Step 1 Sole Source Day 1 again, 6st off but 6st on !

[angelupnorth]

Thanks everyone, like I say I'm over the moon with the loss








I'm now knuckling down to another month 100% SS,
I have one more party on Sat which I can't avoid but I certainly won't be drinking as much as I did this weekend then I have NOTHING until Dec 1st so lots of time to drop another stone all being well
I did foolishly over do the demon drink and am just about back to " normal " but in all honesty it's just not worth feeling so poorly for so long. I knew I could manage without food but when socialising I do tent to go OTT with the Gin. I was pleased my friend noticed bless her, she has never ever commented on my weight and she waited until we were alone but it was very nice of her to mention it. We met a few years ago and I'm very fond of them all to the point where they are like family to me so there is no way I could have missed it nor would I have wanted to.
The jeans I had on Sat night were bought in Dec 2012 and were a comfy size 18
Think I'm going to order 16 and 14 now to give myself something to aim for, I have several size 12's as I just couldn't part with them so they will be my ultimate.


Some good news at last today the Hospital have rang and have a cancelation for Thursday so I go to see the specialist then and all being well I will be able to get back to work soon. The exercise on the train will do me the world of good my only issue will be the negative comments but nothing I can't Handle

Nothing much else to report, going to have a rice pudding with some ground cinnamon powder as my last product, straight back on it today and almost 4 ltr of water down
Feeling very positive again so here's to another good week for all of us,

 

[tomnkatesmum]

Hi Angel,

Well done on your loss and for getting straight back on it!

I've read through your diary and it's great to see you back, we were both doing this, at the same time back in 2012 and I remember seeing how well you did then!

I'm back on SS and on day 3!!! So pleased to have got to day 3 100% as though I found the first time easy, each restart has been hugely hard!! Feeling really positive now and your thread has really helped!!

Keep up the good work!!! ? you are doing amazing!

 

[angelupnorth]

Hi Angel,

Well done on your loss and for getting straight back on it!

I've read through your diary and it's great to see you back, we were both doing this, at the same time back in 2012 and I remember seeing how well you did then!

I'm back on SS and on day 3!!! So pleased to have got to day 3 100% as though I found the first time easy, each restart has been hugely hard!! Feeling really positive now and your thread has really helped!!

Keep up the good work!!! ? you are doing amazing!

Thank you

Well done on getting to day 3, the days will fly by now, positive thoughts certainly help. It's took me a long time to get back in the game but I'm so pleased I have x x x x

 

[tomnkatesmum]

Yeah day 3 and it's been really good!!

I've tried to restart so many times and each time I've cheated, maybe a biscuit each day or something, but it's cheating me which is cr@p, so this time I decided to do it properly!!

Fingers crossed I can keep to it... It's great to hear how well your doing as I know each restart gets harder so it's great to hear someone else who's doing it and doing it well!!!

Xxx

 

[AmaD]

hey angel, well done for getting back on it and the great loss you have had. I love that I lost what weight loss calculator, I just did mine and I have lost the equivalent to a wheaten terrier lol. And well done to tomnkatesmum for getting past day 3 . Lets keep up the good work!!!!

Progress so far
Started 4[SUP]th[/SUP] August – Weight 17stone and 3lbs
Week 1- Lost 10lbs
Week 2- Lost 3lbs
Week 3 and 4- went off the diet
I restarted with a new consultant on the 5[SUP]th[/SUP] September and gained 5lbs (16.4)
Week 1 (again) - Lost 9lbs
Week 2 – Lost 4lbs
Week 3 – Lost 4lbs
Week 4- Lost 3lbs (15.3)
Week 5- Lost 5lbs (14.12) and I vow that I will never ever see 15 on the scales again
Week 6- Lost 4 lbs
Week 7- Lost 2 lbs
Week 8-
Total weight loss 39lbs

 

[tomnkatesmum]

Hi AmaD

Well done on your losses! Looks like your doing great!! And well done for getting back to it after your blip!! ?

Hope everyone has an excellent 100% day

 

[FlicG]

Morning Angel,

Good to see you're back on it 100% and that's fab news about the consultant - let's hope they get you all sorted out!

