I had a really good session with my counsellor (shrink) yesterday and basically I have become very obsessed and tight in my mind and body. I allow all my thoughts and energy to be put into my diet. Although even though I cheat with healthy food and am having very very very tiny losses, i am not allowing myself to live and have a life and freedom. As a result my body is not functioning properly and I am not allowing my body to loose the weight by holding in all this depression, angst and negative focus/continual focus and thoughts about food.... 24/7. I never ever shut it off and cant.
She has insisted that I give myself a life for 48 hours. It's a challenge and I need to relax. So it's been 24hours now and I have decided to stop following my diet but have eaten very healthily, 1350 cals for the day and have exercised at home for 40 mins.
I can honestly say today I have felt a glimse of freedom and a very slight weightless feeling in my head where some pressure has been taken away. Lets see how the next 24 hours go and I have a WI tomorrow with CDC so not sure on the damage of this challenge and I am very confused as to what to do with my diet plan?
Bren
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