Well today I faced the issue of my actual weight now head on, and got on the scales at my parents' house. I then cried. It is the most I have ever weighed. I knew it would be bad but it was a shock still. At my smallest I was under 10st but at my most healthy I am around 10st and comfortable in size 12 trousers. At the moment I am not always fitting into a 14 and weigh 12st 2. Not big I know, but big for me, and I am super uncomfortable in my body. I need to take control. I can exercise now and I will. I am.
My mum will only let me on the scales every fortnight or more and she doesn't want me focussing on it too much. Better to focus on feeling good and how I feel in my clothes.
After I get back from a little trip to Bath this week with my mum and will be joining my local leisure centre gym. My best friend goes there and there is a full size pool so that is extra motivation.
So, for today, here is my food intake measured on myfitnesspal:
B - cup of tea with milk, cranberry juice, mango, peanut butter on a slice of a small white loaf, peach fruyo yoghurt (480)
L - salad leaves with lots of toppings incl artichokes, sundries toms, rice salad, 2 small slices of ham, sweet corn salsa, cucumber and a slice of a small tiger loaf with benecol spread (worked out as best I can as couldn't measure as at mum's) (422+)
S - cup of tea with milk (15)
D - mushroom stirfry veg mix, oyster and spring onion stir fry sauce, oil, coconut rice (366)
= 1283+
I am aiming for 1300. I can't go too low as my big problem is evening binging which is my priority to avoid by making sure I don't get too hungry.
Well that's it for today. I enjoyed the hot weekend and the tennis!
It feels good to write all this out.
Bye x
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