Feeling positive this week - also feeling starving, but I know I that I can fight it - just have to keep strong.

xx

 

[angelupnorth]

Morning all, thanks for the dropping by, great to see so many supportive, motivational & inspirational people all here not only to lose weight but also to help others along the way.

Today is day 37, feeling pretty darn good. I have thought about not going to this weekends party BUT it is a family one and I know I will upset people by not attending so I will go and just not drink half as much as last weekend

21 days until my mother in law is back from Thailand so it will be interesting to see what she has to say ( if anything at all ) as she didn't agree with me doing CWP last time

Everything for me revolves around our social life as we are very social people so having nothing planned in Nov is great for me. No food at all for the next 34 days and it may make me a bit strange but I'm pleased about that.
Chicken and chorizo stew in the slow cooker ( as seen on this morning yesterday lol ) I'm a bit like the lovely Flick in that I quite like the cooking and knowing it doesn't topple me.
I have the house to myself today which is most unusual and rather than have a housework day I'm doing nothing
Will tackle the housework tomorrow.

I now have only 43 lb to get to my ultimate goal of 11.13 ( which I may change ) but it being under 50lb to go is a great feeling.

My Xmas goal was 13.13 and although that's only 15 lb away I'm sticking with that because Dec is a busy month with lots
of " planned " breaks so I dread to think how the scales will react to that. I made the mistake of buying my Xmas jumpers & t shirt in the Jan sales but they will be HUGE good job things like that's are supposed to look silly lol

I'm feeling in cruise mode at the moment just sailing along without any issues so not a great deal to post,

13 days until my next official weigh in with CDC, that should also be my blasted TOTM and fingers crossed i shall be back at work by then. I've managed this far without The dreaded bars ( which I binge on ) so I'm praying I can still avoid them, that will be a full 7 weeks but they are so much easier when I'm at work . . . . . . 13 days to make my mind up so that's my next big decision.

Hope everyone has a fab day x x x x x

 

[skydragon]

you are going great guns fantastic, fingers crossed that you get back to work really soon its good to get the normal routines of life back in order.

people always have opinions but as long as you know your doing the right thing for you enjoy the 21 days of peace before mil returns

glad its all going so well xx

 

[FlicG]

Well done lovely - keep on trucking!

My other half had this phrase which makes me laugh (excuse the rudeness) "Opinions are like arseholes - everyone's got one." Everyone will have something to say when it's your body and your decision - just keep on cutting. My little brother last night told me I didn't look well - purely because I didn't want to eat at Pizza Hut the other week. I told him to sod off. My dad also said I needed to start eating soon. I think it's just because they're not used to it. The key is to not let it derail you, and I know you're strong enough to stay on track (note the two train references! Haha!)

xx

 

[AmaD]

Hi AmaD

Well done on your losses! Looks like your doing great!! And well done for getting back to it after your blip!! ?

Hope everyone has an excellent 100% day

Heyy, thanks it did take two weeks but better late then never and I also think it helped me to stay on longer this time around, as when I was off I felt crap and so sluggish but being on it I have energy and just generally a lot better. Today has been good, haven't had all my water as I had to drive quite far and did not want to keep stopping at service stations but trying to catch up on it now. How was your day been? and it is great to see everyone is so motivated and in the zone, lets keep it up .

 

[angelupnorth]

Evening all, another day done and 100% SS,

I did do the housework in the end so that should have burned a few kcal cleaning the bathroom, the stairs etc etc

4 ltr of water done & 3 products down but I'm feeling a bit hungry today, not enough to make me do anything foolish, it could be the last of my vicious hangover or it could have just been the chicken & chorizo stew I made hubby ( as seen on This morning yesterday ) either way I've managed to get through the day and here's to another 100% day tomorrow x x x x

 

[FlicG]

Well done on your 100% SS day - great to see you're straight back on it.

Made a lovely oxtail ragu sauce last night, ready for tomorrow night's dinner for OH. Tonight i'm going to make a cake for work too. Sticking with it and being good this week with 100% SS days until Saturday. Seeing good things on the scales which is keeping me motivated.

