hey girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am back bigger than ever (well not ever but more than last time i started SW) and ready to get back on track!!!!!
So this is what happened....
I was just getting on with life (not really following the diet but then following it some days), wondering if i liked my job, deciding whether i actually wanted a love life.... blah blah blah then BOOM at the end of july a terrible thing happened....
An incident at work had to edit
Since then, ive been a total mess, drinking most nights, eating everything in sight, haven't been sleeping, been off sick from work, trying to decide whether to move back to cumbria. it's been a struggle, work have been ok but not as supportive as i would have liked. They have said i've made it into a lot bigger thing than it was and need to get back on the horse and get back to work. Fair enough I have over thought it (can't sleep in the house on my own and stuff) but i am def not ready to go back to work, I can't face it. Its been a month now but I still can't. Also me and the boy decided due to location and me being a mess we should stop the whole "will we, won't we" situation and just face the fact that it won't happen. We are still friends so all is not lost
I have just come back from a week in Tarragona, Spain with my mum and it was lovely except for the flying.... on the way back the turbulence was that bad that i went to the back of the plane and asked the poor flight attendant what was going on he assured me it was fine but even my mum said when we landed that it was bad (fair play she never showed it once because she knows how scared i get) its safe to say the valium on the way back DID NOT WORK on the way it did but i think the two bottles of wine also helped
But overall the holiday was fab Very spanish, which I love, and helped me do a lot of thinking.
I am going to completely cut down on the alcohol (most nights i didn't drink on holiday) which im pleased about because I could tell it was going to become a bad habit. My weight has gone right up to 11st 11lbs which was more than I was when I started slimming world last year (11st 9.5lbs)
So i'm ready.... i have 25lbs to lose and i'm giving myself until my 25th birthday to do it (8th january 2014) VERY DOABLE I THINK but obviously with christmas just before that... you never know
Going to rejoin a class on sat morning
So I am now blonde.... and ready to become me again!!!!!! Join me
Missed you all!!!!!
This was longer than i intended it to be
xxx