Thanks Precious/Ali
And thanks for your support too
Well since my last post, I seem to have lost a lot of the control I was talking about
It was all going so well to start with - I was checking my weight every day, keeping a lid on my food intake, and things seemed to be under control. And then one day (before Christmas day) I got on the scales to see 13 stone 10lbs, which was about 3 or 4lbs heavier than I'd been the day before, and I couldn't understand why.
But anyway, instead of taking it on the chin and cutting back the following day, I thought sod it! There's no way I'm going to stay under 14 stone, never mind 13 stone 11 when I've got another two weeks of eating to go, so I might as well forget this....and since then, I've eaten everything and anything and haven't even looked at the scales
I know I've put a LOT of weight on, because my jeans feel tight, and I none of my going out clothes seem to fit properly (resulting in some full-scale meltdowns when I've been trying to get ready).
The plan at the moment is to get back on Exante on the 9th January, and I can't really see it happening before then, given that I've got a house full of food and a few things planned. I'm just hoping that the excess weight comes off as quickly as it went on, otherwise I'm going to be facing a long road ahead in the New Year.
I just can't wait to get some control back and start feeling good about myself again, because all this food really isn't helping.
On a positive note, I think I'm learning a lot about myself at the moment, and about my relationship with food. Even though I know I will have gained at least a stone, probably more, I also know I have to face it, and I can't shut my brain off from that like I used to be able to. Now, I feel like my appearance, wellbeing and health comes first, but before, food was everything and I could bury my head in the sand about the rest....so I suppose that's progress!!!
Anyway, sorry for the self-indulgent, rambling post....I'll leave things on a cheerier note and wish all of you a very happy, healthy and sucessful new year