Have a great day,

xx

 

[skydragon]

angel power is up and running fantastic! yay for us and any lurkers out there come back and regain your zing! ( you know you want to) im going well happy to get to day 3 with no slip ups)

think an early night is in order, maybe a long soak for good measure, onesie for warmth and hay presto one happy jen

catch you tomorrow xx

 

[angelupnorth]

Evening all

Day 38 ( I think ) another 100% SS day


You all know by now what I'm like for countdowns and rambling so graphic a bottle of water and prepare for a long one . . .

3 days until the family party ( don't even want to attend but have to keep everyone happy Im thinking now I won't drink BUT that's easy for me to say before i get there, but just in case I've got it in my mind on Sunday I will pull some of it back IF I do drink by doing a LONG walk with hubby

12 days until my next weigh in with CDC ( my last one I was 15.8 and have had 2 unofficial weigh ins since then ) I would love to be 14. 7 when I next see her, in fact that may be a bit ambitious but aim for the moon !

20 days until the Monster in Law is home ( love her really she's been away since Aug )

The real biggy for me is . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
33 days until myself and hubby go to Amsterdam ideally I would LOVE to be 13.13 by then
I will have NO food until then so that added to the 38 days so far will be 71 days with only one day off plan which was last Sat for the party in Glasgow ( 10 weeks SS ) so when I go away with Hubby that will be my SS + week.
We are going overnight on the DFDS ferry from Newcastle but have upgraded to commodore De lux so we have breakfast & buffet meal both ways also included is access to the Commodore lounge with free water, soft drinks, tea & coffee not to mention beers & wine ( again this will be my down fall ) The food I can manage breakfast they have boiled eggs and the Evening buffet they always have a roast option & apple seafood to choose from, I will stick to no carbs.


After that I have several other " breaks " planned which is starting to worry me now although I know it's all about damage limitation Dec is always a massive event for me, yes the full month lol

35 days until a 3 day break ( party for friends 40th , no chance of avoiding drink ) Then straight up to Edinburgh with hubby for a extra night :-(

43 days until another night in Glasgow, I know I can manage this with no drink and only 1 carb free meal.

My next thing is 49 days from now so that gives me from day 38 when i get home from Edinburgh to day 49 to pull my socks up before I head back to Amsterdam again with my best friend, we were due to do Lille and Brugge Xmas markets but that's gone tits up so we are doing the DFDS again in the Commodore cabins as above the same as with hubby :-(

That's then from day 50 when we return to day 57 for Xmas to pull my socks up again. At the moment Xmas will be a SS day as I can't afford to mess around if I want to keep in the 13's for the Xmas period.
We have a big family party on Boxing Day, I can avoid food but will have a few GT's

Then day 58 to 63 back on track as Day 63 is NYE ( if you've read this far well done )
Day 63 is a big one as we see friends who we only get to see a few times a year, NYE 2013 I was 14.7 so to be below that would be great as it will be rewinding the clock 2 years

I then have 97 days from NYE until we go to The Dominican so plenty time to get to goal ! It will be a hard slog when I look at it like this but as you know from my weekend away as soon as something is over I will be right back on track.
I have been to the Dominican a few times but never whilst slim, I think my lowest would have been around the 14st mark a few years ago and I was much bigger than this in Jan when we went this year so it will be great to have a holiday not stressing about what to wear and being able to pack more as each item takes up less space in the case lol


FlickG has got me thinking about the steps and I hold my hands up last time I went straight off and ruined all of my hard work, 6 months to loose 6.5 stone and most of it was back on in 6 months, I've not got quite as big as I was when I started in 2012 but not far from it.
My mistake was I started it for my " wedding " once the wedding was over I didn't mind going back to how I was because actually I've always been quite a happy person but this time I'm doing it so I feel better not look better ( although its good to look good ) Going back to food already frightens me . . . . . . I have way more control if I cut food out fully, I know I can't do that forever so far me CWP is like a safety net. I know I will crack it this time as I know I don't want to have to keep starting over & over . . . . Again unusually it's not because I find it hard but because I want to keep feeling good and the good feelings and more energy come more & more the more weight I drop so I don't want to ever be as big again.

All in all my initial goals are . . . . . . .

