Day 9
Had the worst experience ever last night at work :tear_drop:
I basically collapsed - it was my own fault I felt a bit wobbly when I started but as I work in a busy maternity hospital (Im a midwife) I couldn't have my 2nd shake in time so I hadn't eaten for almost 13 hours
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I came over all funny and I thought I was going to pass out
My poor colleagues and the patient thought I was having a heart attack as I went sheet white...
I was taken to the staff room and I said I was ok I just had low blood sugar but I was fed tea with sugar and toast - I feel awful I just feel so defeated and upset
I knew this VCLD was tough but part of me wonders if it is realistic given my job
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I have cried most of the day as I feel like a failure I know I have knocked myslef out of ketosis (surely with bread and sugar) and I don't think I can cope with the feelings I had starting this plan...
I just feel so defeated after my weigh in yesterday, I haven't felt like eating at all I just feel terrible..
If I go quiet for a few days it's my sadness, I wish I wasn't getting married in 6 weeks otherwise I would say ok I will do it gradually but it's really for my day all this hard work.... so so down
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