovin the positivity

 

[Kaysa]

Another successful day in the bag. I didn’t even feel hungry at all. Just eight days left until my final weigh in before the wedding, so I am super focused.

 

[Kaysa]

I’m finding it hard today so I thought I’d remind myself of some of the reasons I want to lose weight.

1. Last time I took my children to a theme park the bar on a ride wouldn’t go down over my stomach. A member of staff had to jump up and down on it to make it click into place. I’m now worried any time my children want to go on a ride in case I don’t fit in and we have to leave the ride, child upset, everyone staring.

2. I went to the theatre last week. The next day I had bruises on both hips where the arms of the seat were digging in because I was too big for the seat.

3. I went to a beauty salon for a facial. I climbed up onto the bed and it collapsed. I fell on the floor, hurt my back and was really embarrassed. I think it wasn’t up properly, because when the woman put it back up and I got back on it was fine, but I can’t be 100% sure. I’m sure the facialist was thinking it was because of my weight.

4. Last time I went on a plane the seatbelt wouldn’t do up. I had to ask the steward, in everyone’s hearing, for an extender belt (the type you use if you’re carrying a baby on your lap.) If that happens again when I fly to Cyprus it will be in front of all my family and lots of family friends. It will be humiliating.

5. I often find that seatbelts on coaches and minibuses won’t do up. So my safety is at risk every time I travel if I don’t lose weight.

6. I’d love to try kayaking but I’m worried I won’t fit in the hole (or will get wedged in it and people will have to drag me out.) Equally I’d like to try bungy jumping and zip lining but would be above the maximum weight allowed. Or need extra strong ropes/harnesses that no one else there needs.

7. I’ve pulled out of many, many social engagements because I look awful in all my clothes and am too embarrassed to be seen out.

8. I’d like to go on water slides with my children but I’m afraid I’ll get wedged in the rubber rings.

9. I think I don’t get taken seriously at work because of my appearance. I’d hate going for a job interview because I think they’d judge me as lazy because I’m fat.

10. I want to set a good example for my children and live a long, healthy life to look after them.

In a nutshell, staying overweight shrinks the number of opportunities for fun in my life. Having fun with my children is far, far more important than eating a sandwich. I’ll remember those activities for years to come. I’ll have forgotten about the sandwich by the following day.

 

[Kaysa]

I’ve just checked and when I get home from the wedding there’ll be just 16 weeks until Christmas.

If I lose 2lb a week that whole time, I’ll still be over 16st at Christmas. That’s really quite depressing - that I can diet for that entire time and still not be back in the clothes I wore before I had children. I was 13st when I conceived my first child, and was unhappy with my weight then. It’s going to take months and months and months to get anywhere near my ‘unhappy’ weight, let alone getting to my goal weight.

I’ve decided that when I get back from holiday I’ll switch to Atkins. I’m toying with the idea of doing Cambridge diet three days a week and Atkins four days a week to try and speed up the weight loss (like my own version of 5:2.) But I’ll decide that once I’m back. I may not be able to face drinking another milkshake ever again!

I’ve already ordered my Tesco shopping to be delivered as soon as I get back so I’m not tempted to get a takeaway until I’ve had time to shop. I’ll be straight back on track.

The things I’ve learned from the Cambridge diet that I hope will help on the next phase of my weight loss are:

1. Drinking water can numb hunger.
2. I can get by on really small meals. I don’t need huge plates of food.
3. I can get by on very little variety. I don’t need to cook different recipes every day of the week.
4. Six weeks is about my limit for sticking to a plan before the novelty has well and truly worn off, so I’ll need to switch to something else around October time.

 

[Almost Fayemous]

Loving you use of writing today to work through the feelings you are having about this whole journey. Your open honesty about why you are doing this is refreshing.

Loved reading your lessons learnt too!