13.13 or lower for NYE ( 14.7 NYE in 2012 / 2013 )

Dominican 7 April 2015 goal of 11.13

I'm keeping 11.13 as my ultimate goal although I know I will want to get to 10.13 which is my Aug 2012 weight, wedding weight in Sept 2012 was 10.7 but by god getting from 10.13 to 10.7 was super hard work so I would Be ecstatic with 10.13, I think only then will I be happy to move up the steps that way I wills settle between the 10.13 and 11.13 where I look & feel good ( 10.13 is just a vanity thing of being under 11 )
I'm convincing myself as I type this that this will work for me and that I will be happy with this. It will also give me ample time to get my head around the steps and to feel confident in moving up. Although its something I fear I do read about them ALL and I go on other groups / social media where people post meal ideas for each step so I guess it's all about getting my head around it and seeing that its possible to maintain and possibly still lose on some of the steps instead of my fear of putting the weight back on !


Sorry to ramble folks but this page is one for me to coma back to and see how my head was at this stage, As we all know things change and my plans may well change but for the moment this is what I'm thinking will be best for me.
Thankfully I'm having no wobbles at the moment but I know how easy that can change, may god give us all the strength & determination to see this through and get to our goals.

Thanks for reading if you managed to get this far, it may be a load of rubbish in placed but like I say I want to be able to come back if I get any wobbles x x x x x x x

 

[angelupnorth]

Evening all Day 38 ( I think ) another 100% SS day You all know by now what I'm like for countdowns and rambling so graphic a bottle of water and prepare for a long one . . . 3 days until the family party ( don't even want to attend but have to keep everyone happy Im thinking now I won't drink BUT that's easy for me to say before i get there, but just in case I've got it in my mind on Sunday I will pull some of it back IF I do drink by doing a LONG walk with hubby 12 days until my next weigh in with CDC ( my last one I was 15.8 and have had 2 unofficial weigh ins since then ) I would love to be 14. 7 when I next see her, in fact that may be a bit ambitious but aim for the moon ! 20 days until the Monster in Law is home ( love her really she's been away since Aug ) The real biggy for me is . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 33 days until myself and hubby go to Amsterdam ideally I would LOVE to be 13.13 by then I will have NO food until then so that added to the 38 days so far will be 71 days with only one day off plan which was last Sat for the party in Glasgow ( 10 weeks SS ) so when I go away with Hubby that will be my SS + week. We are going overnight on the DFDS ferry from Newcastle but have upgraded to commodore De lux so we have breakfast & buffet meal both ways also included is access to the Commodore lounge with free water, soft drinks, tea & coffee not to mention beers & wine ( again this will be my down fall ) The food I can manage breakfast they have boiled eggs and the Evening buffet they always have a roast option & apple seafood to choose from, I will stick to no carbs. After that I have several other " breaks " planned which is starting to worry me now although I know it's all about damage limitation Dec is always a massive event for me, yes the full month lol 35 days until a 3 day break ( party for friends 40th , no chance of avoiding drink ) Then straight up to Edinburgh with hubby for a extra night :-( 43 days until another night in Glasgow, I know I can manage this with no drink and only 1 carb free meal. My next thing is 49 days from now so that gives me from day 38 when i get home from Edinburgh to day 49 to pull my socks up before I head back to Amsterdam again with my best friend, we were due to do Lille and Brugge Xmas markets but that's gone tits up so we are doing the DFDS again in the Commodore cabins as above the same as with hubby :-( That's then from day 50 when we return to day 57 for Xmas to pull my socks up again. At the moment Xmas will be a SS day as I can't afford to mess around if I want to keep in the 13's for the Xmas period. We have a big family party on Boxing Day, I can avoid food but will have a few GT's Then day 58 to 63 back on track as Day 63 is NYE ( if you've read this far well done ) Day 63 is a big one as we see friends who we only get to see a few times a year, NYE 2013 I was 14.7 so to be below that would be great as it will be rewinding the clock 2 years I then have 97 days from NYE until we go to The Dominican so plenty time to get to goal ! It will be a hard slog when I look at it like this but as you know from my weekend away as soon as something is over I will be right back on track. I have been to the Dominican a few times but never whilst slim, I think my lowest would have been around the 14st mark a few years ago and I was much bigger than this in Jan when we went this year so it will be great to have a holiday not stressing about what to wear and being able to pack more as each item takes up less space in the case lol FlickG has got me thinking about the steps and I hold my hands up last time I went straight off and ruined all of my hard work, 6 months to loose 6.5 stone and most of it was back on in 6 months, I've not got quite as big as I was when I started in 2012 but not far from it. My mistake was I started it for my " wedding " once the wedding was over I didn't mind going back to how I was because actually I've always been quite a happy person but this time I'm doing it so I feel better not look better ( although its good to look good ) Going back to food already frightens me . . . . . . I have way more control if I cut food out fully, I know I can't do that forever so far me CWP is like a safety net. I know I will crack it this time as I know I don't want to have to keep starting over & over . . . . Again unusually it's not because I find it hard but because I want to keep feeling good and the good feelings and more energy come more & more the more weight I drop so I don't want to ever be as big again. All in all my initial goals are . . . . . . . 13.13 or lower for NYE ( 14.7 NYE in 2012 / 2013 ) Dominican 7 April 2015 goal of 11.13 I'm keeping 11.13 as my ultimate goal although I know I will want to get to 10.13 which is my Aug 2012 weight, wedding weight in Sept 2012 was 10.7 but by god getting from 10.13 to 10.7 was super hard work so I would Be ecstatic with 10.13, I think only then will I be happy to move up the steps that way I wills settle between the 10.13 and 11.13 where I look & feel good ( 10.13 is just a vanity thing of being under 11 ) I'm convincing myself as I type this that this will work for me and that I will be happy with this. It will also give me ample time to get my head around the steps and to feel confident in moving up. Although its something I fear I do read about them ALL and I go on other groups / social media where people post meal ideas for each step so I guess it's all about getting my head around it and seeing that its possible to maintain and possibly still lose on some of the steps instead of my fear of putting the weight back on ! Sorry to ramble folks but this page is one for me to coma back to and see how my head was at this stage, As we all know things change and my plans may well change but for the moment this is what I'm thinking will be best for me. Thankfully I'm having no wobbles at the moment but I know how easy that can change, may god give us all the strength & determination to see this through and get to our goals. Thanks for reading if you managed to get this far, it may be a load of rubbish in placed but like I say I want to be able to come back if I get any wobbles x x x x x x x

