Yummy dinner last night, despite the fact it was unplanned. Made creamy turkey, spinach and tomato curry (syn free) with some rice, one poppadom (1.5syns) and some cauliflower and broccoli to up the super free. I love spinach it's such an easy way to add superfree!
I feel like I haven't had a full day to myself in about a year! I'm still as grumpy as I was yesterday and I have my appraisal at work this afternoon so that's going to really top off another sh*t day. It wouldn't be so bad if I knew what had actually put me in such a grump. I'm snappy, tired and uninterested in everything. Poor Grace must have hated me this morning she was jabbering on as she does and I just couldn't be bothered to listen or reply and then got more annoyed with myself for being a rubbish Mummy. I've text my best friend to tell her a) I can't afford tickets to the spice girl musical this month (going to see this would have cheered me up!) and b) can we please get drunk soon as I need to laugh/cry a lot. I feel like I just need a tiny bit of time to do something for me, be it go to the cinema, a exercise class, a coffee with a friend anything that is not work or domestic stuff. Even knitting seems to have dropped off my radar now as Ben is working different shifts at his new job and whilst I'm really happy for him it does mean more mornings like today where he is up early, wakes Grace up (grrrr!) and then I'm left to get her ready and out to the childminders and will probably have to pick her up tonight when she'll be grumpy because she was up early.
Going to use my appraisal to bring up the fact that my job has got dull. I've been here for 4 years and started out as a conference assistant, when we had a few products ( a series of uk events, an awards dinner, an international event and some ad-hoc conferences) to work on. Now I'm the event lead but only work on one product (The same event just repeated around the UK) and could organise them with my eyes closed so need a new challenge. To be honest if the pay wasn't so good and the fact that the hours fit in well around Grace I would have left a while ago. It's balancing what suits us as a family with having some career progression and job satisfaction.
Today's plan is
B - Banana, Muller Light and Blackberries
L - Sweet potato, pepper and carrot soup, plus ham salad sandwich (HexB)
S - 2 Clementines, Apple
D - This depends on whether Ben comes home at a reasonable hour or if I eat by myself (mum usually feeds Grace before I get home). If it's just me it is likely to be jacket potato with the leftover curry from last night and some salad.
I didn't get a chance to do any planning last night for the week as I took my miserable self off to bed to try to re-adjust my attitude (obviously didn't work). I also didn't do any exercise.
On a more positive note I brought 2 t-shirts yesterday from Next and they are too big! Yay! I did buy a 16 but I have pretty big boobs and when I tried them on today there was just too much material. I've also found that my jeans are becoming a bit baggy and loose too so it looks like it is working! On another clothing related note I looked at the topshop dress that I was eyeing up for our anniversary and decided it wasn't for me.
Fingers crossed for WI in the morning as hopefully there will be some news to cheer me up! Also keeping me motivated to not drown my sorrows in cake!
xx