Quick update,
Been feeling pretty Cr@?y - TOTM and all that goes with it decided to join in with eveything else and make me feel even better than I was before!!
Anyway, it all got a bit much yesterday - the anti-biotics were giving my tummy grief and I really just felt like dry crackers and you know how it is....one thing led to another and I ended up having custard tart and ginger biscuits and then feeling even more sick and bloated....grrr!
I'm back on track today, although the monthly tummy cramps are seriously testing my resolve.
I also feel a little out of control being away from home and not having access to scales - when I have gone off track, I like to be able to have an idea of the damage I have done - I have no idea what my weight is at the mo and I am just paranoid that I'm gonna go home in a week or two and find out that I have been putting on rather than losing - especially seeing as I am trying to slowly add a low-carb snack or meal a day in the gradual weaning off process - I just want to know the effect it is having....
I'm also feeling out of control as I am falling so far behind work, business and study wise - I keep asking myself - why oh why did I choose now to go back to uni in attempt to change careers. I am supposedly studying 'full time' but just don't have enough hours in the day to put in even a third of the time required. Also - because it is something that I am doing for me rather than a total necessity, I tend to put study way down on the priority list after work, chores, looking after general family needs etc. and I'm now in a total mess - I have a major coursework and loads of exams all within this next month. To make matters worse I'm also getting stressed as as part of my clinical practice modules, over the summer I am gonna have to strip off down to my unddies - YIKES!!! The thought of this fills me with absolute terror. I'm trying to use it as a motivator to keep on track dietwise, but even if I get to goal by then, I am still so bereft of body confidence that I just really don't think I'm gonna be able to go through with it - no amount of dieting is gonna get rid of the stretch marks, excess skin, saggy boobs.....the list is endless
I am a right grumpy cow tonight....I'll try to get out of the right side of the bed in the morning!!!
xxxx