 

[angelupnorth]

Last post for this evening !


What have you lost ?
I've lost between a average 2 year old and the weight of The cheese a average American eats in a year lol

x x x

 

[angelupnorth]

Ok so I'm still wide awake ( 0140 ) The joy of painkillers I'm now wide awake,

I know I said no more posts this evening but one last one ( excuse the fact it's not cropped properly )





My motivation for 2015,

Dreamliner back to The Dominican ( not until April ) ours was the Dream Maker this year which is quite appropriate as I want MTV dreams to come true by the time we go back !

Another picture in my swimwear, foolishly I still felt " fat " when that was taken on honeymoon in 2012 :-(
Praying to get that small again and I WILL wear a bikini this time !

Picture in the black dress hubby bought me in Macy's in the Fashion mall, size 10 ! That's another dream of mine to get back into it !

The last picture was us on a previous Dominican holiday and I do not want to be that big again when we go !


Sorry to keep posting blooming diet obsessed ! ! !

 

[Tano]

You sound like you're really focused and I'm sure that to everyone on Cambridge, we all totally get where you're coming from and your thoughts/feelings. You're smashing it!!!

 

[FlicG]

ah, i've had a long day stuck in meetings and have only just caught up with you.

FAB FAB FAB! I LOVE all of this planning. TBH, the days started to baffle me - I was trying to keep up with the day in relation to Christmas! Haha. It all sounds incredible - I wish I had that much planned for our Christmas break - not sure what we're doing at the moment. It usually ends up being a day by day thing with my friends. I KNOW you'll be near, if not at your targets as and when. You have such motivation and dedication and are amazing at getting back to where you need to be after an event.

I am SUPER jealous of your mini-cruises with hubby and friends. I have always wanted to go on a cruise...trying to persuade OH to do it for our mini-moon!

Keep at it lovely - you're doing so well.

xxx