Hey Patty!
I was just drained last night. Physically and emotionally. You can only cope with so many emergency situations before it starts to get to you!
I'm still really shocked by the comments made by Mum. She's not like that at all! We did talk about it later and I said that no one appreciates what I'm doing or sees any of it or really cares. Mum is like Rachelle, if the tv is on then they can't concentrate on anything, even if they're not watching it. Rachelle can't read in a room with the tv on because it takes her attention away! I've had many conversations with Mum and noticed she's not listening and I've said stuff like "We don't even watch Coronation Street", it's infuriating! Anyway, that's what it's like. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about Pinta's progress or issues because no one seems to really understand or care. It's only the bad stuff that stands out. Rachelle said to me the other week "I'd invite you around with the dogs, but I don't want Pinta eating my house". That was so hurtful! I'm just sick of everything a bit at the moment. I work, I look after the house, I look after the animals, I'm putting an incredible amount of time and money in to dog training, but .... Meh
One of the things Mum said was that I always shout at the dogs when I'm putting their harnesses/leads on and call them stupid and stuff. I asked her when I did that and she said every time. So I asked her when exactly was the last time she heard me do that and she couldn't say anything. I have done that in the past, I will admit that I can and do lose my temper, but every time?! How would she know? She's never here or around when I'm working with the dogs. Pinta stands perfectly still while I put her harness on and after she sits and waits for me to give her a treat. She now sits and waits while I open the front door - from either side.
Dave always runs from his harness, but he gets scooched to where I want him, I put it over his head gently, tell him we don't go anywhere without it, and gets a "good boy" and a fuss when it's done. Does that sound like I scream at them and call them stupid?! Just ffs!!
The last time Mum came on a walk with me and Pinta she brought Dave. it was dark, Pinta went mental, Mum is rubbish at dog handling/paying attention, she kept letting Dave race ahead or kept him so short he was scrabbling, Pinta got very very stressed, started barking at nothing, and we had to go home. That was about 1-2months after I got Pinta. We're now almost 5 months in.
She has been to one class, which I have to say was Pinta's best behaved class. She had her harness fitted as normal and then Mum had to hold her while I put the car seat cover on. Pinta jumped in the car, curled up, and I clipped on the seatbelt clip. No problems!
So I really don't get it. I told her I am working hard on my temper - but as everyone knows, depression/anxiety/stress can really mess with your temper and can make you snappy. So add on me constantly feeling like I'm being judged and not doing anything right, is there any bloody wonder I lose my temper when she is around and with the dogs?!
Even something as simple as not leaving a mug on the coffee table. Pinta WILL knock it off and does several times a week coz she still does it. Ellie was the same. And I get snippy when it happens because it's just common sense. Surely?!!
Argh! Anyway, I could go on forever. We have had a chat and cleared the air, but I doubt things will change.
I was going to take Pinta to class this morning but woke up in agony! I feel terrible because she really should have gone to class and it helps a lot. But I've had such a busy week and I decided to be sensible to stay at home.
Anya and Simon look a little happier today and they're both using the hutch and run now and seem a bit more comfortable now
I've cleaned them out and also completely emptied Anya's hutch and run. And I'm soaking the bowls, water bottles, and litter tray for new bunny. I might get him tomorrow. Easter bunny
Looks like we are going to the Food festival tomorrow! The weather looks less scary lol!! Mmmmm food.... LOL! I had already decided Easter Sunday would be an off-plan day. And I have a crap load of syns saved and done a lot of exercise this week. Going to try very hard not to let it run in to Monday! xx