Good morning.......
Feeling better about things this morning, repeating my mantra of ''one day at a time''...
Thinking of the road ahead seemed quite daunting at times, so have re-set my goal for a 10 week plan.
Am seeing a consultant on Wednesday about a referal for a Gastric band op.
I , originally, refused any help via bariatric surgery, I felt that I got myself into this mess and I should be able to get myself out of it.
But, my confidence and belief in myself has been a tad shattered of late, was very confident of losing lots of weight and it all being tickety-boo.
Sadly, I keep/kept losing my way and I am going to the clinic with an open mind.
I would imagine I will have to wait a few months before I get an appointment with the actual Bariatric surgeon and then even longer after that for an operation date.....by then I could be down to a weight that excludes from the criteria for the op.....which will be fantstic.
It all sounds a muddle but, it's a safety net for me....I cannot stay this weight...my body is hurting and I want to do things !
I want to have a flying lesson, I want to go scuba diving, I want to horse ride and I want to not have to think about my size every second of the day!
I will be do these things, I really will !
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