Good luck with tomorrow's WI.Feeling super, the 'heavy' scales say I'm another pound down but I won't know for sure until tues.
A pound of fat does weigh the same as a pound of muscle but a pound of muscle is 1/3 of the size of the fat that is why you look slimmer but weigh the same. As fat burns off and is replaced by muscle you can get a slight increase in weght but a huge change in shape so you should really take your measurements. Think of what a pound of feathers would look like compared with a pound of iron and you will see what I mean.I thought muscle weighs the same, as 1lb of fat would weigh the same as 1lb of muscle.
Burble alert....... No diet or exercise stuff in this post just me getting my head straight.....
It's late and I'm laid here staring at the ceiling after blaming myself for the broadband bandwidth being too small to play iplayer. How irrational is that? I've had a quiet day and a nice quiet eve with my OH watching the Richard III programme but my head is playing up and emotions I usually bury with food are bubbling to the surface. Totm must be due, or one of my regular plummets into self loathing. A couple of days ago two male colleagues called me aggressive and I was taken aback. I have to act and make decisions under pressure but never shout and I hope I'm polite even if I have to be direct. I asked if they meant assertive but they said no," really aggressive". Someone who's aggressive to me creates conflict, is intimidating and can be downright unpleasant. It upset me to think people see me that way.
I let the thoughts go but now they are back and have brought every negative comment, experience and shitty thing ive ever experienced or blame myself for with them and its all whiz zing around my head. I'm even replaying situations and conversations in case I've upset anyone else and didnt realise. I told my OH how I was feeling and he kind of paused and I could here him thinking "here we go again" but he did say that many wouldnt follow the two guys concerned as leaders but a lot would follow me which was nice, but it didnt make me feel better.
well it stops now. Thoughts can't change anything said, emailed or done in the past so what's the point of letting them carry me on a downward spiral like they always do. They can drift in then they can blinking well drift out again! I've some good friends who wouldn't be in my life if I was so horrid. I've a job I'm good at with a lot of responsibility which I wouldn't have if I really am useless. Most of all I've a super OH who loves me ...oh.. And a black Labrador who dotes on me..... Especially around feeding time. That goes for the OH too.
Ive heard about negative thoughts on these forums. I think ill see if there's a book about how to combat them when I'm out shopping tomorrow. I've never been a self help book reader but if I can crack this then I think my binging fat days will be under control.
Burble over. Sorry for being so down and lengthy if you did read this but it's really helped get things back in perspective. I think I'd better put a burble alert on the top so others don't waste time on this post. Stay positive and on track. Fresh new day tomorrow.
Night.