miss14
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Ahh thanks Wolf and littlemisspiggy16 - I did note the brown roll down as my HEX on my sheet but just forgot on here.
Had a HORRID few days. It started on Wednesday (weigh day). I was super excited for weighing as I feel like I've lost weight and apart from the drinking, have generally stayed within my syns allowance. So I had my frittata for breakfast, then soup for lunch. Went to get weighed and lost 1.5lbs. Now I know that's good, as a loss is a loss, but honestly I did feel disappointed. This was my first week back at SW and I wanted at least to get back into the 11st bracket. So yeh, disappointed. Anyway, I had planned to have a 'treat' meal afterwards if I lost. But absolutely went too far - ended up binge eating so much food and feeling awful, sick, my stomach hurt etc. I wasn't even hungry but felt that I needed to eat all the food I had bought, as I couldn't eat it tomorrow as I would be back on track. Because I'd eaten so much I felt low in mood and so guilty.
But thought to myself, OK, lets get back on track tomorrow. So Thursday I had good intentions - again had my frittata for breakfast with some onion chutney, then an apple and some soup for lunch. Had a tangerine for a snack. But just felt such an urge to eat more. I felt pretty tired and drained from work (I work 7 days a week which doesn't help) and hadn't put any coping strategies in to stop myself. I'm sure some of you know how it is - once I got the idea in my head that I should binge out, I just let it draw me in. So after a perfectly fine day of eating, I ended up getting loads of chocolate from the petrol station (I had to get petrol anyway so thought 'I might as well'), then had a KFC style wrap for tea, then finished off the rest of my binge foods that I hadn't physically been able to fit in the day before. Again, I went to bed feeling sick, tired, low in mood, bloated and guilty.
So here we are. I need to made a decision about my food choices over the next 5/6 days if I'm ever going to lose or maintain this week. So I know what I need to do, it's just about putting it in place. Today in work I'll be fine, I have frittata for breakfast (although getting sick of it - note not to have it next week!) and my usual soup, apple and tangerine in work. However the main difficulty will be tonight. I'm traveling to London for a night out with a friend. The first difficulty will be what I'm having for tea - I'll not have time to make anything after work and then will be on the train for a few hours. I have lot of snacks I could take (boiled eggs, fruit etc) but should really eat something 'proper' if I'm going out drinking. I'm just hoping there will be a good option at the station - maybe a sandwich with my HEX's. Then the second difficulty is the drinking. It's definitely not something I can avoid but do want to limit it to a few drinks before we go out. Thats both for SW and financial purposes!
So I am just hoping, praying, for an OK day/weekend. I know that it's ultimately up to me and no change will come about without me taking responsibility for my eating/drinking, but just going to take it one meal at a time for now.
Had a HORRID few days. It started on Wednesday (weigh day). I was super excited for weighing as I feel like I've lost weight and apart from the drinking, have generally stayed within my syns allowance. So I had my frittata for breakfast, then soup for lunch. Went to get weighed and lost 1.5lbs. Now I know that's good, as a loss is a loss, but honestly I did feel disappointed. This was my first week back at SW and I wanted at least to get back into the 11st bracket. So yeh, disappointed. Anyway, I had planned to have a 'treat' meal afterwards if I lost. But absolutely went too far - ended up binge eating so much food and feeling awful, sick, my stomach hurt etc. I wasn't even hungry but felt that I needed to eat all the food I had bought, as I couldn't eat it tomorrow as I would be back on track. Because I'd eaten so much I felt low in mood and so guilty.
But thought to myself, OK, lets get back on track tomorrow. So Thursday I had good intentions - again had my frittata for breakfast with some onion chutney, then an apple and some soup for lunch. Had a tangerine for a snack. But just felt such an urge to eat more. I felt pretty tired and drained from work (I work 7 days a week which doesn't help) and hadn't put any coping strategies in to stop myself. I'm sure some of you know how it is - once I got the idea in my head that I should binge out, I just let it draw me in. So after a perfectly fine day of eating, I ended up getting loads of chocolate from the petrol station (I had to get petrol anyway so thought 'I might as well'), then had a KFC style wrap for tea, then finished off the rest of my binge foods that I hadn't physically been able to fit in the day before. Again, I went to bed feeling sick, tired, low in mood, bloated and guilty.
So here we are. I need to made a decision about my food choices over the next 5/6 days if I'm ever going to lose or maintain this week. So I know what I need to do, it's just about putting it in place. Today in work I'll be fine, I have frittata for breakfast (although getting sick of it - note not to have it next week!) and my usual soup, apple and tangerine in work. However the main difficulty will be tonight. I'm traveling to London for a night out with a friend. The first difficulty will be what I'm having for tea - I'll not have time to make anything after work and then will be on the train for a few hours. I have lot of snacks I could take (boiled eggs, fruit etc) but should really eat something 'proper' if I'm going out drinking. I'm just hoping there will be a good option at the station - maybe a sandwich with my HEX's. Then the second difficulty is the drinking. It's definitely not something I can avoid but do want to limit it to a few drinks before we go out. Thats both for SW and financial purposes!
So I am just hoping, praying, for an OK day/weekend. I know that it's ultimately up to me and no change will come about without me taking responsibility for my eating/drinking, but just going to take it one meal at a time for now.
